Carmella's P.O.V

I watch Ryder's band practice their music in the studio as their dark, mysterious, harmonious, skrillexy, and sexy sounds all make an amazing song. They all have these cool looks, since the band started two days ago Ryder got three more tattoos, a sleeve tattoo on his right arm, one on his back that's is his band name, a rose on his neck, and the one that says king still on his left wrist. His outfit is a burgundy beanie, black t shirt with, dark ripped skinny jeans, a leather jacket, leather boots, and a rose on his small shirt pocket.

Everyone's outfit the same except the color of the hat. Ryder's eyes meet mine as he gives me a sly and sexy smile then winks. Then they stop for a break and he walks over and I put my arms around his neck and he puts his arms around my hips, "you practicing your looks for when you go on stage?" I ask him

"No, I just think you look irresistable."

I mean I can't blame him, I have on my thick cat eyes, dark red matte lips, smooth foundation, and a black dress with a long v cut showing at least 1/4 of my boobs flattening against my chest. And a frilled out ballerina like dress bottom and some black heels. My hair is now long again my boobs and straight half up half down. So yah, I look great.

He starts kissing me and then holds me with more of a grip, before I know it we're making out. Before anything else can go on a friend pats his shoulder and he pulls away slowly and gives me a seductive look and walks away with them.

"Hey, Erin?" I ask as he eats tortilla chips at the snack table. "Yah?" "Do you know what's going on with Ryder?" "What do you mean?" He asks, "like he seems diffrent." I say squinting my eyes.

"Well, I havn't noticed anything." "He isn't like drunk or high or anything?" I ask, "not that I've noticed." "Okay, thanks." I say, then sit back down and wait untill he comes back so I can talk to him.

It takes some time but then he walks through laughing with his band memeber Larson. He's white with dark rich black hair in a slicked back look. And high cheekbones and strong features with his icy blue eyes that still somehow stand out.

Ryder sits by me on the couch and puts his arm around me, but I get up and look at him. And he can tell what I'm hinting at, so we walk out the room to talk. "What's up?" He asks, "um well maybe I should ask you that." I say to him, he laughs, "what are you talking about?" "You're acting weird, and I thought we promised that you wouldn't be like this on the road to fame."

"How am I  being weird?" "Your being like weirdly flirty." I state out, he frowns and shakes his head. "I can't be flirty with my girlfriend?" He asks angrily.

"I didn't say that I just, nevermind." I say, "Okay nevermind." He says, then gets up walking over to the food table, I pull out my laptop and start my college classes. "Hey Ryder don't you have to do college classes?" "No, remember I graduate tommorow, I am two years older than you. You need to turn twenty so you can catch up a bit I mean I'm twenty one." He brags, "Oh okay, nevermind then. Freaking jerk?" I mumble, but he doesn't acknowledge me or what I said.
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I get in the covers and lay in bed staring at the ceiling. I'm upset how Ryder is changing and totally ignored what I said. He even promised less than a week ago so it couldn't have been that long of an amount of time. The door opens and Ryder turns on the light, "what the heck!" I yell, "come on we're going to a party at Erin's. To celerbrate us being a band. Get ready, I can't change out of my band uniform though." He says. I lazily get up and open the closet door and look for something.

I put on a high waisted tight black skirt and a NBHD black shirt with a white print of an upside down house, black leather jacket, and white 'Keds'. My hair still half up half down, and dark make up. "Okay I'm ready." I tell Ryder, he walks to the car and I go after him and lock the door behind me.

We get in the car he begins pulling away from the house as it shrinks away in the distance.  "Soon, you'll be wearing my band shirt." He says, I roll my eyes at his cockiness and laugh. "What?" He asks, "nothing, I don't wanna start anything . Let's just go to the party and have fun." I say, then I frown. "Please don't get drunk by the way." I say to him, "if I do it won't matter because you can drive me." "Well yah but, it's just stupid. You don't want a hangover on the day of your graduation."

"Okay mom, you're right, sorry."
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Alternative Rock plays throughout the house where the party is being held, Ryder walks off to his band mates and I follow him. Every face but theirs are unfamiliar, they do their secret handshake and then start talking about their music and how great it'll be to get fans. Even though I could've sworn Ryder wanted nothing to do with fans. 

"Hey, I'm going to grab something to eat or at least look." I tell Ryder, "Oh yah, here let me show you were it is." Erin says,  we walk past people and through a hall to get to his kitchen. Then I see trays of food and plates and utensils, "Thanks." I say, "yah no problem, so how are you and Ryder?" He asks as I put grapes on my plate. "Um, good enough for now, but he isn't the same today as he was the others."

"Yah, I remember you asking me something about him earlier, I can talk to him if you want, he'll listen to me." He offers, "okay sounds good, thanks." I say to him, he nods and exits the room.  I also grab two small triangles of a sandwich and a cookie walking it back over to a table and eat it. A large wall to wall window is in front of me as I stare out it.

I see Erin walking with Ryder as they talk. Luckily, he had my back.

{Moments Later}

I walk back over the living room looking to find the band members and get to know them a little better. But there is still no Erin and Ryder, just Larson and Jax. They smile when the see me making my way towards them. "So, you like that band huh?" Jax asks pointing to my shirt, "oh yah, I love them so much. Ryder knows that especially." "They are good, do yo think that sometimes we sound like them?" 

"Yeah." He walks closer and smiles, "So, wanna take a walk or something?" He slurs, "no thanks I'll just wait here until Ryder gets back." I say defensively, "Come on Jax leave her alone. Go talk to Sierra or something. You know Ryder will kill you if you touch her." Larson says, Jax frowns but goes away anyway. 

"Thanks Larson," "no problem, there's Ryder." He says pointing behind me, I turn around and smile. "Hey let's go talk." He says, I nod and we walk out the house going along a path way.

"Hey, look I'm sorry for being a douche, I shouldn't have treated you like that and disrespected you." "It's okay, I just don't want you to change and then I loose you. I love you and havn't had feelings like this towards anyone so strong." I say, he stops us and leans in to kiss me. "Carmella you couldn't lose me even if you tried." I smile and he spins me, "okay give me thirty more minutes to hang and then we can go."
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3:17 a.m

I open my eyes still seeing darkness, I pull the covers off me and then walk down the hall and see Ryder asleep on the couch. I tap his shoulder and he wakes up, "hey." I say smilling. "Hey, what's wrong?" He asks, I sit by him, "do you think that you can just lay on top of the covers and lay with me?" "Yah, yah of course." He says, I smile back at him and he get's up walking behind me to the room.

I lay in the covers and he lays on the bed with his cover on him. "Ryder?" "Mhmm?"  He asks half asleep, "I love you." I whisper, then fall asleep yet again.
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"Hello?"

"Oh, okay."

"No problem, be there soon." I open my eyes seeing Ryder get dressed and ready, "where you going?" I ask sleepily, "um the studio. Sorry, they need me and we need to work on this album. But I'll be here before I have my graduation." He says, I nod and get out the covers. I give him a hug taking in his scent.

Cologne, ciggeretts, and linen, all seeped in him. He holds me and puts his forhead against mine, "I love you firefly. And don't forget it." He kisses me and pulls away to leave to his band.