Ryder's P.O.V

I take a large intake of smoke, and puff it out. Tears rolling down my cheeks if I'd never taken Carmella to that party last night she wouldn't have cheated. She wouldn't have kissed Clay.
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Last Night...

I spin Carmella and then the base drops and she drops and comes back up to kiss me. Music surrounds us and I wrap my arms around her. "Let's get a drink." I say, she nods and we walk off making our way to the kitchen. She grabs a pink wine cooler and I grab an orange one, I open both of ours and then we settle down on a loveseat and drink them as we chat and listen to the music surrounding us. "So, are you happy I took you to this party or just like meh?" I question.

"Well I appreciate the fact that you took me out so we can hang, but I'd rather go someplace nicer with you. Or maybe even your dorm." She says, in some ways I'd have to agree with her because sometimes isolation with her is nice. I take a sip of my drink and taste the flavors as they linger on my tongue. My arm wraps around Carmella and I kiss her on the cheek soon after she sends me a smile. I finish the last few sips of my drink and get up to throw the bottle away.

The sound of glass shattering comes from the garbage and makes someone look at me. But this doesn't stop me from leaving the area and going back to Carmella. But it's too late, someone already took my place right by her. They smile, laugh, and he plays with her hair. From what I've seen in the pictures I have no choice but to sum him up as Clay. Carmella's first ever boyfriend.

But before I can take any more steps to tell him to leave, she leans in and kisses his lips, and I look away walking to a different room.

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Current Time

*knock knock*

"Come in."  I say through tears, the door opens to reveal Carmella and I look at her, as anger boils and rises in me. "Ryder I am so sorry I-.'' "NO! I can't even believe what you did to me. Did it cross your mind how I would feel, he is the guy that cheated on you. And for a girl that's been cheated on, you sure as hell do the same thing." I say, hatred in every word.

She looks down with hurt in her eyes, "I was drunk I-." "All you had was half of a wine cooler. Don't even lie to me." "Well you want the truth!" "The truth is, I missed him a bit. Being around him was like old times and going back to the Carmella that wasn't broken!" She yells. "Move forwards not backwards! You don't have a single idea what I felt. What I wanted to do." I say holding back tears.

"I think we should take a quick pause. Or breake whatever, so I can think about all this." "Ryder no, I- I'm sorry." She says begining to cry. "Carmella, just go okay. Before you mess anything else up." She leaves the room and slams the door closed. I get up and walk over to open the window a bit and inhale some of the fresh air. My eyes continue to water and frustration grows in me and I slam my fist on the desk.

The door opens again and my roomate walks in and see's me. "Hey man, how are you?" "Um, well me and Carmella are taking a breake. She kissed her ex boyfriend last night. Well one of them." I say to him, "wow man I'm sorry." "Don't be, least I know the kind of girl I was dating." "Well, maybe she was drunk you know?" "She had one whine cooler man." He puts a white shirt on over his black swift hair onto his black body. "Gosh, how then. There has to be something to it. I don't think she'd just be like that, it seems weird." He says sitting on his bed. I sit on the desk chair and fold my arms leaning back against the backboard.

"She told me that it felt like home and she was going back to the old times. When she was the good Carmella and like old times." "I mean she had said she feels at home with me. And now what some ex who cheated on her with her best friend is just gonna win her heart over again?!" "I mean it's just not, it's not fair." I say begining to cry again. I get a cigerette and light it and take an inhale. I hold it in then let it out, "man you can't smoke in here." He says nervously, "I don't care." I say then continue to smoke. Because I don't, and Carmella ruined the good guy she created and brought out the bachelor again.