The ugly truth is better than a beautiful lie

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~ Hyeri's POV ~

I looked at my phone, it's 35 misscalls and 51 messages from Jinyoung. I throw it again on my bed, i don't have the will to pick up his calls or read the messages. I sighed again, i walk side to side in my room.

I'm still affraid to go to the hospital, the nervousness make my stomach ache. What if the result turn to bad news for me?

I look at the clock in my room it's afternoon already, i still can manage my feeling.

My mother knock on my door, and telling that my friend come.

"Who's that mom?" I asked while opening the door, "His name is Jinyoung" i grab my bag and jacket, then rushing to the front door.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him in a low voice, he make me annoyed.

"You didn't pick up my calls nor replying my messages, i have waited for five hours. You have a bad habbit to make someone waiting like forever" i pushed him outside and saying "wait here" i go to the inside again.

After i get permitted from my mother, i'm going to the door again. Jinyoung bowed to my mother and thanked her.

We go to downstair and a silver BMW car parked at the parking lot. My eyes grew bigger when the driver open up the door for us. I turn my eyes to him with 'are you kidding me' facial expression, unfortunately he just shruged and coy smile form on his face.

"why you work at the store if you can buy this car? you don't have financial problem i guess" he nods, "it's not mine and what do you think?" i shruged.

"let me reminds you with this" he gave me a pictured of fat cute boy with mini me beside him.

"dwaejinyoung?" my mouth agaped, i look back and forth between the picture and him. He nods and smile.

"are you really dwaejinyoung?" he really enjoy my surprised face.

"yaa.. Can you stop calling me with that stupid name?" i still can believe what i see, "ah i'm sorry" i bowed to him without i realise and got him chuckled.

'are you stupid Hyeri? Why you have to bowed' i say inside, my face reddened. It's a habbit if you have to deal with customers.

"how can you.. " i stopped my words while my eyes sweeping his appearance.

"being this fine?" he's being haughty. I'm so done with him, why i have to face up someone like him.

"excuse me, you have a chronic confidence disease young man. You must check it up too" i replied with sarcasm. He laugh hard and saying "yes ahjumma (aunty)", he make me feel irritated.

I decided to stay silent before i get impatient and killed him soon, how can he grew up to be a jerk like this. He is super cute boy when we were a kids.

I remembered my father bring me sometimes to his house, he was a shy and lonely boy. My father asked me to play with him, it's hard for the first time because he doesn't want to shared.

But when i share my candy to him, he smile and share his toys. We being friend for one year because my father quit from his job, we never seing each other again until he showed up at the store.

"Why your not tell me earlier?" He smile, "i want to surprised you".

'Yeah you did surprised me Jinyoung' i said in my heart.

This nostalgia conversation make me forget about what i have to deal with until we arrived soon at Asan Medical Center, when we get out from the car the guards and staffs bows at him. I'm surprised again, his father must be an important person i guess.

"Is doctor Lee Youngmin here?" He asked the staff, "Yes, he's coming 15 minutes ago Sir" a young doctor answer him while escort us to his room.

He open the door and invited us to come in, he greet and bow at us.

"I thought you will come with your mother. I didn't know that you have an important friend Miss Kang Hyeri, have a seat" we sit in front of him.

"Hyung, sorry for disturbing your free time" his eyes widened, "woah it's a rare thing you apologizing like that, maybe rain will fall in this bright day" he teased Jinyoung, i snort.

"Why you don't come here as i told you before?" He intertwined his fingers on the desk.

"I..i'm affraid doctor" he look at my eyes softly and smile, make me feel comfortable yet nervous.

"The more early we know, we can handled it faster. Now we have to examined more detail about your disease, come with me" we followed him.

I enter the CT-scan room, i look around this is something new for me.

"You can change your clothes in that room, please remove your accessories" i noded, i look at Jinyoung with worry. He grab my shoulder and pinned my eyes while saying "you'd be alright".

I change my clothes and stand in front of the mirror, i took a deep breath and saying "you can do it Hyeri, you are a tough girl".

I'm out from the room and walk to the room with a huge machine, "you can laying down on patient table now miss Hyeri" doctor lee said to me from the intercom. I do what he said, i get up and lay my body.

My heart beat faster and the cold air coming through my body, i prayed in my heart hope the result is good. The patient table start move slowly into Gantry (a machine that looks like a giant donut).

After i get examined, we wait at the bench until the result out. I look down and intertwined my fingers, i prayed again. Jinyoung link his arm on my shoulder, he wishper "it's gonna be okay".

He accompany me with the same nervous eyes, but i'm glad he were by my side now. I can't imagined have to face it alone in this cold place.

The nurse calling my name. We stand up and enter the room, doctor Lee smile and we sit down.

"The result is out, lets take a look at it first" he turn the computer to us. I can see the slide of my brain but not understand what's that mean.

"To be honest the result is not good for you Miss Hyeri, the leukemia cells have undermine your lungs. You must hospitalized soon, you have to get your chemotherapy and medicine treatment" i gasped, my heart fall to pieces.

"I don't want to give you a false hope, but your chance is 50:50 now. You still have a hope to cure, the best part is you're still young. Your immune system is still good, don't loose your hope. I'll do the best for you" he end the conversation. No matter he give me a good sight, that still make me shock. What if it's the vise versa?

In a minute i'm sit at his car again, he insist to drive me home when i tell him that i want to go home with bus.

"I will prepare your needs, don't worry. All you have to do is grab your things" he said. And i have to tell my mother too, because she must know it sooner or later.

"I will pick you up again tomorrow, you gonna tell your mother right?" I noded in a sad face, i can't bare my tears again. A cried sounds fill the car, the driver surprised by my act but i don't care.

Jinyoung hugged me tight, i cried in his embrace. He stroked my back up and down, i feel vulnerable and despair. He knows what i need in time like this, and it soothe me.

If only he was Hoseok Oppa.

*****

~ the next day ~

We're on the way back to Seoul, it's surprised me when Yoongi said that he will drove us home. I thanked him since we has a gloomy morning because of the incident last night.

Jimin exchanged with Namjoon, i feel helpful by his existence.

"Can you tell us what happened last night Mari?" Yoongi open the conversation as the car moved on the road.

"Hyung.. can we asked her later after she's ready? She's still shock" i look at him with a worry face.

"You want to extend time? We have to solve this soon, i don't want to let this misunderstanding screwed up our friendship" Mari and Jimin noded to his statement.

"It's okay baby, i will tell you guys" she take a deep breath.

"He tells me that he still love me, that kissed was pissed him off. Then i told him that my answer is still the same like before, it's the second times he confessed" she was silent for a moment, i squeezed her hand to encourage her but my heart burned.

"And then he said that he's better than Hoseok in every way, he can make me more happier. And i said, i have everything and i'm happy with Hoseok. But it's just make him more upset, then he kissed me. It's make me angry, i pushed him hard and slapped him. Hoseok came to us, i'm affraid that you will left me" she faced me with teary eyes, i hug her with no hesitation and saying "i will never left you".

No words escape from Yoongi and Jimin lips, my jaw hardened. I knew he hide something from me.

The way he stared at her, and he hold back to say anything to me. That answer to why he act weird this time, i believed him so much but what he have done to me? He is a back stabber, by thinking of that make my blood boil.

He was like a sibling for me, we shared everything. That memories turn to a sad story of mine, it's make me sick just to remember that he was my friend.

"Hoseok~aa.. you have to heard the story from Namjoon's sight too, it's a fair game then" Yoongi said to me, i want to ignore it but i can't.

"I believed what i see hyung, that's enough for me. I don't have to heard his excuse, it's just hurt me more" i murmured and clench my teeth.

I see through the window, the pictured of what we've been through together come to my mind like a movie. The smile and the tears make the pang sound in my heart, it hurts so much.

"Hyung, what Yoongi hyung said is right. Sooner or later you have to end this war, we can't stand both of your side. From what i know, Namjoon hyung is the type of think first before act, he has his own reason why he do that. That's my opinion" Jimin said while grabbing the seatbelt tight.

I questioning it too, it's not like Namjoon that i know. But my heart still denied it.

"I'm just not ready for that" Mari squeezed my hand softly, her worry eyes bothered me. I believed her, she won't lie to me.

I arrived at my house, Yoongi escort me first before the others. I threw my bag and layed down on my bed, i'm sleepy because i can't shut my eyes until now.

My brain filled with that incident, but i can't bare to open my eyes anymore. My brain and my body exhausted, i look at the back of my hand. The red colour bruised still there, i let out a long exhale.

*****

I'm awakened, i heard my mother voice from downstair. I looking at the window and the moonlight filled my dark room, i get up and turn on the lamp.

I go downstair because i feel my stomach grumbled loud, "mom, have you cooked something?" My mother surprised with her eyes go side by side.

"Aahhh.. my baby boy has comeback home, are you hungry?" she push me to the kitchen, i'm confused " what's wrong with you mom?" She look nervous. "No.. nothing" and she stuttered now.

Then i heard the door open and a guy saying "honey, where is my towel?" standing in front of me with his shocked face.

"Oh..great"