" I had plans you know?" I glared playfully at him.

" sitting on the couch watching tv is not exactly what I would call a plan" Harry chuckled.

" a Friends marathon sounds perfect to me" I shook my head.

" ok couch potato" he smirked.

The driver started the car and sped out of the alley way.

" where are we going Harry?" I said looking out the window as the driver began leaving the theater.

" it's a surprise" he said with the same witty smirk.

The driver turned onto the busy street of New York City and surprisingly there wasn't as much traffic as usual. The further we went the less car were in sight. As soon as we reached the highway I became more confused.

" where could we even go with the clothes we're in? We could have atleast went home a changed" I said looking back at him.

" trust me, you look perfect" he said looking away from me.

I rolled my eyes with a small smile but continued to look at him.

" why is Jess avoiding me, Harry?" I asked.

" I think you're exagerating Cailin" he shook his head.

I knew there was something they were hiding from me. Harry's tone was different, like he wanted to talk about anything else except about Jess.

" she's not even living with us anymore" I said lifting my arms up.

" Jess just doesn't want to be our shadow while she goes after her modeling career" he tried explaining but I could still tell that he was hiding something.

" so I'm supposed to believe that it was a coicidence that she started feeling this way immediately after I ended up in the hospital?" I said to said.

Harry's grip on the car seat tightened, knowing that I had struck a chord in him. My eyes slowly searched his face for another reaction but nothing came out. He didn't respond. he didn't even look at me. The sudden feeling that all this was my fault hit me like a truck. I had made all the wrong decisions. I was the one who had let Carter into my life and ruined every piece of dignity I had left.

" just tell me how I can fix this" I shook my head as tears started streaming down my cheeks.

Harry immediately turned his face towards mine. His eyes watched my tears and the only thing I could think to do was turn away. I was sick and tired of everyone watching me cry. I was sick of just plain crying. This wasn't the old me. I was stronger than this.

Harry's hand touched my cheek gently and I slowly looked at him again. His expression had completely changed. His expression was soft yet worried.

" it has nothing to do with you Cailin" he spoke softly wiping my tears away.

" of course it has" I shook my head.

Harry starred at me for what seemed like forever. His green eyes pierced through mine and I couldn't fight them back.

" it just reminded Jess about something that happened in our past, Cailin. It has nothing to with what you did and how you handled it" he said still looking at me.

" what happened?" I asked.

Harry quickly pulled his hand away from me and went back to the end of the car. He looked out the window and I could see his wall being built up again.

" Harry..." I called him.

But no response was given. Instead of pushing him past his limits I decided to leave it alone. I was going to find out somehow, I had to.

After about fifteen minutes of silence, the car stopped.

" we have arrived" the driver said. The only thing i saw was a white tent with tons of cars surrounding it. Music was playing softly in the background.

I looked over at Harry confused and saw that he had already opened his door in order to get out. I scooted towards his side of the car and got out. I stepped onto the grass and immediately felt my heel seep into the grass. I held onto Harry to keep my balance. Thankfully he didn't reject me.

As we began walking towards the white tent, I noticed he looked quite nervous.

" what is this, Harry?" I asked.

" come and see princess" he smiled at me as his hand reached down for mine. A smile escaped my lips realizing he had called me princess once again.

We walked inside the tent and only then did I realize we were at a wedding. Before I could ask who's wedding this was, I saw a picture poster hanging from one of the strings. It was a picture of my mother with another man. This was my mother's wedding.

" why did you take me here?" I asked hesitant to take another step foward.

" because she's your mom" he responded making me look up at him.

" there's a reason I don't want to be here, Harry. My dad deserves better" I shook my head.

" the actual wedding is over with, this is just the reception. Just let your mom have this" Harry nodded. Harry got a better grip on my hand and lead me deeper inside the wedding reception.

Surprisingly I didn't recognize a lot of faces, most of the faces actually. They must have all been the groom's family and friends. My mom's family was pretty much inexistent since she ran away from home when she was younger. As for friends, I didn't see almost any of them.

At the other side of the tent, I could see my mother. Her smile. i hadn't seen a smile like that on her for years. She looked genuinely happy. With everything that had happened with our family, that was what I really wanted for her, happiness. There she was with a simple wedding dress on dancing with two little girls. They giggled as she pranced around with them. Then someone walked over to her and whispered something in her ear. Her eyes immediately met mine across the room. She said something to the little girls and walked away from them towards my direction.

" I'm so glad you came, Cailin" she smiled as she made her way towards me. She quickly gave me a hug before I reject it.

" me too mom" I whispered.

" congradulations Mrs Reed" Harry said after kissing my mother on the cheek.

" Mrs Harrison now actually" she smiled before realizing that those words hit me like a thousand bricks.

Harry faked a cough trying to make everything okay but I knew it was never going to be okay.

" I'm sorry sweetie" she shook her head.

" why don't you go have fun at your wedding" I glared at her.

My mother whispered sorry once more and walked away from me. I watched as she reached the two little girls and they started laughing and dancing together once more.

" I can't believe you actually convinced her to come!" I heard someone say from behind me.

I turned around to see Niall right behind us.

" actually he kidnapped me" I smirked quickly glancing up at Harry. Harry simply shrugged with a soft chuckle.

" I'm glad you're here kid" he said before giving me long hug.

Luckily for me, Niall and I never lost that brother sister feeling towards each other. Growing up together had it's perks. Even with all the distance and so much time without any contact, that feeling was still there.

" is Willow here?" I asked looking around the tent.

" I was kind of going to ask you a similiar question" Niall sighed.

" what do you mean?" I asked looking directly at him.

" Willow's been nowhere lately. She left the apartment to me and hasn't told anyone where she's been" Niall shrugged.

" do you think she's okay?" I asked not really knowing what to say.

" Willow knows how to handle herself" Niall nodded.

Of course she did but that didn't minimize my worry. I knew Willow blamed me for all of this and I couldn't help agree with her. I was the one who had brought her into all this mess.

Niall went back to the table where his family and I was left standing around with Harry.

" what was the point in bringing me here? And how did you even know about my mom getting married?" I questioned Harry.

" well, Jess was the one who told me about it" Harry answered.

His response surprised me. Not because Jess told him about something we talked about but because Jess actually let him know about something that was bugging me. Maybe she did just need her space.

" and I think it's important for you to be here, after all she is your mom" Harry nodded.

" okay... but I get something out of this" I smirked.

Harry looked at me with his confused expression.

" you get to dance with me on the dance floor" I laugh already dragging him towards the crowd of people.

" no no no no no" he kept repeating in a pleading tone only making me laugh even more.

" come on you can dance" I smiled.

" only when I'm drunk as fuck" I shook his head desperately.

" is Harry Styles embarrassed?" I teased.

The song then changed from fast beat to a slow dance. Harry's face cringed even more making me laugh even more. Eventually I got Harry to the middle of the dance floor. He had no choice but to follow my lead.

" I hate slow dancing" he mumbled.

" of course you do, you're doing it wrong" I shrugged.

" what are you talking about?" he glared.

" well first of all, a man is supposed to lead the woman the way I'm sort of leading you" I smirked.

Harry took notice of the way we were dancing and I could see him trying to figure it out in his head. Seeing the was his eyes moved from inch to inch at the way our bodies moved together. The way his eyes were so intense, it made my throat go dry.

The next thing I knew, I was no longer taking the lead on the dance floor. Instead Harry was leading me across the dance floor.

" how about now?" Harry asked.

I slowly looked up at him and my lips got even more dry.

" perfect" I managed to whisper out.

The only thing i wanted to do in that moment was kiss him. But something in me held me back. Whether it was my own fear of being rejected or just the fear of messing everything, I didn't know.

" can everyone take their seats! The maid of honor would like to preset her speech" the DJ said into his microphone.

Everyone stopped dancing and sat in their chairs. Harry and I walked over to the back of all the chairs and stood there. I watched a woman, who looked to be around my mother's age, stand up with a microphone in her hand and a sheet of paper in the next.

The weirdest thing was that I didn't even know who the woman was. It wasn't any of the friends that I had met before, and that was a lot. Maybe I had missed a lot more than I had imagined in the past eight months of being in the band.

My other had begun a whole other life, without me even being a part of it. I didn't want to be here for this.

" what?" Harry asked beside me.

I had realized I said anything out loud until I looked up at him.

" I don't want to be here. This is my limit" I nodded.

Harry immediately nodded back.

Before I could even look back at my mother, he had gotten me out of that white tent. We walked straight to the car. As we got in, the driver woke up from his nap and started the car. Harry told the driver to go straight to the apartment, which made me glad because I was exhausted.

But I didn't want to go to bed alone. I want to lay there with Harry by my side. I wanted to kiss him and probably do much more. But I didn't want just that. I wanted him entirely. i wanted him to open up to me the way he used to open up to Lia. I wanted to know his secrets the way he knew mine. I wanted to feel like I had to be cauxious around him, afraid that if I said anything wrong he could blow up on me and abandon me again.

Was it all too much to ask for?

" what's the status on you and Lia right now?" I asked looking away from him.

" what do you mean?" he responded.

" are you guys aquintances, friends, flirty...?" I continued to look down at my hands.

I could sense Harry pause and think for a couple seconds. He sighed put his hand on his own knee.

" we just started talking to each other again, all because of you. Who would have thought, the reason for the break-up became the reason for us to become social again. We're not exactly friends right now, but I wish we will be again someday. Not because I want her back in a romantic way but because she was such a good friend to me, even when I didn't deserve it" Harry said.

Slowly I turned my head towards his, not really knowing how to respond. I understood everything he said but it didn't answer my question. It didn't satisfy me.

" what I'm asking is if there is any possibility of you two ever getting back together" I said looking into his toxic green eyes.

" why does it matter if I get back with her or not?" he asked in a low tone.

" because I don't want you to" I choked out.

The idea of Harry and Lia being together again kills me inside. Lia is the one person that I wished absolute happiness to but not with Harry. I didn't want Harry with anyone else but me.

Harry slowly raised his over my cheek and stroked his thumb across it. My breathing only acelerated waiting for his response. Afraid of his response, I looked away from his eyes. But his hand dragged over my chin lifting it up an inch causing me to look up at him again.

" then I won't" Harry shook his head.

A small smile escaped my lips before he kissed me.

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Ta Da! lol

so a couple of days ago was my 19th birthday and I just wanted to thank you all for the birthday wishes on instagram! I spent the day with my mom which was the only person I really wanted to spend it with anyway. This is going to be my last year as a teen and that sucks because I've enjoyed my years as a teen so much and I still cant believe that I have one more year left of it. Then comes adulthood :(

Question time:

What do you think is the next step for Cailin and Harry?

What do you think is what happen in the past with Jess and Harry?

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