" how's she doing?" I asked Liam.

I sat on the make-up chair as Olly did my hair. Olly was the hairdresser for the tour that the James hired. He had become a fun guy to be around. Of course he didn't know about what actually happened so my conversations with Liam had to be careful. Luckily he usually liked to pop in his ear buds while he did my hair.

By the look on Liam's face, he knew exactly what I was talking about.

" she hasn't really talked about it much" Liam shrugged.

" I've seen some of her interviews but I'm just worried about her, you know?" I said as Olly kept quiet and bopped his head around to his music.

" she's focusing on her new role in a movie in Australia, so her head should be straight" Liam responded.

" Australia?" my eyes widened.

" she wanted to escape a little I guess" Liam said.

Lia was going to Australia. She was going as far as she could get from Harry. I wondered if Harry knew about this.

" does she hate me?" I asked already expecting yes for an answer.

" I think she feels betrayed more than anything. You know Lia, she isn't one to hate. She disappointed I guess" Liam said trying ti help me understand.

" how could I do that to her? I was her friend and still all that stuff happened" I shook my head.

Liam looked at me trying to find something to say but I knew there were no words that could possibly make me feel better.

Lia was smart. She was leaving the country for the next couple of months and she had the opportunity to escape all this chaos. I knew she wasn't going just because of the movie. She didn't want to have to run into Harry nor me.

I still don't know how she was so collect in front of cameras. I know that if the situation had been reversed, I would be wreck and wouldn't be able to hide it.

" showtime!" Olivia said as she walked into my dressing room with a rack of costume options.

I was glad I asked Olivia to come onto the tour. She kept me in control when making decisions about wardrobe. Actually she didn't even let me be torn between clothing, she picked it out and that was that. No whining.

It reminded me how Willow and I used to pout whenever we didn't get a say in anything with Olivia. Willow..

I wondered how she was doing with her life, her career..

I hadn't seen her in any Forever 21 advertisements anymore. Had she quit? Did she get fired?

Everything was fine, I hoped.

After getting ready, I made my way towards the stage. As I past Harry's dressing room, I felt pain against my chest. Seeing him take shot after shot right before our show pained me. He was still drowning his sorrows down with alcohol.

I walked away before I barged in there with him. I needed space away from him for me to able to think straight.

Surprisingly enough Harry made it just in time before we made it to the stage. It was clear that he wasn't sober, at least to me.

He wouldn't sing some parts of the song so Zayn or Louis would jump in. Unfortunately because of that, it made me mess up myself.

Harry ended tripping at the end of one of our songs. He laughed it off but I couldn't help but look worried.

By the end of the concert, I knew it had been horrible. I felt bad for the audience cause they saw how bad it was.

That was when I decided to do something that we weren't really allowed to do. As soon as I got changed from the clothes I wore on stage, I grabbed Olivia and ran.

I dragged her outside to where all the fans were and handed Olivia my phone.

" smile everyone!" I shouted as I posed towards my phone in front of everyone.

Crowd by crowd, I took pictures with almost all of them and they went crazy. Selfies with me was everyone's focus but that didn't bother me. I apologized for the horrible show and yet they still said that it had been the most amazing night of their life.

Their love was infinite and I couldn't have been more grateful.

Soon enough security, got a hold of where I was a snatched me away.

" that was fun" I laughed with Olivia.

" you're crazy" she smiled.

Olivia went back to my dressing to get her stuff while I made my way to the after show after party, that we usually had after every concert. I walked through the hallways but slowed down as soon as I saw a blonde headed girl leave Zayn's dressing room.

Was this the girl that Zayn had been hiding from all of us? Maybe this finally my opportunity to meet the mystery girl.

" hey!" I called out.

The girl turned around and I froze. The girl wasn't a mystery at all. I had already known her and once called my best friend. But that had ended and now she was here. It was Willow leaving Zayn's dressing room.

As soon as her eyes met mine, Willow turned back and ran away from me. Out of instinct I made my way into Zayn's dressing room only to see him putting on a shirt.

" why her?!" I shouted at him.

Zayn looked up at me in surprise and stood there in shock.

I had never actually been in a fight with Zayn. There had never been a reason but today changed everything. Zayn knew about the whole Willow situation and still he betrayed me.

" tell me Zayn! Why Willow?!" I shouted at him.

" I was going to tell you Cailin" Zayn shook his head.

" when? When the paparazzi finally caught you two?" I glared at him.

" I knew you would be mad, that's why I didn't tell you! The only reason she's a secret is because of you!" Zayn explained.

" you think that makes it right Zayn? Management practically forced me to push her away from my life and now you try to bring her back?!"

" I'm not going to break up with her just because you or management don't want her around" Zayn shook his head at me.

" you're unbelievable" I glared at him before storming out.

It was unbelievable what was going on. I had never imagined Zayn and Willow together and yet they were together. All I wanted to do in that moment was forget it all. I decided to go straight to the after party so anyone and everyone could take my mind off of Willow and Zayn. I walked into the after party and greeted with extremely loud music.

Everyone was there, with the exception of Harry. This didn't feel right. Harry was always there, in the corner drinking by himself, but always there.

" where's Harry?" I whispered to James over the loud music.

" I have no idea, he kind of disappeared after that disaster of a show" James answered.

I guess it was clear to everyone that the concert had been awful.

I looked down at my phone to look at the time but was surprised to see the screensaver flashing. Due to the loud music, my ring tone wasn't loud enough for me to hear.

I rushed out of the crowded after party and went to the hallway to answer the call.

" what the hell?!" was the first thing I heard on the other side.

Confused I looked down at the caller and realized it was Carter.

" Carter?" I asked.

" what the hell Cailin?"

" what's going on?" I asked looking towards the end of the hallway to see Liam coming towards me.

" I saw the picture" Carter simply said

Immediately the worst possible thing popped in my mind. What if there was a picture out there of Harry and I together. Like at the club the first night we met? Did Carter see it and figure out everything else?

" what picture?" I whispered.

" the one that Liam posted of you two in bed!" Carter yelled.

" what the hell are you talking about?" I asked extremely confused looking up at Liam again.

Liam obviously couldn't hear my conversation with Carter but it was clear on his face that he wanted to say something to me urgently. Whatever Carter was talking about made grab Liam phone from his hand and open up the Instagram app. Luckily I knew Liam pass code by heart so there wasn't an issue.

I opened his Instagram and saw the picture Carter was talking about. It was the picture that Liam and I had taken on a couple of hours ago on the dressing room couch. I looked at the picture and chuckled.

" why are laughing?" Carter asked at the other end.

" is that innocent picture why you're freaking out?" I asked back.

" it's not innocent" he responded.

" you know he's my best friend, there's no need for jealousy" I half smiled at the phone.

" just don't take anymore pictures like that" Cater said in a monotone.

I looked up at Liam again. As soon as my eyes locked his, he mouthed Harry's name. I froze. He knew where he was.

" got to go babe" I said before hanging up on Carter.

I gave Liam's phone back and looked around to see if Harry was around.

" where is he?" I begged.

The desperation of the question even surprised me. I shouldn't have been so worried about him but I was. I couldn't control how I felt and it angered me.

" at a bar getting drunk" Liam said as he held up his phone showing me a video. I took the phone to get a better view.

It was Harry sitting at a bar. He was chugging drinks like there was no tomorrow. It was the Harry that was slowly destroying his life.

" let's go" I said before dragging Liam with me.

*

The taxi driver dropped us off right in front of the bar. Some paparazzi were scattered across the front of the bar trying to take pictures of Harry, who was inside. Liam and I walked right up to the bouncer of the bar but he hesitated to let us in, since I was still only eighteen. It wasn't every bar or club that let me in even if I was the Cailin Reed from All Oblivion

" she's just here to pick someone up" Liam said to him.

" be quick" the bouncer said before letting us in.

As we walked inside, my eyes scanned all over the bar for Harry. I stopped when my eyes caught sight of several empty bottles of beer and one empty bottle of vodka. Beside the bottles sat Harry on a stool.

I made my way towards and tapped him on the shoulder.

" I'm not taking any pictures" he grumbled.

" trust me, the last thing I want is a picture of you like this" I said to him.

Harry immediately looked up at me. The look in his eyes broke my heart. He looked broken, confused and mad. Then again, he couldn't have been feeling all those things about me.

" why the hell did you bring him?" He asked turning away from me again.

I looked over to see Liam beside me.

" he came to help me get you back to the tour bus" I explained.

" just leave" Harry mumbled.

I closed my eyes and turned away from Harry. Of course he wanted me to leave. I should have never even come here. I took two steps forward but was quickly stopped.

" not you, him" Harry said with his hand wrapped around my upper arm.

" I'm not leaving her alone with you" Liam said.

Harry stood up from the stood, pushing me behind him so he could stand in front of Liam.

" when are you going to stop following her around like a lost puppy, it's pathetic really" Harry glared.

Liam took a step closer towards Harry and I knew exactly what was going to happen. Immediately I pushed myself from behind Harry and stood between them stopping whatever was going going through their minds.

" quit it! Liam, I'll be fine. I'll call you later" I said to him.

Liam continued to glare at Harry but eventually left. As soon as Liam left, Harry went back and sat on his stool. The bartender came over and handed him a shot glass filled with some kind of drink.

" I don't understand you" I said to him.

He continued to ignore me.

" one minute you hate me, the next you act like a.." I started to say but bit my tongue before I said anything stupid.

" like what?" Harry demanded looking over to me.

" like a jealous douche" I responded.

Harry looked over at the bartender and nodded towards him. Once again the bartender came back and gave Harry a drink. But this time it was a glass of whiskey.

" can I get you anything?" the bartender asked with a smirk.

" nothing for her, you can leave now" Harry spat at the bartender.

I mouthed 'sorry' to the bartender and turned to glare at Harry.

" why do you have to be such a prick?" I said in disgust.

" why did you have to go and fall for the almighty Carter Dane?!" he shouted, causing some attention to us from other people. My immediate reaction was to glare at those people hoping they would look away, luckily they did.

" Harry.." I began to say but he quickly interrupted.

" Why did you have to go to fall in love with the guy I hated the most? Is that why you went for him? Is it to get revenge on me for everything I did to you?" he said.

" of course not! Carter treats me like a girl deserves to be treated!" I said to him.

" the way I never treated you, right?" Harry said before looking away from me again. This time,

I couldn't see his face anymore. I hated him for this, for trying to shut me out, just when he would start to open up.

I took a step towards Harry and leaned closer so only he could hear the next words that were about to slip through my lips.

" I gave you a chance and you threw it away" I said then pulling myself away.

Harry looked over at me and just sat there for a minute. I pulled himself up off the stool and stood in front of me. I didn't know what to expect next. Harry wasn't someone who you knew what he was going to do next. He was unpredictable.

Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a group of college guys walk right past us. I heard a whistle coming from one of them. Next thing I knew Harry slammed the guy that whistled down to the ground and started punching him repeatedly.

" stop!" I yelled but it was no use.

The guy's friends immediately grabbed Harry away from the guys and started punching and kicking him. Harry looked like a rag doll in the hands of four guys beating him up.

" please stop!" I cried as I tried to get in between them.

The bouncer from outside came rushing in and pushed me aside. He grabbed the college guys two by two off of Harry. I did my best and picked Harry up off the floor, swinging his arm over my shoulder. His legs were wobbly but he still managed to mumble out words.

" I can take them" he mumbled with blood dripping down his lips.

After taking the guys out, the bouncer came back and helped my take Harry out to a taxi. As we left the bar, paparazzi immediately started flashing their cameras at us. I don't know what happened to me but suddenly I started crying. Crying right in front of everyone with the cameras.

Last thing I remember was being put inside the taxi with Harry by the bouncer.

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I haven't posted in a while and I'm sorry!

but here's an extra long chapter and I hope you guys enjoyed it <3

What did you think is Willow and Zayn? Were you guys surprised?

What do you think of Carter's jealousy?

What do you think will or should happen with Cailin and Harry?

What should be Cailin and Harry's ship name? Harlin, Hailn, Cairry or whatever you guys come up with? haha

the video on the side is a fan made trailer that http://www.wattpad.com/user/HopeIs made for me, such a sweet girl <3

also I made a playlist on 8tracks inspired by the whole series and it's posted on my bio.

oh and how did you like Ariana's album? (kind of late question lol) I fell in love with it as soon as I bought it <3 my favorite song would have to but One Last Time or Love Me Harder. and I saw on Instagram that they're making and music video for LMH and I couldn't be more excited EEEEEEPPPPP haha

lots of love xoxo