I haven't seem to get any sleep recently. Minus the fact that the beds nowadays are very weird compared to the crappy mattress I had... everything comes back.

I keep having dreams of war, dreams where Bucky... yeah. Where everyone I know isn't here - and I wake up and it's a reality. Dreams of those war times I wish I could unsee.

Do the others face this as well? I've never had anything as bad as this before. I would guess they do, after all they've been through. I mean... hell, my story isn't even anything compared to what the rest of them have been through.

Sometimes I think I'm just a show boy, that I was just there for some stupid propaganda. It was ridiculous. I fought in battles, but I would as any soldier had. I did it with pride for the country - our country.

I mean, I probably sound ridiculous to anyone. Maybe it's not all of that those dreams are bad, but... sometimes I'm wishing I'd wake up and it's still then. Not now.

Who knows, though? I'll pull through it. I've got amazing allies and companions now that I'd never give up for anything: the Avengers. Yes, even Stark.

On a side note: Remember to ask someone about Froyo. What is that? It was one of the Avengers who told me about it, but I'm clueless to know what it is.