" it is 7am and All Oblivion is in the studio releasing their album!" Ryan cheered into the mic.

Today was the day, the day the album finally came out. It was what everyone was talking about and I couldn't be happier. Today was all about the album. Interviews all day and at night we would have our album release party.

" how does it feel to finally release your first official album?" Ryan Seacrest asked.

" there's no way to explain it really. We have so much support from our fans and we wouldn't be here without them" Louis said.

" how long have you all been working on the album?" he asked.

I looked over at the boys wanting them to answer since I wasn't here from the beginning. My eyes went straight to Harry. But he wasn't looking at me. He was staring off into space. It was like he wasn't even here, like this was the last place he wanted to be.

Harry had been silent for the past three days, since the break up with Lia. Since that night, after he blamed me, he hadn't spoken a word to me, not one. Everyone in the apartment knew what was going on. I didn't see Zayn coming home from his date when I saw him the next morning it was clear on his face that he knew what happened.

Louis must have let him know since he was the one who had witness the whole thing. Zayn didn't look disappointed in me, it looked like he felt bad for me in a way. The first thing he did when he saw me the next morning was hug me, hug me tight. I needed it. My face had been swollen from all the crying and I knew it.

I had expected Harry's sister Jess to ignore me since in fact she was Harry's sister but she hadn't. She comforted me in a way. Ronny was on the other side of the country and I didn't want to talk to her over the phone. Liam would have probably been comforting his sister Lia and I didn't want to take that away from her. Jess was there for me since Harry didn't let her comfort him.

Jess was a lot nicer than I had expected. Lia had told me that Jess hated her for no reason and yet I didn't see one mean bone in her. Yes, Jess was a very sarcastic person but that was what made her fun to be around.

" we've been working on this album for around a year. We started it before Cailin joined, so when she joined, we had to change some things but it was definitely for the better" Zayn answered the radio host.

" what's it like joining an all boy band Cailin?" Ellen Kay asked.

" Hectic, that's the word" I laughed.

I looked over at Harry hoping to see he had changed his facial expression but he hadn't. He was still staring off in space clearly not wanting to be here. Ryan and Ellen asked a couple of more questions about the album and Harry didn't answer any of them. Of course everyone noticed, including the hosts and the listeners.

" so a lot has been going on for all of you for the last couple of days. Zayn, you've been seen a couple of times with a certain blonde. Who is she?" Ellen smirked.

Zayn just laughed obviously not wanting to answer the question.

I hadn't really even noticed. Zayn had been sort of distant the last couple of weeks. He wasn't hooking up with random girls anymore. He was actually going on dates. I just never realized it was the same girl.

" you seem surprised Cailin" Ryan pointed out.

" probably because he hasn't told me anything about it" I playfully glared at Zayn.

" I just don't think it's the time to let the world know who she is yet and she doesn't want people to know who she is either. After all, we're still getting to know each other" Zayn explained.

" fair enough" Ellen said.

I looked over to the glass window and saw Jess standing there listening and watching our interview.

Her eyes never really left Harry. It looked like she was worried about him and I didn't blame her. He wasn't himself.

" so you all have been hanging out with a girl, super close, fans are asking who she is" Ryan said.

I looked over at Harry and noticed that he hadn't even heard what Ryan had said.

" She's Harry's sister, who's gonna hang out with us for a while" I responded.

" I didn't know you had a sister Harry" Ellen said.

" yeah" Harry nodded.

As much as I hated him for everything that he had put me through, the humillation and heartbreak, it still broke my heart to him like this. He was heartbroken with the whole situation with Lia.

I couldn't help but feel guilty. Harry was in love with her and not me and I still let all that mess happen.

" and Harry, rumor has it that you and Lia broke up" Ryan asked directly to Harry, making him obligated to say something.

Harry for the first time during the whole interview looked up at all of us and then to Ryan.

" it's been a couple of days" Harry simply answered.

" you guys were together close a year, what happened?" he asked.

I continued to look at Harry not knowing what his response would be. He had become such a different person since the break up three days ago that I honestly didn't know what to expect from him.

" I think sometimes we make the wrong decisions and it comes back to bite us in the ass" Harry responded.

Ryan could tell that he wasn't going to say anymore so he directed his attention to me.

" and you Ms Cailin, I saw a couple of picture of you and the golden boy" Ryan smirked.

" golden boy?" I laughed.

" so you've been dating Carter Dane" Ryan nodded.

Just the thought of Carter, made me smile like an idiot. Carter was what I needed. Obviously I didn't tell him about the drama with Harry because I knew that if I did, it could ruin everything that we were starting to have. Carter treated me like a princess and I couldn't ask for anything better.

" we're hanging out" I smiled.

As a matter of fact we were. We still weren't official. I liked it that way for the moment. It felt like as if I was still a little kid with a crush. He made me forget this Hollywood life..

" well you two would look great together, the next Hollywood It Couple" Ellen smiled.

*

The interviews were going great. I was actually having fun with all the questions about the album.

One of the best parts was all the fans standing outside the radio stations. They would sing our songs to us and it was the most amazing feeling in the world.

The only thing was Harry. His mood didn't light up at all.

The room we were all hanging out now was one they had for all their guests on their radio show. The room was filled with food, something we always requested. Food makes everything better, what I always said.

I glanced over at Harry and saw his eyes widen. I turned my to the direction he was looking and saw that it was the TV. Specifically Lia on it. Lia was walking onto the stage of a talk show smiling and waving to the audience and cameras.

Everyone in the room we were stopped talking and turned their attention to the TV also.

" Welcome Lia" the host said as they sat down on the couch.

" thank you so much for having me" Lia half smiled.

The audience cheered.

" you've been a busy girl with all the movies you've been doing" the host said.

" it's what I loved to do and I wouldn't have it any other way" Lia responded.

The host went into talking about Lia's movie Open Water and how she loved it. It was her debut movie as a the lead protagonist after all.

" so you've been filming a new movie right?" the host asked.

" yes, Carry On with Carter Dane. It's kind of a new spin on Romeo and Juliet which I love. We just finished filming actually" Lia said.

" and how was it working with Carter Dane?"

" he's such a sweet guy and I couldn't have asked for a better co-star" she smiled.

Harry beside me tightened his grip on the chair at the mention of Carter.

" so words have been circling around that you and Harry Styles broke up, is it true?" the host asked.

The look in Lia's eyes made me blame myself even more. It was clear that she was still hurt by the whole situation.

" yes we did" Lia confirmed.

Harry began to run his hand through his hair and started getting aggitated.

" what happened?"

My eyes were glued to the TV waiting for her answer. This was her moment to tell the whole world the truth. She'd come out looking like the victim, which in reality she was. But what if she did tell the truth?

Everything would be ruined for me. My relationship with Carter. My career. My everything.

Harry didn't seem to care about her answer. He just seemed nervous to see her.

" sometimes we try hard in a relationship and don't get back what we're giving. Then reality hits and you know it's time to leave the relationship" Lia said to the host.

As soon as Lia said those words Harry picked himself up at stormed out of the room.

" the interview is in five minutes!" James yelled after Harry. But it was no use, Harry was long gone by then.

*

The album release party was filled with people. From friends to producers and agents to a couple of fans. This was the party to celebrate all the hard work we had done to get the album out.

Seeing this just made me go on cloud nine.

" you look beautiful" Carter whispered into my ear.

Like always I blushed as looked away from him hoping he wouldn't notice.

" you look adorable when you blush" he said snaking his arm around my waist.

" stop" I giggled playfully slapping him away.

The bartender gave Carter the two shots of tequila he had asked for. Carter handed me one and smiled.

" congrats" he said before both of us took the shots.

Out of the corner of my eye I could see Ronny walked over to us.

" stop flirting and come dance!" Ronny laughed taking my arm and dragging me away from Carter and to the dance floor. I glance back at him and saw him smirking.

This boy gave me butterflies and I couldn't help but smile back at him.

As Ronny and I reached the dance floor, I saw Jess also dancing around us. She was a party girl like me which was even better. She was surprised to learn that I wasn't the shy good girl the label had portryed me to be but she said she was glad. It would have been too boring, she liked to say.

I looked over and saw James walking up onto the mini stage.

" so I just got word that the album is #1!" James said into the mic.

Everyone around me cheered. I looked over at Louis and Zayn to see them jumping around happily. Their dream had come true. My dream had come true.

I glanced over at the other side of the room to see Harry standing by the bar alone. Everyone else was on tbe dance floor celebrating.

He had a couple of empty beer bottles beside him and as of now he had a bottle of vodka attached to his lips. He was drowning his sorrows. In the middle of all this celebration, seeing him like that made me feel like it wasn't worth it anymore.

His green eyes met mine but he quickly looked away. He quickly made it out of the bar and away from the party taking along his bottle of vodka.

I forced myself not to follow him. I needed to stay strong and stay away from. That was what I needed...right?

" I think you should follow him" someone whispered into my ear.

I looked over and saw that it was Jess. Without even thinking about it, I follow her advice.

Before anyone could see me, I slipped out to the back where Harry had gone. I walked into a garden, the part of the place we weren't even using for the party. It was dark but beautiful at the same time.

I looked at Harry sitting on one of the benches tilting the vodka of alcohol onto his lips.

" what are you doing to yourself Harry?" I asked sounding more like a whisper.

Harry's eyes slowly made my way.

" I lost her" he whispered.

It was clear in his eyes that he needed her. She was his safe haven, where he felt safe. Lia was his anchor in a way.

" I should have done something to keep her" he slurred to himself.

" you were going to have to set her free one day Harry" I said as I got closer to him and took a seat next to him

" yeah but now I have no one. Lia's gone" Harry shook his head.

" you have me" I said before I could think.

Those words even surprised me.

" no I don't" he said looking over at me.

" as long as you let me, I'm always gonna be here for you" I said putting my hand over his. Before I could even process what he was doing, he crashed his lips against mine. For a moment I forgot all about the drama. I forgot about the sadness. I forgot about all the times he hurt me.

His softs lips made me want to melt into his arms. His kiss got harder and desperately which only made me want more.

But then someone popped in my head, Carter.

I gently pushed Harry away and picked myself off the bench.

" I'm your friend Harry, that's it" I said pacing around the garden.

" it's because of Carter, isn't it?" he asked getting frustrated.

" I don't want to ruin what I have with him" I shook my head as I stopped and looked at him.

" like what I had with Lia was ruined because of us" he glared.

" yes" I confessed.

Harry got on his feet and started pacing just like I was a few moments ago.

" this is all your fault Cailin!" he shouted as he threw the bottle to the ground breaking it into a million pieces. I flinched at the scene.

He was blaming me again and here I was prepared to hear him.

" why did you have to come into my life and mess everything up? I was fine before you! And then I met you and everything changed" Harry said running his hand through his hair.

I kept quiet. I didn't know how to respond. Harry was clearly drunk so everything he was saying he meant it. Harry had spoken to me after the break up and now he was here telling me everything he was feeling.

" I think I should go back inside" I said in a low tone.

" yeah" he said looking away from me.

I walked away from Harry with my heart in hand. I didn't like to see him like that. But I knew that I couldn't comfort him, because if I did, I could fall into his grasp and get hurt once again.

I walked back into the party to see everyone still still dancing, drinking and having fun. I hoped no one had watched Harry and I in the back.

I pulled to the corner to see that it was Carter.

" what are you doing?" I smiled at him.

He then crashed his lips against mine. I don't what I expected this kiss to be but it sure wasn't this. He wasn't a bad kisser,  he was great actually. But there was something missing.

Then I realized what it was.

This wasn't Harry.

That's it, I thought. I needed to forget about Harry this way. I needed normality in my life and Carter gave me that.

Carter pulled away but kept his forehead against mine. I opened my eyes to see him smiling.

" Cailin?" he said.

" yeah?" I whispered.

" will you be my girlfriend?" he asked.

Without thinking twice I nodded.

He kissed me again and picked me up by the hips making me laugh. Everyone's attention turned to us and for once it felt good.

" congratulations to All Oblivion and my beautiful girlfriend" Carter said aloud for everyone to hear. He put me down on the ground again as everyone around us cheered.

It was official, we were together. People high-fived Carter and the girls giggled and bombarded me with questions.

In the mist of it all I saw Harry back at the bar. His eyes didn't leave mine. That was when I saw true sadness in his eyes. I didn't understand at first but the it hit me.

He had truely lost everything, just like he was afraid of. He didn't have Lia and now he didn't have me either.

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yay, new chapter sooner than expected!

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