What was I doing with my life? Why did I only make the wrong decisions when it came to choosing right or wrong? My decisions were going to blow up in my face one day and I knew it. It was just a matter of time.

I woke up next to Harry. His eyes were closed and his breathing was heavier, which only meant that he was still asleep. I gazed at him for a while realizing that I was way in over my head. I was supposed to be only friends with him and here I was in his bed, knowing that Lia would hate me if she found out.

I looked down at myself and saw that I was completely naked. My bra and panties were drapped over a lamp

Before I could do anything more stupid, I slowly dragged myself out of his bed and began putting my clothes back on. Unfortunetly for me, I got caught as I tried putting my sweatpants back on and crashed to the floor.

"what the hell?" Harry groaned as turned over on the bed. I hoped he would just go back to sleep but he didn't. He slowly fluttered his eyes open to see me awkwardly sitting on the floor looking up at him.

" what are you doing?" he asked still with his head against the pillow.

" try to leave before anyone notices I'm here" I answered picking myself up off the floor, finally managing to put sweatpants back on.

As I looked around for my shirt, I could from the corner of my eye Harry sitting up on the bed and streching his arms.

" Cailin.." he began to say but I quickly interupted.

" I know what you're gonna say, this never happened" I nodded as I grabbed my shirt from under the bed. How it got there was the mystery to me.

" I wasn't gonna say that" he said looking directly at me.

I took a long hard look, just waiting for him to burst out laughing and admit that those .were the exact words he was gonna say. But he didn't.

" what?" he asked.

" I didn't expect that" I shook my head slowly while I stood up from the floor.

" I'm not always an ass Cailin" he said as he put a white shirt on.

" don't make me laugh" I smirked crossing my arms against my chest.

Harry smiled down and shook his head.

" we have a photoshoot to go to so I'll see you later.." I said only realizing that as I kept talking I kept sounding stupider.

Harry kept looking at me and I didn't know what to do so I just opened his door and left. Luckily Zayn and Louis seemed to be still alseep due to the fact that all the curtain were closed and no noise was coming from the main room.

As I walked into my room and closed the door behind me. I leaned against my door trying to figure ouy what was going on with me.

Why did I allow what happened last night? Did I really become that girl that let boys fo whatever they wanted to me? Well not boys, Harry.

*

As we drove to our album photo shoot, Harry and I would steal glances at each other. It wasn't the hatred or annoyed look that I was used to getting from him either.

It was more like a smirk that made me intrigued. The only yhing I wanted to know was what was going through his mind.

I looked away from Harry and saw the cutest little moment. It was Zayn holding little Boots in his lap. Boots absolutely adored him and so did Zayn.

I held up my phone and took a picture of the moment. I smiled as I began posting the picture up on instagram.

A couple minutes later, Zayn's twitter and instagram notifications started blowing up. Ad he held Boots in one hand, he grabbed his phone with his other hand and looked through the notifications.

Soon enough he looked up at me since I was sitting across from him.

" you do realize now people think I'm a cat lady right?" he playfully glared.

" everybody already knows that" Louis chuckled.

" that's only because you and Harry always keep posting cat pictures on my twitter!" Zayn punched Louis on the shoulder.

" how else are we supposed to fuck with you?" Harry laughed.

Just as Zayn was about to respond, James opened up the van door.

" ready for your album photoshoot?" James asked as we all got out of the car.

As much as I tried to hide it, I think it was pretty obvious to everyone that I was really excited. It was the one thing that I was used to back in my old life. I loved photoshoots. I lived for the whole process of it. The make-up. The hair. The poses. Everything.

We were all put in make-up chair and the make-up artists began working on us. Obviously the boys were finished way before I was so they were rushed to the dressing room so they could pick out the clothes.

A couple minutes later, in walked a young woman with a couple of pieces of clothing in her arms. as I looked closer to who it was, I realized I knew who she was.

It was Olvia Path.

" nice to see you again Cailin" she smiled as she put the clothes on a rack close by me.

" what are you doing here?" I smiled I jumped over and hugged her.

I had met Olivia while I was modeling over in London for a couple months. Willow and I loved hanging out with her. Especially because she wasn't like other stylists, she was actually nice to be around. She was only twenty-two but had already made a name for herself in London.

" I got a couple jobs over here in the states so I decided to move here" she shrugged.

" what have you got for me?" I smirked as I looked at the rack.

Immediately Olivia pulled out a beautiful white dress.

" for the first shoot, it's formal so the boys are going to wear suits and you this dress" Olivia said handing me the rack.

This was what I loved about Olivia, she was direct on what she wanted. There was no arguing with her.

" yes sir" I teased.

The hair stylist finished my hair and I quickly put on the white dress. It fit perfectly. No wonder, Olivia was one of the best.

I walked over to the boys in my heels and smiled at them. Zayn started to whistle while Louis gave me a thumbs up. Harry just gave me a smirked. Before I could blush, I bowed my head down and stood in the middle of them

As soon as the photographer started flashing his camera, I relaxed. Every worried thought in my head was gone.

I missed this. I missed being in front of the camera without being hounded by the paparazzi all the time. People don't realize that when you're famous you have to get used to strange men chasing you around.

It weird. It's scary.

As Harry stood beside with his arm around my waist, he tightend his grip on me where no one else could see. He was teasing me. I took a glance at him to see him smirking at the camera. He was starting to confuse me. What did he want with me?

Just as the photographer takes his last shot at us, in walks Lia and Liam. As soon as my eyes met Lia's eyes, I remember what I had done to her. My stomach dropped and I had an inner panic attack.

I took Harry's hand off my waist and moved away from him. It was obvious that Lia was upset with Harry because when she walked to him, she only gave him a peck on the cheek and then turned to me with a smile.

" I missed you" Lia said as she gave me a quick hug.

" you too" I said awkwardly.

" those better be for us" Zayn said from behind me.

I looked over to see what Zayn was talking about and saw Liam holding a tray with coffees. Liam lifted the tray up indicating that they were in fact for us. Immediately Zayn and Louis grabbed one each leaving one for me and one for Harry.

Harry grabbed his and before I knew it he and Lia walked away from all of us into a room.

" what's up with them?" Louis asked pointing to the direction they went.

" other than fighting again what could it be" Liam shrugged.

Liam handed me my coffee and I thanked him.

As the set was being re-designed for our next shoot, we all took a seat on the couch. As usual, they started talking about call of duty. I had never played it before so I kind of zoned out after a while.

My mind went to Harry and Lia. Were they fighting?  Woulf Harry tell her about what happened last night? Of course not. Harry would want to her hurt her on purpose.

Then I began thinking on what I wanted. Why would I sleep with him if I didn't like him like that? After all, Lia had become one of my best friend. Harry wasn't even close to a best friend to me.

Then again, maybe he was something more. Maybe I was actually falling for him.

'What am I thinking?' I laughed to myself.

Of course I wasn't in love with Harry. No girl could handle such a thing. I can hardly be his friend without fighting, imagine being actually together.

But as soon as Harry and Lia walked back towards us holding hands, my heart dropped. They had made up. I guess inside of me I actually wanted them to break up.

Oh God.

I was falling in love with that boy and I knew only tragedy would come from this.

*

" are you okay?"

I looked up from my tray of McDonalds and see Liam's worried face.

" you've had that look on your face for hours" he said.

" I just have a lot on my mind" I shrugged.

After the shoot, I had sort of kidnapped Liam and made him take me to the mall. I just needed to get away from Harry and Lia.

" like what?" he asked.

" I can't talk about it Liam" I mumbled.

I was dying to talk about it to someone but I couldn't. I had no one to talk to. I used to have Willow, but that was long over.

" can I take a guess?" Liam offered.

" you're never gonna get it right" I shrugged with a smile.

" Harry"

As soon as he said his name, my smile dropped.

" what about him?" I asked trying not to look him in the eye.

" something's going on between you two" he shrugged.

Shit.

" all the fights between you two, it's sexual tension. Everytime I'm near you two together, I can just feel it in the air" Liam nodded.

" does Lia know?" I asked in a pathetic tone.

" Lia is so in love with him that she see's everything but the truth. She just chooses to believe and Harry wouldn't lie to her, which the whole world knows that thats all he does to her" Liam shrugged.

" I'm sorry" I shook my head with tears forming in my eyes.

" you don't have to apologize Cailin. It's complicated, I get it" he said holding onto my hand.

" but she's your sister and I'm messing everything up" I continued shaking my head.

" just because she's my sister, doesn't mean I'm taking her side. I'm not on anyone's side" he said

I looked up again at him and felt comforted.

" so you're not mad at me?" I asked.

" of course not! Harry's the fucked up one" Liam laughed.

I laughed along with him.

" can we please just stop talking about Harry" I smiled.

Quickly Liam changed the subject.

" I started taking a few business classes" he said.

" business?" I asked surprised.

I would have expected everything but business from Liam. He just seemed like a forever party boy and just not a business man.

" I haven't told anyone else about out though, not even Lia" Liam confessed.

" I feel so special" I teased him with s smirk.

Liam rolled his eyes smiling.

" so why business?" I asked.

Liam then began telling me the story on how he decided what he wanted to do with his life. He said that one day maybe he could manage someone like he did for Lia before she became the big actress that she was now. When Lia became serious about acting, Liam was the one who managed her since they couldn't afford to pay anyone else.

Liam did it for free and he loved it. But when Lia got her big hit, she dropped him as her manager and went with someone else. It hurt him but he knew that she needed someone more experienced. So from then on, Liam went pretty much wherever she went so he could watch over her. He still to this day feels like it's his responsibility even though she's eighteen.

Liam then began saying that  he needed to start looking for a real job and not slack around so much. I was proud of him for realizing it now and not when it's too late.

" Maybe you'll manage me one day" I smiled as he finished his story.

" you'll be such a superstar that you would have probably forgotten all about me" he teased.

" shut up" I laughed.

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