I opened the door then quietly closed it behind me. He was asleep. I took a seat beside his bed then placed the bag as quietly as I could on the table. He always looked adorable when he slept. Tiny moans escaped his slight parted lips and was soon followed by the slow opening of his eyes. It seemed as if he sensed I had arrived.

"Did I wake you?" I asked him softly.

"No... You're fine." he whispered as he shifted to lie on his side facing me.

I cupped his puffy cheek then smiled softly. He was still beautiful as ever. I started to frown as I noticed his cheek was a bit cold.

"You need another blanket? Are the windows closed? Maybe I left the door open." I said as I moved about the room.

I heard a quiet and soft laugh come from behind me as I checked the windows. I walked back to my seat then sat down.

"You worry too much." he said before letting out coughs.

I furrowed my brows as he now had a pained expression on his face. It hurt to know and see how powerless I was, that I couldn't do anything to alleviate the pain. Pills and medical liquids only do so much for a patient, especially with a case like Hyunjoon's. No one really saw it coming, not even Joon himself. It was always intriguing how life sprang the most unexpected things on people, whether good or bad.

I felt something touch my hand, so I looked and saw Hyunjoon holding my hand with his slightly warm and small hand. I carefully raised his hand then gave it a gentle kiss. My heart swelled at the sight of his precious smile. He didn't deserve to get sick the way he did. He shouldn't be in here, suffering.

"How are your parents...?" asked Hyunjoon as he played with my fingers.

"They're good. We're all going to visit you next week, me, my parents and yours. Sounds great doesn't it?" I asked with a smile.

"How did you convince them to come see me?" he asked in a whisper.

Hyunjoon and his parents used to be close. Things started to happen and they drifted apart. They started to argue a lot before he fell ill. His parents did visit at times, but they never stayed long. It was nice to see that they cared even if the slightest.

"That's a secret." I said with a chuckle. "What did they do with you today?"

Hyunjoon happily talked about how nicely they took care of him and asked if he was in pain. I cupped his cheek again and caused him to quiet down. He sat up then placed his hand atop mine. I couldn't tell what he was thinking when he got like this.

"I want to kiss..." he mumbled as he looked at me with sad eyes.

"We can't... You know this..." I replied as I stroked his hair before giving his forehead a kiss.

"Please, just a peck...?" he pleaded with a pout.

I sighed heavily then quickly pecked his forehead again. He didn't seem satisfied, but he didn't press further.

Hyunjoon lied back down then coughed. I fanned him as he ended up having a coughing fit.

"Water...?" I asked as I reached for the pitcher and cup.

"If you don't mind..." he said in a raspy voice.

I poured the filtered water into the cup then handed it to him. He sat up enough so he could drink. Silence fell over us as he drank. I noticed he stopped asking about work and friends lately. Was he no longer interested in the world that didn't involve me?

"Joon, do you want to hear about what happened at work today?" I asked to test the waters.

"Sure." he responded, but not as gleeful as he used to.

"Well, Kris tried pulling a fast one over Hyungwon... you can guess how that ended." I said with a smile before laughing at the memory.

"Well, Hyungwon is usually a patient guy. Until you push him too far. Why would Kris push him that far anyway?" Hyunjoon asked as he stared at the water in the cup.

"They haven't been seeing eye to eye lately... The boss hasn't picked up on it yet." I said as I started to wonder how our boss didn't notice the big fight on the second floor.

Hyunjoon handed me the cup then lied back down. I started to wonder if he was feeling dispirited because he's been in here for quite a while. I wouldn't blame him if he was. He had closed his eyes after pulling the bed sheet up so that only his head was visible. I figured he was either going to do deep thinking or sleep. The latter seemed more plausible.

"Should I come by tomorrow?" I asked quietly.

"I'm just thinking..." he responded just as quietly.

I smiled softly as his eyebrows did their little movements when he was deep in thought. I wondered how much longer he had to stay here. I was pretty lonely in our apartment. I missed hearing his little "Jae-honey" every time I came home late or when he wanted to cuddle. I missed the random displays of affection whether we were home alone or out in public.

"Jae, you look upset..." he said as he was now looking at me with gentle eyes.

It was those same eyes that had me heads over heels for him in the beginning. The way they would pierce through my soul yet send warm feelings throughout my entire body. It still did, even to this day.

"I'm fine, Joon. Just thinking about work. Don't worry about me, just focus on getting better." I said quickly in an effort to keep him from exerting unnecessary energy.

He stared at me wordlessly before turning his head and closing his eyes.

"Tell me whenever you're ready then. I'm going to get some sleep, so feel free to leave." said Hyunjoon before coughing.

I started to panic as his breathing had started to come out in short spurts, as if he was drowning and gasping for air. I had him try breathing with me and managed to get his breathing back to normal. He quietly thanked me then told me to leave and get home safe. I slightly shook my head then rested my head on his lap. I was perfectly fine wasting all my time with him.