I wake up and lazily get out of bed. Then soon realize what today is. I eagerly put on a dress for 4th of july.

Then slip into my blue Gucci heels, I do my make up and matching red lipstick. When I see how good I look I go downstairs and see my parents hanging out.

My mom stands at the stove making beans, since they take so long. And there is three hours and fifteen minutes untill the party.

I reach the kitchen and look around for a snack to eat. My eyes land on a package of Fig Newtons.

I snatch the package and carry them to the table, setting five on a plate and taking it upstairs.

I sit down and throw one in my mouth. Before devouring another my phone rings.

"Hello who is this?"

"A girl booch, and I'm not saying my name."

"Your voice sounds really familiar."

"Hmm, guess your not as much as a dumb hoe as you used to be."

"Excuse me!" I shout.

"Look, I'm not trying to start anything. I-."

"Well you already did. What do you want, I don't even know you."

"Yes you do, it's jellissa. Your old bfflihoh."

"What?"
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The things that Jellissa told me about Clay have been on my mind. The party is in less than an hour and Zach just arrived.

We are sitting in the backyard as I kick my feet in the pool water with him.

"Hey, what's wrong, I can tell something's been bothering you this whole time." He says.

"It's nothing..."

"Well, actually Jellissa called and told me what's been happening to Clay an-."

"Wait, Jellissa and Clay? The two people you trusted the most who like betrayed you?" He asks confused.

"Yah, but Clay is in the hospital, he tries to kill himself. He was-...they were lucky they found him. It's crazy I care, I know. But, he was my first love, kiss, and I really cared about him. And somewhere inside I still do care." I say.

He nods trying to understand where I'm coming from. "It makes me wonder, what if I never found out and I stayed with him. Would he be sane and never did this?" Tears fill my eyes but I urge them away.

Zach puts his arm around me and puts a kiss on my head. He is about to give me a full hug when I find myself underwater.

I get up and gasp for air and start to laugh. I grab him and he goes in with me.

He comes back to the surface and I put my arms around him and press my lips against his soft warm ones.

I swim away and pull my weight up with hands on the ground. I put on my flip flops and walk to a lawn chair.

I plummet down and lay back staring at the bright circular sun and stare at it blinding my vision.

Then look away, I see Zach swimming around in the pool taking long strokes. I get up and walk to my room drying off. I braid my hair and put my dress back on.

Then walk down the stairs to see Zach sitting on a barstool eating a breadroll. "Hey." He smiles and pulls a chair out for me and let's me sit down.

"So, are you doing okay latley?" I ask him, "yah pretty good. Nothing bad or great has happened...but... you know." I nod my head feeling like he's hiding something from me.

"Are you sure that's all, you wanna tell me?" He looks at me giving me a short nod. Exhaling a breath of air I make my way to the couch so I can whatch a show.
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Fireworks explode and burst with light and color in the sky. Everything looks pretty and the smell of smoke fills the air and seeps into my clothes.

My glance shifts over to Zach as he looks at the fireworks. The colorful blast reflecting in in his eyes.

I walk closer to him and we sit on the car hood snuggling. "It's so pretty." I say, He turns to look at me.

Hot breath in my face and he kisses me, then pulls away. "But not as beautifull as you." I feel my face gain warmth and laugh.

The fireworks end and the thick smoke spreads through the sky bleeding through the my clothes and hair.

Zach and I hop off the car and walk hand in hand in the house. With the last remaining hour we play Payday and then he goes home.
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I get out of the shower and put on my pajamas then comfortably set myself in front of my vanity mirror in my room.

Before I can start blow drying my hair a picture catches my eye. A picture, with two people smilling. Me, and Clay.

A weak smile appears on my face. I take the picture down as tears fill my eyes. I try to blink them away but they fall down instead.

I grab my phone and search through the contacts. Then see his name and click it. I remember the last thing I said to him before I left.

"The love I had for you was real. The time you asked if I loved you I was too scared to say yes. But I did." He had smiled and I kissed him.

That was it, then I left and went to find Michael. I start to type a very long text to him

Jellissa called me the other day and told me what's been happening to you and what you tried to do. Anyway, even before that you have been on my mind. I miss you, and hope your feeling better. Bye, love, bye.❤

I hit SEND and then throw my phone on my bed. I plug in my blow dryer and blow dry my hair. When I finish I flat iron it and then curl it.

Then bun it and fall asleep.