rocking out to Ariana's new album while writing this chapter haha

you guys should go buy it, it's amazing and is it me or do some of her songs fit with this story soo much lol

enjoy!

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{Lia James' POV}

I walked into Harry's apartment using the key he'd given me as soon as they had moved into this place. I liked this apartment. It was definitely better than the one they used to live in LA. The bad thing was that I lived in LA and they lived in New York. With my filming schedule, I hardly got to see Harry and made things with him much more complicated.

The worst part was that, Harry always would blame me for our long distance relationship. As if I was the one who was always supposed to drop everything I was doing just to spend time with him. I usually did always. I couldn't say no to him. I never knew how he would respond.

I walked into the apartment and saw that the living room was deserted as opposed to it's usual with everyone playing Wii or guitar hero.

I could hear a loud stereo coming from one of the bedrooms so I quickly followed the music. As I reached Cailin's bedroom door I figured it was hers. I opened the door to see Cailin holding up an outfit to her body in front of a mirror. I looked over at her bed seeing a mountain of clothing laying there.

Cailin eyes connected with mine through the mirror before turning to face me.

" hey" she smiled.

Cailin had been acting weird towards me for weeks. After the Teen Choice Awards, it had gotten a little better but I never really fully understood what was going on. At first I thought it was because maybe she and my brother were secretly dating. But because of Carter, I knew it couldn't be true.

Carter had let me know that he was going to take Cailin on a date and I gave him all the advice I could about Cailin. All her favorite places, all her pet peeves and everything. I wanted them to get together. They looked cute together and nobody could deny it.

" getting ready for your date?" I asked closing her door behind me as I walked in the bedroom.

" he told you?" Cailin asked throwing the outfit on the bed.

" of course" I smiled.

" I'm kind of nervous, and I'm never this way before a date" she confessed.

It was true. I had never seen Cailin this nervous about a guy. She was always so poise when it came to guys. It amazed me how she never got flustered around one.

" my heart is telling me to run the other direction" she laughed.

" from what I know, he's a good guy. You're going to be fine" I assured her.

I had met Carter only a few months ago when we had gotten cast for a new movie. Of course I had heard about him before. After all he was all the girls talked about. So when I found out I was going to film a movie with him, of course I got nervous. Especially because Harry didn't like him.

I always wondered why Harry hated him, but he never told me. I knew better than to push Harry so I didn't ask him anymore. Carter said that he didn't know the reason and didn't really care.

I saw Cailin hold up another outfit to the mirror and immediately knew it was perfect for her. Blue and black looked perfect on her. Then again, she used to be a model, everything looked good on her.

Cailin looked over at me and tilted her head.

" you think this one is good?" she asked.

" nothing else could look better" I nodded.

After a bit of laughs with Cailin I decided to go back into the living to wait for Harry to come home. I sent him a text message but he still hadn't responded. I hated when he did this, ignore me.

He wasn't like this a couple of months ago. We were closer than this, so much closer. We were best friends before our relationship. But for some reason he had only been putting more and more distance between us. It was starting to scare me. I loved him, with everything in me.

To keep my mind off of Harry I began looking through Instagram as I sat on the couch. Most of the accounts I followed were of fan accounts. Mostly because their pictures were the best pictures to look at to cheer me up.

I heard a noise at the door and immediately looked up. It was Harry, I smiled. Finally.

But as soon as I saw who was behind him, my smile immediately dropped. I didn't expect to see Jess. I hadn't seen her in months and I was fine with that.

I liked Jess but she didn't like me. She didn't like me with her brother. Thankfully she hadn't poisoned Harry's mind and he was still with me. But I never that she wanted me far away from him.

The worst part was that before Harry and I started dating for real, we were actually friends. We hung out and talked. Now if I get a "hi" from her, it's a miracle.

" hi Jess" I said to her putting my phone down on the coffee table.

" hi" she answered without even looking at me.

Harry gave me a look and I knew what he was trying to say. He had forgotten to let me know that she was coming spend time with him.

I didn't mind them together. I couldn't simply because that was his sister and I would never even try to ruin their relationship.

" do you two wanna go out?" Harry smirked at both of us causing me to roll my eyes.

Harry asked if anyone else was here and I told him. Louis was in his bedroom, Zayn was on a date and Cailin was getting ready for her date.

The weirdest thing about my whole response was about Zayn and by the look on Harry's face, he agreed. Zayn never went on official dates. He just hooked up with girls. The curiosity of this new girl was creeping on me.

Cailin opened her bedroom door and walked out. She looked absolutely amazing, as always. Her smile seemed to light up the whole room. I glanced over at Harry and caught him practically drooling over her.

Harry was attracted to her and now I saw it. Was I jealous? There was no need to be...right? I mean like what guy wasn't attracted to her? I guess that part that bothered me the most was that they actually lived together. What if he actually liked her and that's why she had been acting weird towards me?

I shook those thoughts away before I could panic even more. Harry wouldn't do that to me. I knew all the rumors about him cheating on me but I decided they were just rumors. I loved Harry and that was all that mattered.

In a weird a felt sort of relieved when she walked out the front door greeting Carter. She walked out so fast I wasn't even able to say hello to Carter. But I guess with Harry being here, that was a good thing.

Jess gave Harry a look that I couldn't quite understand what she was trying to say. For all I knew she was thinking something about me.

" so what do you two have planned for tonight?" I asked standing next to Harry.

" strip club" Jess quickly responded causing Harry to burst out laughing.

This was typical Jess. She liked to push my buttons. I don't know why it bothered my so much but it did. Maybe because I was afraid Jess would have an input in my relationship with Harry.

" don't worry, we're just gonna watch a movie on Netflix, or something" Harry smiled as he put his arm around my shoulder. It felt nice being in his arms. I felt protected and safe in a way.

" don't lie to the poor girl" Jess continued to tease.

I knew I couldn't win this game with her even if I tried. I didn't want to win. I walked over to the counter to where my bag and grabbed it.

" leaving so soon?" Jess fake pouted.

" I'll see you tomorrow babe" I smiled at Harry ignoring Jess.

I gave him a kiss, before walking towards the hallway, and left the apartment. I felt like I could breathe again for some reason, probably because of Jess.

She was the type of person that I liked to be friends with. Sarcastic and funny. Being rejected, I guess, from her felt horrible. I wasn't used to being rejected by people. There was no reason for me to be rejected either.

I was always nice to people. I was raised that way and everyone knew it. I was known for being this way. I guess you could say that there wasn't a mean bone in my body. But that sometimes was a bad thing. I couldn't stand up for myself sometimes.

I waited for the elevator doors to open for me to get down to the lobby. I reached into my pocket to scroll through my phone but noticed it wasn't there. I had left it on the coffee table. Shit. I would have to face Jess again.

I walked away from the elevators and to the apartment again. I opened the door with my keys again and walked in. As walked though the hallway, I could hear Harry and Jess whispering.

I was never the type of person to hear other people's conversation but when I heard the next few words come out of Harry's lips, I stopped.

" I've been lying and hiding things from Lia" he confessed to his sister.

" what do you mean?" Jess asked.

I leaned my back against the wall and waited for the truth.

" I met Cailin before the idea of her joining the band ever came to mind. I slept with her one of the nights I was out here in New York" Harry said.

The truth was much worse than I had anticipated. I frozen in place. The signs were finally making since to me now. The way he looked at her even when she was looking away. The way his face brightened when she smiled or laughed. It was the kind of look that he never gave me.

" After she joined the band we hooked up a couple more times" he continued to confess.

A thousand rock being thrown at me, that's what I felt. Heartbroken over the boy I loved and stabbed in the back from my friend.

" if you love Lia, why do you cheat on her Harry?" Jess asked with no sarcasm.

" I do love Lia, just not the way she loves me" he whispered.

My heart stopped.

" she's my best friend you know? So when I found out she was in love with me, I didn't want to lose her so I lied and said I was in love with her too" he said causing tears to stream down my face.

" pity?" I whispered walking out of the hallways and into the living room where Harry and Jess were sitting.

Both of them looked over at me with surprised expression.

" that's why you're with me Harry?" I asked tear drops falling to the floor.

" no Lia!" he frowned.

" I just heard you" I shook my head.

" that's not what he meant" Jess said trying to save the situation.

" you can't say a word Jess!" yelled at her.

For the first time in my life I didn't feel like myself. Anger and sadness were mixed together and I didn't know who to control them.

" and Cailin? How could you do that to me Harry?" I said pacing the room not knowing what to do.

Harry looked at me not knowing what to say.

" I was here for you when no one was. I stood by your side through everything and still you all this to me? Were all those life stories lies too? Just so I would stay with you?" I asked furiously.

" of course not Lia! You know I could never lie about that" Harry shouted.

Becoming friends with Harry was difficult at first but then we became comfortable with each other. We became best friends.

With that came the telling of each other's past. Of course if Harry hadn't been drunk, he would have never told me about his mom and dad. The truth shocked me but I stood by him. When he got sobered up, I let him know what he had told me and he was glad that he could finally talk to someone about it after years of keeping his mouth shut.

He would sometimes call me in the middle of the night needing a distraction after having another nightmare abut his parents. I felt for him. Nobody should have gone through the things he and his sister had.

But in this moment, all those thought went away and I could only feel anger and disappointment for him.

" she's nothing to me, please Lia" Harry begged.

" of course she is! Just look at the way you look at her. You look at her like she's out of this world. You look at her like you've never looked at me. You're never gonna look at me that way. You love her" I cried.

" I love YOU Lia" Harry said as tears started to form in his eyes.

" you love me as your best friend, nothing more" I whispered.

Harry's expression quickly changed from sadness to anger.

" don't pretend like you didn't feel pity for me either! That's probably all you felt for me after I told you about my dad!" Harry yelled.

" Harry.." Jess pulled him lightly by the arm only causing him to jerk his arm at her.

Jess moved away from Harry and leaned against the wall just staring at him.

" it's true! That's why you've been with me even after hearing all about me cheating on you!" Harry shouted.

" it's sad that you think that about me Harry" I nodded.

" what's going on out here?" Louis asked walking into the living room as well.

" you should know, Harry's been dating me for pity and fucking Cailin on the sidelines" I said not believing that those words had actually come out my mouth.

Louis' face went into shock. His eyes grew bigger and looked over at fuming Harry. Harry shook his head at him, begging that Louis wouldn't ask any questions, at least for now.

" I'm done" I said to Harry nodding my head. Harry immediately looked over at me again and his expression changed again.

" done with what?" Harry frowned.

" us" I whispered before turning towards the door.

" please Lia!" he begged.

Instead of running back to him like I was used to do like all our other fight, this one was different. I knew I had to be away from him even if it felt like the end of the world. Even though I didn't know what I was going to do anymore, because he was my everything.

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There it is!

sorry it took so long. I started writing another chapter before this one but then I got the idea and writing something in Lia's POV and thought this was the perfect opportunity.

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