Chapter Twenty

JUSTIN:

          For the bachelor party we decided to take Scott to the strip club. I know what everyone says about them and sure, it's probably not the best place to bring him before the wedding but we all needed to have a guy's night out. Scott needs to experience the partying life one last time.

"Look at those tits!" Mark laughed, pointing directly at our waitress who was leading us to our table. I swear I felt my cheeks heat up from how embarrassing he was. The worst part about it all was that the girl didn't mind.

It wasn't my idea to take him to the strip club. It was Colby's. If it were my choice, I'd probably bring him to the bar so we could all just drink some beers and play some pool but of course that wasn't what Mark and Colby wanted. Now I'm just sitting here like some foreign species as I watch them both take some dollar bills out of their wallets and anxiously await their lap dance. It's kind of repulsive, really.

"I really shouldn't be here!" Scott shouted to me over the music. "Casey doesn't like stuff like this!"

For a second I thought about Reina and how I really shouldn't be here either but then the pang of remembrance seized over me like a tidal wave, the memories flooding into me all at once. We weren't together and I'm still single. Technically, I could do whatever I wanted.

"It's your last night as a free man!" I laughed, taking a swig of beer. "Just chill out and have fun."

A fiery red head approached Mark, her breasts bouncing as she did so. It was hard not to stare and Mark didn't take two seconds before he pulled her closer to him so she had no choice but to straddle his thighs. If we were to go back two years ago, before this shit happened with Reina, I would have done the same thing. But now, looking around the club, I see nothing but hurt girls probably with the same issues Reina's got. They've probably dad issues or maybe other ones, but still. They don't want this life. It's just the only thing they know.

"Hey Tina, look what we've got here."

Scott and I turned our heads to see twins, their brown ringlets running down their backs. They looked like something straight out of a porn video with their pigtails and thongs hiked so far up their ass it's like they'd lose circulation. It really was a bad idea to come here.

"I-I can't." Scott choked out as the girl began to move her hips in circles. "I'm getting married tomorrow."

"Aw, how sweet." She teased, bending down so her breasts were in his face. "Trying to stay faithful, hm?"

Before I could focus on their conversation any further the second twin spread my legs open and sunk down in-between them. I couldn't breathe from how badly I wanted to have sex. But the thing was, I didn't want it with her. That's what's different about me.

"Don't see guys like you come here often." She smirked, turning her back towards me. "Are you here for your friend or are you getting married too?"

Her ass started to grind in circles against my dick and instead of moving away, I let her continue only for my pleasure.

"Nope. Not married."

"So you're single?"

Her question surprised me more than I thought it would. When I went to speak again I had to stop myself. Was I? It was up to me. Am I single? Who would have thought that this would happen in the middle of a strip club?

"No..." I trailed off. "Not exactly."

Turning around to face me again, she went to straddle my thighs until I put my hand up to stop her. I grabbed my drink instead.

"I'm technically single." I started, taking a sip. "But that doesn't mean I'm interested, okay?"

I don't think this Tina girl has gotten rejected much because her body froze up for a second, her hands immediately running to her hair. I noticed her fingers get caught in it from the hairspray so she eventually gave up and let out a sigh.

"Right." She said. "I got it."

REINA:

"I swear to god." Casey continued, her rant seeming to be never ending. "It's been two damn hours and nothing Reina! No text, no call. He's cheating. Oh my god he is so cheating!"

"Casey!" I laughed, pausing the movie for like the seventh time tonight. "Do you know how crazy Scott is about you? He's not cheating. They're all just having a night out and they just want to have some fun. They haven't been together in awhile, you know? I'm sure they'll be just fine."

"But it's tomorrow." She said. "We're getting married tomorrow and he's going to be hung over on our wedding day. I can't believe this."

"What if he's not even drunk Casey? Maybe his phone died or maybe it's too loud in the club so he can't hear his phone ring. Don't jump to conclusions so quickly, okay?"

"So you're saying you haven't thought about Justin putting his hands all over a strippers ass? You don't think he's touching them right now?"

Twirling the remote around in my hands, I let out a sigh and just grazed my fingertips over the buttons. I have thought about it. I've thought about it a lot actually but it's no use worrying about something I can't change. He doesn't trust me yet and we aren't even together. He can do what he wants and yes, that frustrates me. I wish things weren't like this.

"It doesn't matter what I think." I said quietly. "We aren't together Casey so if he sleeps with someone then he sleeps with someone. I can't control that."

"I swear to god I'm going to murder him." She blabbered on, her rant continuing for the eighth time tonight. For her bachelorette party she didn't want to go out or do anything fun. She just wanted to stay in and watch movies with me. If I had known that it would include listening to her nervous breakdown I probably would have thought twice.

"I'm calling him again." She said and stood up from the couch. "I swear to god if he doesn't answer then I'm-"

I stopped listening and played the movie again, clicking the volume button up until she closed the door to the patio behind her. If I had to listen to this for the rest of the night I'll never be able to make it through. Maybe I'll just let myself fall asleep.

Just as I turned onto my side, the front door opened and Justin walked inside. I waited for Mark or Colby or Scott to walk in behind him but it was just Justin, standing there with a sheepish grin on his face. He didn't look wasted, which surprised me. He looked sober and as he took his shoes off I just refocused my attention back on the TV. I didn't want to make it seem like I was obsessed with him because yeah, we had a good night last week, but it was only a kiss on the cheek. That could have meant many things.

"Hey." He said.

"Hey. How was the club?"
I turned down the volume to the TV and suddenly felt self-conscious. He was leaning against the frame of the entryway with a little smile on his face, his eyes scanning me up and down in some sort of approval.

"Didn't feel like being there." He shrugged.

"You... Didn't want to be at a strip club?" I gasped. "Oh my god I think the world's ending."

Keeping the same damn smile plastered on his face, he slipped his jacket off and tossed it on the floor before he plopped down right beside me on the couch. The smell of cigarettes and whiskey radiated off of him but I didn't care. All I could focus on was his body right next to mine.

I felt the heat rise up into my face and my palms began to get all sweaty. When he turned to look at me I could hear my heartbeat right in my ears, all of my thoughts getting completely jumbled.

"I felt like being here." He smirked. "Home."

Feeling completely stupid, I came down from the high I was on and just nodded my head, staring down at my fingertips that were fixated in my lap. Of course he just wanted to come home. Why would you think you had something to do with it Reina?

His fingertips wrapped around my chin so he could tilt my face up to become eye-level with him. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't speak. The only thing I allowed myself to do was scan his lips to somehow get it across to him that I wanted to taste him again. I haven't kissed him in so long.

"Here." He repeated, strumming his finger across my lower lip. "I felt like being here."

I thought he was going to kiss me. I really thought he might do it but he didn't. His finger removed from my lower lip and he had the same smirk on his face. He knew it was killing me. It isn't fair to torture me like this.

"When do you think you'll trust me again?" I whispered.

"Reina I-"

"He's on his way!" Casey shrieked, running into the living room like a lunatic. "He isn't drunk either Reina! He's sober and-" She stopped once she saw Justin. "Oh. Hi."

"Hi..." He smiled. "Worried about him much?"

"Yes. I don't think it was a smart idea to bring him to a strip club when we're getting married tomorrow. Speaking of, we should probably get to bed. I have to get back to the dorms because well, it's bad luck to see each other the day before, you know? Let's hurry before they get here Reina."

Rising up from the couch, I fixed the band on my yoga pants and cleared my throat. I wish I had gotten the answer to my question but it looks like I won't ever effing find out.

"Wait." Justin said, my whole body stiffening. "You aren't getting married. Are you?"

"Um, no?"

"Sleep here."

It wasn't a question; it was more like a statement.

"Well I don't know if Casey needs me in the morning to-"

"Stay." She smirked, nudging me with her elbow. "Just make sure you're at the hotel to help me get ready. I need your makeup skills."

"Yeah of course. I wouldn't miss it Casey."

Without another word, the door closed behind her and I was left frozen in shock. This hasn't happened. He hasn't asked me to stay in I don't know how long.

"I don't know." He said, almost reading my thoughts. "That's the answer to your question. I don't know Reina but what I do know is that I want to lay with you tonight. Like old times."

"As in-"

"Yeah. As in my bed."

Before he could change his mind I immediately headed towards the staircase. I was fearful that he'd tell me to go home and just to never mind like he always does. He always tells me he wants one thing and then two minutes later he'll completely change his way of thinking and just kick me out. I've never seen anything like it.

Just like we used to, he began to un-do the covers in his room as I began to strip myself of my clothing. It's nothing he hasn't seen before but suddenly it was like he was a damn virgin because his eyes never left my body for one second. They were glued to me.

"They're where they usually are." He said, clearing his throat.

I opened up the familiar drawers to get a pair of his sweats and a sweater of his, sliding them on and feeling comfortable as ever.

"Isn't it weird that Scott and Casey are getting married tomorrow? I still can't wrap my head around it."

My hair wrapped into a ponytail on top of my head and when I turned back around he was already underneath the covers, patting the spot next to me for me to join.

"Yeah." He agreed. "It's crazy how things can change."

I sat down onto the bed and fumbled with his sweater, unsure of what to do. I don't know if I wrap him in my arms like I used to. Does he want me to do that? Should I kiss his jawline like he used to love for me to do? He said it helped him fall asleep. Maybe I should draw hearts into his skin like I did after our bath in Las Vegas that night. He loved it, he had said. It made him get goose bumps.

"Would you come here?" He laughed. "I can tell you're over thinking Reina."
Before I could respond, his hands came around my waist and before I knew it my chest was pressed right up against his, our lips almost touching. I could feel his breath hit against my cheek and my god I just want to kiss him. That's all I want.

"I can't be this close to you." I breathed heavily. "It makes me so nervous."

"It never used to..."

His fingertips moved a little up my thigh and my breathing became staggered, like when someone jumps out from behind a corner and scares you unexpectedly.

"I just want you to make up your mind. I know I've done you wrong but if you don't have any intentions of making us work, why are doing this? Why are you holding me right now?"
Pulling a little bit away from him, he closed his eyes for a split second and let out a sigh.

"Because I'm trying to push past my walls and let you in again. I'm trying to break down this guard that I have up. The crazy thing though is that even though you're the one that made me build this wall up in the first place you're the only damn thing that can knock it down again."

He looked at me, tears welling up in his eyes like big giant pools.

"I don't know how long it's going to take Reina but I'm feeling closer than I ever have with you before. When I was at the club tonight, I got a lap dance from this girl but she wasn't you. Do you understand how crazy that is? Two years ago I would have loved a lap dance but tonight, all I could think of was you dancing on me. With that dress you wore that rode so far up your ass I just-" He stopped, getting a smirk on his face. "Sorry. I'm getting carried away."

"Okay..." I trailed off. "It's fine Justin. I don't want to make you upset."

"I'm close to making up my mind Reina. Just please stick with me until then. When my mind is made up, I'll know. The timing just has to be right."
Leaning up towards his face, I took him by surprise and kissed his jawline, leaving little pecks all over the place. I couldn't see him, but his chest was moving up and down in a rapid speed, his palms beginning to sweat on my lower back where they were currently fixated.

"Reina." He groaned. "Your lips feel so..."

Moving his shirt up with my fingertips I began to trace hearts into his skin. First, I began right at the end of his happy trail.

"My lips would love to be...everywhere." I whispered seductively. "You just let me know when and I'll wrap my lips right around your-"

The bulge grew up in his pants all too quickly, his chest still going up and down from his heart racing. He wanted it so badly. I wanted to give it to him so badly.

"Y-You're a tease." He stuttered. "Just give me time Reina."

Letting out a laugh, I placed my head onto his chest and sent a little smirk to him.

"Okay." I giggled. "I've got all the time in the world."

 A/N:

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I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to update but one, I got hacked (this is true) & two, I've just been kind of busy which is totally not an excuse so again, I'm sorry! 

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