He held a brush in his hands as his hands worked to move it beautifully around the canvas placed in front of him.His eyes that were reflecting the universe hidden within them as he elegantly drew his painting. He alway had a meaning hidden behind his paintings-the main reason of his success all over the country as a most influential painter of the time.

He has been working on this piece for over three days now, after a few minutes that seemed like thirty five minutes he placed his brushes down and stood up,backing up to a good distance to have a final look at his painting. A satisfied smile appeared on his lips as he admired the beautiful piece of art in front of him since he even decided it’s name already.

“Blue and Grey”

After half an hour, he placed his painting on a nice, safe place to dry till morning and he walked out of the building. The exhibition was taking place within a week and he was much satisfied with his work.He would not raise his hopes high but over the last few years his success was reaching cloud 9.So saying he somewhat expected it to gain a lot of approach would make sense.

Smiling to himself he decided to walk back home, He is somewhat a really calm person. Whenever he paints something it soothes all of his nerves regardless of all the mess in his world he tends to enjoy his time to himself happily. Being an artist he notices every single detail of the universe , the nature, the world, the seasons, the animals, the people.

As he reached his home, he entered the passcode entering in to be met with complete silence. A silence that eats him up but he can’t do anything about it right?His footsteps took him back to a room which practically didn’t belong to him but at days like this he would just drag himself there. The beautiful scent of the missing person welcomed him happily.

Jungkook:” Hey princess, I see you are doing well.”A smile appeared on his lips as he dropped himself on the bed. The warm sheets helped him drive off to sleep almost instantly.

*****

YN:” Please, I am tired, give me some time to myself will you?”She looked at the people-- parents standing in front of her digging holes in her forehead with their cold glares.

Mrs Park:” Yeah after ruining all our hopes, expectations. Look at you being an ass living your life happily. Why would you care after all right what your parents go through. “She raised her voice a bit storming off there leaving her father to flash her a disappointed look before following his wife.

She looked down, tears prickling at the corner of her eyes but she blinked them away as a broken sigh escaped her lips.

YN:” I just want to be happier, Am I being too greedy?”

*****

The next morning alarm kept running for the last half an hour as she kept on snoozing it off for it to start ringing again after five minutes. What was the use of putting that many alarms timings when she had to be late each day anyways.Soon it stopped letting her fall back to sleep peacefully for her to snap out of sleep after 10 minutes to realize she is late….again.

Cursing at herself she jumped out of bed tripping over the blanket landing straight on floor. Groaning her eyes widened as she ran to mirror remembering what she did last night .

YN:” Oh Shit!!! Oh shit shit shit !!!” There laid scratching marks on the nape of her neck which she herself hurt herself.Foolish but that’s the only way she can heal herself from all the pain. Most of the time she ends up crying just because she doesn't want to hurt herself but she can’t help it.

Running to the closet she chose a turtle neck with a coat that goes above it.Yes it will do, it’s cold outside anyways. Being late again she burst in her class slamming the door open just to see the class already started with the professor glaring at her.

Professor:”What excuse do you have today?”

YN:” O-oh! My dog turned off my alarm!”

Professor:” and why would your dear dog turn off your alarm?”He crossed his arms above his chest. What was he ? a ten? To believe such shit. Oh honey he was a University professor dealing with such students for the past 2 decades. She shifted nervously in her place whining a bit.It was her normal routine after all making her one of the famous student of college but because of her usual childish behaviour plus funny remarks,

YN:” Oh Wey! You don’t have a dog, you don’t know the struggles. It was dark outside and He tripped in mud I had to clean him. Tsk Such a hard work”

Professor:” and Why was it dark outside in the earliest morning ?”

YN:” h-huh? Ahh jinjja of course I am talking about last night. Today morning he turned off my alarm so yeah.” She smiled sweetly at him who turned back around looking at the board in front of him.

Professor: “Last Chance Miss YN.”

YN:” Every last chance is a second last chance.”  She mumbled walking back towards seats just to hear a stern “NO” from her professor. Oh god he had such nice ears but such a waste of them to hear bullshit like coming out of her mouth who smiled nervously rushing back to take a seat . A Lot of seats were empty since it was such a big auditorium.

After the class ended the students looked at her laughing making her laugh too.They were all such nice towards each other specially YN who had a personality to make every one comfortable around her.

Yuna:” You idiot which dog turns off alarms, plus you are done if the professor finds out you don’t even have a dog.”

YN:” He won’t. Let me use my non-existing dog for a few more excuses before I think of something else.”

Yuna:” Is it too hard to sleep and wake up on time.”

YN:” Heh who will finish my favourite series. Night is the only time to watch them happily.”
She clicked her tongue running off to her next class before she was late for that too. Everyone thinks of her as the most lively person yet she was a kind of person who faked her whole self just to appear lively and funny . As long as it makes others laugh right? Yet only she knew she stays awake the whole night because she is not able to sleep because of her oh so nice parents and always ends up late for University.

Her parents wanted her to study business and help them with it but She chose to study computer engineering instead. She didn’t have a brother makes it all on her to act like the son of the family and help her parents with business which she rejected because she wanted to pursue her dream and become a computer engineer .

Since then they are violent towards her, Always pushing her to edge calling her a disappointment. At first she tried to take it all thinking it was her fault to disappoint her parents but each human have a limit and they crossed it.

It all reached to an extreme extent when they brought her a proposal of their business partner’s son. If she couldn’t help them with business then at least she could accept that proposal and get them benefit in business but she rejected to it to saying she wanted to complete her studies first .

Nothing is good since then.Everything crashed.The beautiful castle she built as a kid thinking her family is perfect broke. She watched it in front of her eyes being flown away by the ocean waves.

Sighing, she walked out of university. Time to go back home.Why can’t there be more classes something like that goes whole day and even whole night too? At Least she won’t have to go home right.

Whatever I Don’t care

She happily plugged her earphones in playing some lively songs which make her all happy as she decided to have some fun before going back home. There was a beautiful smile on her lips as she walked around the city looking at everyone. People looked so busy yet happy like they had no troubles in life.

Widening her eyes, she almost let out a scream running across the zebra crossing watching a kid on wheelchair struggling to cross road before the signal turns green but to his bad it was green already. Reaching him, she instantly helped him cross the road as cars filled over the road once again.

Boy:” Thank you Noona.”The boy happily thanked her, ouch he had such a beautiful smile too bad he was on a wheelchair.

YN:” Be careful hmm what’s your name? ”She ruffled his hair, he looked somewhat 7- 8 years old.

“Jihoon ah what are you doing here I was looking for you all around.” A mature manly voice took their attention followed by a man who seemed to be in his early twenties. Wearing a turtleneck and a navy blue long coat over him holding an ice cream cone in his one hand , other reaching out to touch the boy but YN instantly stood in front of him protecting the boy.

YN:” And who are you. Stay away from the kid.”She puffed out her cheeks trying to look scary.He gave a confused look with an “excuse me?”

Jihoon :” Hyungiee!!”The kid extended out his hand for the man and YN stepped away realizing the man was familiar to the kid. Jungkook smiled giving him his ice cream which he took happily getting lost in his world eating it .

YN:” you should not leave him like this. He was crossing the road alone.”Jungkook gave an apologetic look.He just went to take ice cream for him, he had no idea Jihoon would cross roads himself.He is usually quite careful about it.

Jungkook: “ Thank you for helping him out. I am Jungkook.”He gently smiled extending his hand which YN shook back reflecting her cute smile.

YN:” Park YN”

Jihoon:” Noona! Share!!” The boy happily extended his ice cream remembering his hyung telling him to share his food with others who don’t have it. He always does it with Jungkook too whenever he is having snacks.She chuckled taking a bite smiling a bit internally at the boy who asked her first before taking a bite himself. whispering something in his ear the both of them chuckled making Jungkook reflect a confused expression.

Jihoon:” Hyungie sharee!!” This time he extended it towards Jungkook who leaned down to take a bite but instead the kid bopped a bit of ice cream on the tip of guy’s nose and both YN and Jihoon burst in laughter high fiving with each other.

Jungkook:” Jihoon weyyy.” He pulled back instantly wiping it off with tissue looking back at Jihoon who was too lost having fun with YN.The kid happily ate his ice cream along but suddenly it fell off his hand on the ground and he started coughing badly.

Jungkook:” Jihoon! What happened.” He knelt down instantly trying to rub his back but his coughs kept getting worse making both of them worry. Jungkook instantly got up with a quick “Please stay beside him I will bring the car” to YN and ran away. Not caring about home or her parents she stayed beside kid trying to calm him but slowly his coughs stopped and he fainted in YN’s arms making her shake him a bit but it was off no use. She swore she was at the edge to cry before Jungkook’s car stopped and he came out taking the wheelchair while YN took the boy in her arms and both ran back in car making Jungkook drive off to hospital in a hurry.

The doctor came out of the examination room and told the Kid’s guardian who was Jungkook that The boy had an allergy from strawberry and it reacted going inside his body. Jungkook’s eyes narrowed, getting lost in his thoughts. Did Jihoon really never have strawberries before? Or else he would know. The doctor patted his shoulder walking away . Still he couldn’t really remember. It was weird. How come he never had strawberries before.

YN:” Jungkook shi? Are you alright? Jihoon is alright, the doctor said you can take him home.”He snapped out of his thoughts looking at YN suddenly realizing she was still there.A sudden wave of guilt rushed through his body keeping the girl here regardless of the fact she must be busy too.

Jungkook:” I am sorry for keeping you here. Thank you for helping me out.Let me drop you back home please.”He said with his sift gentleman tone making her shake her head with a slight wave of hand.

YN:” It’s really alright. You should give time to Jihoon.”

Jungkook:” Please, it’s getting dark.I insist, allow me to drop you safely to home.I will be at peace like that.” She sighed internally and nodded accepting the offer.How could she say no to that ?

Jungkook went back inside seeing JIhoon awake laying in the bed.He kissed the boy’s forehead.Damn he almost had a heart attack.Holding the boy for a moment he moved the sheets off him putting his shoes back on him.

Jihoon:” Hyung, Why Noona died? I miss her” The small voice of the boy stopped him in his tracks looking back to meet the little duo eyes prickling with tears.

How am I supposed to answer you that baby?

He smiled, hiding all his emotions behind it and wiped the boy’s crystal tears. “ She is looking at you from above, Be a good boy and don’t be sad mm. Noona will be sad too.”He kissed his forehead once again taking the boy in his arms walking out of the hospital with YN.

YN:” Nooooo I am More cute looooook!!!” The usual silent ride , this time was filled with whines, laughs, giggles and bickerings of the two sitting in the passenger seat. She had Jihoon in her lap and they both were taking selfies with cute bunny and cat filters on. Both fighting on who was more cute. Most of the time them laughing out loud whenever a stoOopid Filter would appear.

Jihoon: “ NO!! I am more ! I look like a bunny Hah Like Hyung !!”

The man who was silent whole time focusing on his drive but taking in the beautiful laughs of his little brother filling the car instantly yelled a “What did you say!?”

Jihoon:” OH Wey! You are cute like Bunny BUNNY Right Noona!!”he innocently looks at YN who nodded at him and he laughed.

Jihoon:” Yay! I WON!”

Jungkook:” I am not a Bunny you pabo”

Jihoon:” I am not Pabo, I am an Intelligent man!”

Jungkook:” Correction kid”
Jihoon:” mAn”
Jungkook:” Kid “
Jihoon :” MAN MAN MAN” he huffed using his nostrils to blow trying to look scary but to both adults he looked like the cutest bean.

YN:” Okay OKay Stop, Jihoon is a man.”

Jungkook:”Kid”
YN: “ looks like you are the kid here since you have a lot of experience of how to pronounce the word right.”

Jungkook:” ExcUsE Me!?”

YN:” ExcUsEd!”

Jihoon:” Aish hyung, stop fighting like a baby. You are VeRy nO FuN” She chuckled as the two kids ahm I mean YN and Jihoon started playing with phone again.But it didn’t last long as Jungkook reached her home. Even though he tried his best to drive slow and take the long way but it was still here. It had to right?

Jungkook:” We are here?” His voice snapped the two out of there happy trance as she looked out realizing she was ….home.Kissing Jihoon’s cheek she placed him back on seat gently who hugged her tightly.

Jihoon:” Noona.”

Jungkook:” Jihoon, Let her go mm. Say thank you for giving you a happy time.”

Jihoon:” Thank you Noona.” Her heart ached at the obedient boy who reflected a small smile at her yet inside he was sad about her leaving already. Back to her pretending she was best at she met both of them thanking Jungkook as well for the ride and see them off watching the car driving off away.

Jihoon:’She reminds me off Lia Noona”

………

YN turned to look at the home that screamed “ Welcome back home you brat” Closing her eyes she took a deep sigh. At the end, she have to face the reality anyways from where she can not run away .Yeah she was ready to be once again bombarded with all the questions.Where were you today, what were you doing out this late at night.Was not that's why you rejected the proposal to hoe around all you want ?

And the exact thing happened when she stepped inside home to see her mother sitting on the couch already digging holes in her eyes. “Where do you think you were till now!!”

She gulped stopping in her  tracks.Her anxiety was rising all over again,They needed to let her live. Just because she chose education herself and decided to marry a man she would love she lost her own parents.Was it a crime? People around her most of the time say your parents are so rich you are so lucky you have all the necessities of life.No she wanted to scream and tell them what this shitty business brought her in to.It made her life a living hell.

Mrs Park: “ I ASKED WHERE WERE YOU!!”

YN:” W-with m-my friends. W-we were studying on a project”She took a step back out of her fear,Eyes glued to marble tiles in front of her.

Mrs Park” Study Study Friends! If only you had decided to study what we asked you to I would be so proud of you but yeah why would you want to make your parents proud right.”

YN: “ Mom please try to understand me.I can’t do something forcefully. I have to focus on what I am good at. I would Fail if I chose to study business.I love you and dad a lot and I want to make you proud but please I can’t function properly If I am forced”

She tried to say it without stuttering in her soft tone hoping it might break a little bit of ice but it didn’t look like that watching her other’s expressions.

Mrs Park:” You just care about yourself YN. Only yourself. I grew you with so much love for this day. You are a huge disappointment, nothing else.” Her voice sounded hurt as she left her daughter alone leaving her on her own .

She ran to her room sliding against the door crying her hugging her knees.She was a disappointment.She hurt her mother.She hurt her father.She disappointed them.

I am such a fucking disappointment.I don’t deserve to live.I hurted them.Being their only child I didn’t brought them their happiness. I am so worthless