Chapter Twenty Two. 

JUSTIN: 

            When the door closed to her room I could tell she was nervous. She was doing that thing where she couldn't stand still. Instead of turning around to look at me, she was picking up things in her room she forgot to put back until she finally took out clothes from her dresser drawer and cleared her throat.

"So I'm going to take a shower." She said. "I'll uh, be back in a few minutes, okay?"

"Sure." I replied, sending her a small smile. "Do you have a charger I can use? I forgot to bring one."

"Yeah, of course. It's in the nightstand."

The door closed behind her just as I opened up the drawer to get what I needed. A charger isn't what I found though. Instead, I saw a letter. It wasn't addressed to me but it was addressed to my rehab center. The one I had stayed at while we were apart. Nothing was even registering with me right now except the black ink staring back at me.

Quickly taking the envelope out of the drawer, I ripped it open with my shaking fingers and glanced at the door to make sure she wasn't there. Was I nervous about what was inside? Extremely. I had no idea what I was about to read.

Justin,

So I think this is probably the twentieth time I've tried to sit down and write something. Every time I do I just end up writing stupid things down that don't just cut right to the point so I think that's what I'm going to do in this one.

I know you're probably confused. I would be confused too if I were you but I just want to let you know that we aren't over. At least to me we aren't. I never wanted to end things with you and that night I left was the worst mistake I've ever made. At times I try to think about what I could have done or said differently but when I heard that you were in rehab I didn't really regret what I did. You're getting better Justin and that's what matters the most to me.

I visited you in the hospital. Nobody was there but I did. You weren't conscious from all the blood you lost but I was there and I don't want you to think I wasn't. I've just been debating on how to tell you but when I saw you there I didn't want to re-visit because what's the point in that? I did that to you. I made you like that and I've never regretted anything more in my entire life. I wish I were the thing you needed to make you happy. I wish I were your saving grace and not the thing that destroys you. If I could be that for you then that would be the most amazing thing but unfortunately I'm not that person. As I sat there all night by your bedside I realized that I need to be away from you in order for you to heal.

You are the most important thing I have even though I think I may have already lost you. If you get out of rehab and those doctors convince you that I'm what you need to get rid of in order to get better then that's exactly what you need to do. That doesn't mean I won't hurt and that doesn't mean that I won't ever be the same again. What it means is that your health and your well-being means more to me than my own feelings. This sounds so stupid right now but I'm just writing what I'm thinking. It's only been a week since you've been gone yet here I am sobbing as I write this letter. I'm not even sure if I'll send this because what if you don't want to read it? What if you're so mad at me for leaving that you'd just rip this up? That'll kill me. I hope you don't. I hope you read this.

Oh, and before I forget, if it makes you feel any better I'm watching Evil Dead right now. Maybe you're so mad that this won't make you smile but I'm just thinking about how last month we watched it together for probably the hundredth time but we hardly watched it. I'm missing you like crazy baby... like crazy.

I'm sorry this just keeps dragging on so I'm going to stop now. If I send this then hopefully you'll respond but at this point I don't even know if you're ready to hear from me yet. I would hate me too and I'm sorry. I know that when you get out you will be so much better and I'm going to be right here the minute you get back. I'll be right here waiting to kiss you like crazy and I'll be right here to make you feel better.

I love you Justin,

Reina.

The tears were flowing onto my cheeks and I couldn't stop them. My fingers were trying to hold the piece of paper in my hands but they were shaking like crazy. Oh my god she wrote me.

Looking back in the drawer, I found pieces of papers with my name on them. They were the start of letters that she never finished. Just tons and tons about what she did that day or how much she was thinking of me. Why didn't she send them? Oh my god she wrote me.

Oh my god she wrote me.

She didn't forget.

REINA:

After my shower I changed into a pair of pajama shorts and one of my old David Bowie ripped t-shirts, tying my hair up into a messy bun. I didn't care at this point what I looked like in front of Justin because he's seen me at my worst. I wasn't exactly trying to impress him although I probably should be. Being in a ripped t-shirt isn't exactly giving off the best impression.

Letting out a sigh because there was no turning back now, I opened up the door to my room and gently closed it behind me.

"Sorry I-"

"Come here."

His lips crashed against mine before my brain could catch up to my thoughts. As soon as they did, my whole body turned to jello and I could feel his tears on my cheeks as I hooked my arms around his neck and let him press me up against the door.

His tongue slipped inside of my mouth and his hands were running up my waist. Nothing was making sense but I wasn't going to complain for even a second. I've been waiting for this moment for six months. Now it's finally happening and it was better than I could have ever imagined.

"Baby." He whimpered, my heart completely stopping. "Baby I missed you so much."

He picked me up into his arms so my thighs could straddle his body and I was crying so much I felt like I couldn't breathe. Being in his arms made me feel so safe. It was a place I never wanted to leave.

"Why?" I asked breathlessly. "Why now?"

Looking back at my bed, he nodded towards the hundreds of letters that were all sprawled out onto my bed. I completely forgot I had put them in the drawer. I just never thought he'd be over to look in there so I didn't think to hide them.

"I was trying to tell you..." I trailed off. "But you told me to stop and-"

He kissed me again and my back landed on top of the comforter, wrinkling all of the letters so they were all crushed but I didn't care. Him being on top of me took everything away.

"You wrote." He whispered. "That's all that matters."

My hands were un-doing his tie and he was getting that little smile on his face even though his eyes were all teary-eyed. I've been waiting for this moment for so long I can't even begin to describe the amount of feelings going on inside of my body right now.

"Reina..." He whispered, beginning to kiss the side of my neck. "I'm sorry for making you wait."

His tongue was going in circles across my collarbone before he gently started to sink his teeth into my skin. My lower stomach was going into butterflies and all I could think about was him and how much I wanted him in this exact moment.

Throwing his tie to the side, I stripped him of his suit jacket and started to fumble with his belt as he was still leaving hickeys all over the place. I would probably have a ton of marks but I didn't care. That's the last thing I'm worried about.

"I love you." He said quietly. "I never stopped Reina. I love you."

The tears came out even more onto my face and I grasped his cheeks into my hands, attaching my lips to his so I could kiss him like crazy. All I wanted was him and all I cared about was this moment between us.

"I love you too Justin. You know I never stopped."

His pants were off and I tore down his briefs, finally feeling his naked body on top of mine and by god it felt so good. I could feel his fingertips running underneath my shirt and I let him strip me of it, his lips beginning to kiss my breasts. I couldn't breathe. I honestly couldn't breathe.

When my underwear came off and the moment his body finally collided with mine was the moment that I felt complete. For months I've waited for this to finally happen and I've waited for him to make up his mind. He wasn't just my soul mate but he was my best friend. Somehow we lost each other in the midst of our emotions but when it was all said and done, when he collapsed on top of me after our third round, I knew it was worth it. The wait was completely worth it.

"I can't believe you wrote." He said breathlessly, rolling onto his back. "You should have told me."

I was currently still trying to come down from my high.

"Uh, yeah. Well I tried to tell you about that but you told me to stop talking about it and I didn't want to make you upset with me."

"I wouldn't have been upset Reina. I would have understood if I had known."

"Okay." I said, closing my eyes in the now dark room. "I'm sorry."

Butterflies erupted into my stomach when I felt his lips leave marks all up my collarbone, stopping once he reached my jawline. I didn't want to open my eyes because I was in utter bliss right now. It felt like some fantasy that I would wake up from at any moment. I never wanted this to end.

"Look at me." He said.

I opened them.

"Do you know how long I've waited to say I love you? Do you know how much I've missed this? How much I've missed us?"

"Believe me..." I laughed. "I think I know."

His lips went against my skin again so I'd stop talking and all I could do was laugh some more. It's been so long since we've done this and oh my god did I miss it. I think he missed it too.

"Again." He moaned against my earlobe. "Please."

Tugging gently on it with his teeth, I sucked in a sharp breath before he started to leave a hickey right on the side of my neck. He knew my answer. I was always up for another round with him.

"Okay." I smiled. "And then again."

This time he let out a laugh as well, beginning to do what he did best to bring me into a state that no one else could...

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