Ryder's P.O.V

I wake up covered in sweat and Carmella still asleep peacefully by me. I don't understand how I can sleep, all I've been having lately are horrible nightmares. Most are the same, about Carmella and me breaking up or her dying.

Whatever the case it includes Carmella.

I plant my feet on the cold wood flooring and look at the clock.

3:56 a.m.

Great, all I've gotten is four hours of sleep. I make my way to the kitchen and open the fridge feeling the cold air hit my hot body. Food fills the shelves and drawers and sides. My hand grabs for a slice of cake in the fridge from the funeral, I set it on the counter as the fridge door closes shut behind me.

I grab a fork and take a peice out transfering it to my mouth and eating it. The sweetness staining my tongue and bringing pleasure and comfort to me all at once.

I hear footsteps and see Carmella, "Oh sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. I've been having these nightmares lately and thought cake would be nice." I say cracking a smile, she sends one back and sits at the table.

I sit with her and feed her a forkful of cake and she smiles at me. "So what are these so called nightmares?" "Just different ones, sometimes you die or worse. Or better but still horrible. I just- it makes me stay up." "So you've been staying up huh?" She asks.

"Yah, I have. Would you like some more cake?" "I'm always in the mood for more cake Ryder. You know that." She says, I laugh and feed her more.
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I wake up to see myself sitting on the couch with my arm wrapped around Carmella as she snuggles by me. She shifts around and raises her face to send a smile at me. "Hello Firefly." "Hello Passionfruit." "Any nightmares?" "No, not this time." "Good, well I guess the caked help." "Yah, and you."  She smiles and a pink tint grows in her cheeks.

Her phone starts ringing and she picks it up. It reads,

Jesse

"Oh, wow. Well answer." She does so and walks off to her room, as much as I'd like to run after or listen into her conversation with him, I should be able to trust her easily.

My mind wanders off to think about many other things like food, my band, music, and my family. With all of the time passed dwelling and thinking on and about things Carmella walks out and sits on the couch by me yet again.

"So, how'd that call go?" "Good, really good actually. He's cool, nice friend." She says to me, "Oh okay. Hey, um, do you want to do anything or go anywhere?" "Sure."

My phone starts ringing and I see Erin calling me.

"Oh sup Erin! How are you?"

"I'm cool, anyway I was just having lunch with Frank and we were discussing things and he thinks it'd be best to move to Los Angeles. So think about it and talk to Carmella. Everyone is on board but, now it's up to you. Umm but that's all I am currently pretty busy so yah. But bye and text me when you know or call Frank."

"Oh, um okay. Ugh, yah sure I'll think about it."

"Okay! Thanks man, talk to you later."

"Uh, yah, bye."

I hang up and look to Carmella who still sits by me. "So what was that about?" She asks, "um Frank wants us to move to L.A. he thinks it would be good for us. He has everyone else on board but um, now it's something we have to discuss. I know you have college her so it's hard. But, that's yah. That's it." I tell her, she nods and then bites her lip.

"I have three years of school left. And transferring to another school would be alot on me." "But you don't even want to major in baking or cooking anymore." I say.

"Well yah but, we just got this place!" She says in a higher tone. "So what I leave the band that was kinda united cause me? We stay here and I leave all of that behind? I mean all of this leads back to an idea you had Carmella."

"Yah, you're right. I just need some time to think about it before we make any further descions, okay?" I look around the room not responding to her, but her eyes don't leave me so I look back at her. "Okay, fine."I say and then she walks to the room and I plummet down on the couch and let out a long deep sigh.

I guess this is what happens when you date a younger girl who still remains in college.
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"Okay, so. I talked to my professsers and chef and principle yesterday. And I think it'd be good for you to persue in this career and I need to find something else. So, it has been decided I guess, that we're moving to Los Angeles." She says, I leap of the couch and embrace her in a tight warm hug.

"Oh my gosh thank you so much!" I shout, then text Frank and Erin and kiss Carmella, "ugh this is amazing, your amazing, I am so pumped!" I shout around the room. She just keeps laughing and blushing.

"Okay, we have to pack and stuff, oh and my parents will probably send me another two grand anyway, but wow. We're going to L.A!" "Now we can also see Jesse and them, that's a plus." I add on, she nods and walks with me to grab some boxes and bags.

We sit on the floor and put on some music and begin putting things in the boxes with packaging to keep it safe. "So, what do you wanna do when we get in L.A?" "What would there be to do? We can visit Disney Land and have a specail date. Or even some really good food place or something like thay, have a freaking party! The possibilities are endless!" I shout with excitement. I grab a cigerette and light it, then inhale some smoke and exhale once taking the bud away from my lips.

"Well, guess we'll see when we arrive won't we?" "Yes, yes we will."