While i waiting for namjoon, i sit at the same bench in the hospital park like yesterday. I put my earphone and start listening to my playlist, i humming a bit. I hope i can see Mari again, i haven't so attracted to a girl like this but if today i can't see her again maybe i can assumed that yesterday is my lucky day.

I closed my eyes, raise my head to the sky. I can feel fresh air fill my lungs, it reminds me to her again. Suddenly my phone rang, i pick it up since namjoon's name appear in the screen.

Me : "Eo..namjoon, where are you?"

Namjoon : "I'm on my way to the hospital, i'll be right there in 10 minutes"

Me : "Okay.. i'll wait for you, give me a call then. I'm waiting in the park"

Namjoon : "Don't tell me that you'll waiting for her too, don't you?"

Me : "Just drive safely eo"

I end the conversation without answering his question, he'll be laugh to my stupid act.

I looked around to find her present, but i can't find her every where. " I have 10 minutes to wait for her" i muttered, i put my earphone again.

I listened to Fantastic Baby by BigBang, i tap my hand on my lap follow the beat of the music. Without i realized i get up and dance, i can't feel the pain of my body when i start to dance.

To be dancer is my passion, but i tried to rap when my friends said that i can be a good rapper too. I startled when i saw several people smiling at me and clapping to my performance. I take off my earphone, and bowing to them while say thank you.

I feel my face going redder, then i grab my backpack and lowering my hat till it's enough to hide my face. I rushed walk to the lobby in embarassment.

"why i always do something stupid in front of people?" I said in my mind.

I sit on the bench in the lobby, i look at my watch three minutes left. I breath heavily, my face still hot.

My phone rang, i'ts namjoon. I pick up the phone, i take a deep breath then talk to him.

Me : " Yaa.. where are you?"

Namjoon : " in front of the entrance"

Me : " i'm out now, wait for me"

Namjoon : " okay "

Then i rushes toward to the entrance door, i see namjoon's car outside the door. When the door open, i quicken my step and burried my face from embarassment before.

I opened the car door, and sit hurrily.
Buckled up the seatbelt, namjoon looked at me with puzzled eyes.

"What's wrong with you?are you stealing something?" He asked while driving the car out of the hospital, "no..nothing" i looked at him disbelief and turn my head to the window.

"Are you met her again?" I shruged and shake my head, namjoon looked at me then he sigh.

"Forget about her dude, it's just a coincidence" i just noded to his words and look outside the window.

Namjoon turn on the radio, and we sing a long this way home.

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I hurrily open the gate, as if i eager to see the people inside my house.

I opened the door, my heart beat fast as i want to saw my mother face so bad. "Mom..i'm home" i smiled happily, namjoon following me from behind.

I turned on the light, "welcome home jeong hoseok" i startled, maybe i make my face look stupid in front of them now but i don't care.

My bestfriends gathered to make welcome party for me, i run to my mother and embrace her in my arm. I hug her so tight, like i didn't see her for a long time.

"Hoseok-a.. u get well soon, sorry i haven't visited you in hospital" my sister said while pinched my cheek, she smile at me and hug me tight. I hug her back tighter, "it's okay noona.. you have a strong brother" i released her.

I greeted my bestfriends one by one, "hoseok-a let's eat, i prepared a lot of food for all of you. You must've been hungry, don't you?" She asked us. "Neeee " we shouted together, my mother and sister bring all the foods to the table with jin, jimin, and jungkook helped them.

When namjoon stand up to helping, me and yoongi pulling his shirt immediately. "You just have to stay here,  or we end up starved" yoongi said then we laugh over his words. His head was bowed in shame and follow to yoongi's order, he knows exactly that yoongi's words is right but he just want to help too.

We call him "God of destruction", despite he have smart brain with IQ 148 but it can't cured his careless nature.

"Hyung.. what if we play online games in your room after we eat?" Taehyung asked, "i agree" jungkook chimed to his words.

"It means that just the two of you ended up playing that game forever" i muttered, they see each other and grined together at me.

After all food is set at the table, we start to eat. Aahh.. i missed my mother's foods so much, the food in the hospital was bland and makes me lose my appetite.

I just hope i can come back home soon when i was there, and sleep in my cozy bed. Just four days in the hospital it feels like forever for me.

After we eat we rushed to my room, my mother and sister back to the shop again because it's holiday and a lot of customers come to eat at our restaurant.

"Eo.. i remember that day when i was beated by loan sharks, you guys said want to talk to me about something. What's that?" I asked them, "hyung..you talk to him" jimin said while looking at yoongi.

"Okay.. namjoon said to me that what if we tried to do performance at hongdae, what's your opinion about that?" Yoongi asked with serious tone while looking at me, "it's a great idea" i answered.

"While we prepaired our own song, we will do dances cover or sings cover. I can played guitar or yoongi can played piano" jin convinced us. We nodded together as the answer, "when we start practice? And  where?" I asked. "We start practice next week, for the place i have get my uncle permission to used his store before he use it" namjoon explained.

"But i have a part time job, how can i manage the schedule?" I asked with worry, they just bend down their head with no words. With our busy school scedules, we just have a little time for practice everyday.

"It's your choice dude, we have no reason to interfere with your life" namjoon said.

"I will quit my part time job, because  the practice will take a plenty of time" i looked at them with a sad smile, "are you alright with that? Because we know your family condition" yoongi asked me again to reassured about my decision.

"I'm okay hyung, i will find another flexible part time job that fit to our practice time" i convinced him, then i forced a laugh.

"Okay, we have decision that next week we will start our practice time at 8 o'clock we gathered at namjoon's uncle store" yoongi said with a clap, "okay" jin answered and the others just nod their head.

"We have to practice making a song lyrics too, we will evaluated it together every week. Me dan yoongi hyung will try to arranged, so i hope you all make your best effort to do this. Especially the three of you, don't just played games all the time. Understand?" namjoon pointed at Jimin, Taehyung dan Jungkook.

"But hyung i don't playing game as much as them" jimin protested, "but you're not good enough to write a lyrics, so practice" namjoon assertived his words.

Taehyung and Jungkook chuckles immediately while namjoon scold jimin, and jimin turn to them with his glare and mouthing "i'll kill you" to them.

After our conversations end, we just spend the night with playing games and doing the absurd things. Chit chat about something, or watch movies.

Night's getting late, they decided to go home. I give them walk to the gate, after their leave i don't know why i feels there's someone staring at me from the end way.

When i turn around to look at that figure, i saw a men with black leather jacket and grey hat hiding his eye. He wear a mask that hiding his nose and mouth, both of his hand in his jacket pocket that making him look more suspicious.

He just moved side to side, i squinted to see him clearly but still don't have a clue.

When he realise that i watched him, he turn his body and walk a long quicken his step then disappear from my sight.

I'm going in to my house and still questioning who the hell was that guy, he's freaking me out. Maybe he's just a stalker, or my sister biggest fan. "But if he's nuna's fan, why he's here? He must be came to the restaurant" i mumbled while take a step up stair to my room.

Ah never mind, why i think about someone that i don't know. I walk in to my room and dropped my body on the bed then stared up to the ceiling.

"Aaahhh.. it's comfortable" i mumbled , i stretch out my hand upon my head. I take a deep breath, this smell is still the same when i left this room four days a go.

Why this sentimental feeling pop out in my head, i've been tried to forget about her but she always come without my will.

Maybe i'm just so lucky, my heart beat fast while i waiting for her in the hospital. My adrenaline increased to the excitement and making my palm sweat. Just to think about her it makes me feel happy, i smile like crazy boy.

Is this love?

That question suddenly come to my mind, i startled myself to that word. I've never fall in love before, so i didn't know how it felt like.

It's make me hope again, maybe it's just a false hope but i dont know why i wanted it to became true.

I shake my head to erased the thought about Mari, i try to distracted my mind. It's not right, maybe it's just a temporary feeling and i will forget about her soon.

Tomorrow i will talk to Dong Gu hyung that i will quit from the job, tomorrow is my last time work at the store. I hope i could find a new job, because now i'm the only male in my family and i will took the responsibility. Even my mother want me to focus in my school, she tells me  not to worry about my college too because she have saving the money for that.

I feel pity for my mom because she have to work hard at the shop for our finance, i feel useless.

I always give my salary to her every month, and she always reject it but i insist. My mom just smiling when i give her the envelope, "in the future, i will become a successful men so i can give all that you want mom" It reminds me to that day.

I know my salary is not much, but i'm proud of myself because i get the money with my own hand. I work hard for that.

The knock on the door pull me back to reality, "hoseok-a are you sleep now?" I heard my mother voice behind the door. "Not yet mom, come in" i answered, my mother face pop out and walk in to my room.

I wake up and i sit on my bed with crossed leg, my mother sit at the edge of my bed.

"How are you sweetheart? Is it still hurt? Are you have eaten?" My mother interogated me, i just smile "i'm a son from a strong women, it's nothing for me mom. Yes I have eaten before my friends going home, i'm not a little kid anymore mom. i'm a men now, i even have to shave my beard everyday" i chuckled. She still caressing my bandage at my left temple with worry.

Suddenly i remembered that suspicious guy, when i want to open my mouth to ask her but i hold it again because my mother talk to me again "you just enjoy life, don't worry about everything. I will take care of this problem, play with your friends. Meet a lot of people, chase your dream and do what you want to do. You can't repeated your youth, so just enjoy your time. Quit from your job, you can still helping me at the restaurant sometimes. I want to see my kids happy" she give me adviced with her beautiful smile.

I sighed, "Nee eomma (okay mom).. if that what you want then i can't argue about that" i huged my mother and we laughed together.

"Okay i will take a rest, you take a rest too because your wounds still not cure yet" i noded.

"Goodnight sweetheart" my mother said, "goodnight mom" i greeted back.

After my mother left, i sighed again. Maybe i will asked her about that guy later, my eyes is too tired now.