so i was rly bored and tired and i wanted to write smth this is what happens in my brain at two in the morning, hope it doesn't suck <3 love you guys!! 4.13K i dont rmbr i wasn't looking as closely as i normally do its that or 4.35k REGARDLESS I LOVE YOU VOTE AND COMMENT READ MY OTHER BOOKSLKFALKDFJAELKJFA;SLDKFJ;ALDKJF;ASLDKFJLASKDFJ

SLEEP??? I SHOULD GET SOME XD excuse the weird alignment, my computer's screwy i hope i fixed it ❤

i was up late again. i was on my phone in instagram watching stories and videos and scrolling through pics. with a twinge, i noted that i had been excluded from yet another get together. it didn't matter anyway, i would have preferred to stay in alone. as always. always alone.

i was lying quite obviously. i wanted company. i wanted attention. i wanted to be wanted and i wanted to feel like people enjoyed spending time with me. but rly who enjoyed sitting in silence. i was terrible at having verbal conversations. i preferred texting. when i had one on one time with my friends, i sat quietly on my phone and watched them out of the corner of my eyes, randomly showing them memes or videos i found hilarious, that they didn't understand at all.

i would suggest things to do with no intention of doing them, unless of course it involved more doing nothing.

so, bored and lonely, i opened my dms to snoop on who was active. Kookie was, thank god, he always had a minute to talk to me. he seemed to know when i needed company.

Hey kooks im bored :]

JustinSeagull

XD okay whats up

um.... nth thats why im bored

JustinSeagull

rood okay then im leaving

nooooo come back im lonely too :,(

JustinSeagull

uve convinced me, ill stay

phew that was close

JustinSeagull

do you want me to sneak over, we can listen to music and sit on our phones

do that yuss

JustinSeagull

omw :3

see what i mean, he always seems to know what i need. just sm1 to be there. in case i randomly felt the urge to speak aloud, id have sm1 listening. a willing participant in my meaningless conversation. i stood and stretched up on my tippy toes and touched the low ceiling of my basement with my fingertips. i needed to unlock the door for him. i grabbed a bag of chips and sprawled out on the couch to wait.

 in minutes he was knocking quietly and sneaking inside the basement door. his hair looked all messy like he'd gotten out of bed and his sneakers weren't even tied. he plopped down next to me, shoving his charger into my lap.

"Plug it in?"

i groaned and hauled myself up, "what good are you" i leaned over the back of the couch and plugged it in while Jungkook smiled at his phone, typing away. "oooooh"

"what" he looked up innocently.

"who you talking too....." i made that face at him. the weird one where ur eyes get big and you lift ur eyebrows and make ur lips curve in suspicion. almost the lenny face but not quite.

"Jimin" he told me.

"so lame" i sat back down and handed him the cord, which he stuck in his phone. i turned on my spotify and shuffled my library, all sorts of stuff played. like tessa violet, monsta x, bts, mamamoo, red velvet, nct, stray kids, sf9, shawn mendes, like, all sorts of stuff.

at one point gotta go turned on and jungkook lifted his eyebrows at me. "Chungha?"

i nodded , "A queen" to which he gave a nod and we fell silent once again.

it was comfortable becuz jungguk didn't mind the silence like some of my friends. he was okay with munching on chips and not bothering to fill the silence with conversation that tired me out. he didn't even mind when i'd randomly drape my legs over his lap, or suddenly sit upside down. the most reaction was that damn eyebrow lift.

"comfy?" he'd laugh softly and i'd just nod with a dumb smile on my face while all the blood rushed to my face and my arms started trembling from holding up my phone. what can i say, im weak.

Jiminie

hey i know ur with ggukie

u win a prize???

Jiminie

make a move already

rly this again

we're not like that

like its comfortable now, feelings would make it not comfy and he'd stop being so fun

Jiminie

but it could be ffs woman

just kiss him or smth

why dont u

Jiminie

:"( alas the boi be het

so if i cant have him u must

XD give it up my bro

Jiminie

But he likes uuuuu

make the boi happy

*insert doubt face emoji*

Jiminie

cmon trust me, i know him

i know him too and i dont trust ur judgement jiminie pabo

Jiminie

ugh blocked!

ud miss me too much

Jiminie

no taetae would get me thru it

he'd be too busy getting me thru it

no Ggukie would help you Tae is MINE

;lsdkafja;lskdjfslkjfa

u should get him already

Jiminie

:[ bitch

stfu

Jiminie

:( im telling ggukie

XD okay

i looked over at jungkook who frowned at his phone.

"stop picking on jimin y/n" he tsked.

"but he started it" i giggled, my face felt hot from being upside down for so long, so i grabbed Gguk's arm to pull myself up.

"jimin said you like me" jungkook cocked an eyebrow at me.

i spluttered, not expecting jimin to go this far. i didn't like being put on the spot and i didn't know whether to deny it or just admit it.

"yea, well jimin says a lot of things"

"Like what" jungkook laughed

"that you like me too"

"well he's not wrong" jungkook smiled, ruffling my hair and loosening my ponytail.

i frowned and slapped his hand away to fix it. "jerk" i huffed

"but you love me"

"in your dreams"

"no its in ur dms" he snorted, turning his phone to show me his and jimin's conversation, which was filled with screenshots. of my words. about kookie.

"that bitch is dead" i mumbled, snapping the band onto my wrist. i'd given up on my ponytail and let my hair fall haphazardly down my back. i grabbed at jungkook's phone, fully prepared to delete the msgs.

"no" jungkook rolled away from me, laughing and holding his phone close "spare him, and i want these. ur not deleting them"

i sat back on my feet. realizing pleasantly that things were still the same easy way between us and we had just both exposed feelings for each other.

"i wouldnt let things get awkward y/n, becuz then it wouldn't be the same and we wouldn't be able to like each other anymore cuz we'd be different." jungkook sat up and turned his phone off. he yawned and stretched. "i should go home and sleep now tho"

i frowned and rolled my eyes, "sleep is for the weak"

"and im weak for you, goodnight" he retorted, bending down to press a soft kiss to my hair. "ill lock the door, u should go to sleep too. goodnight y/n"

"night kookie" i sighed, waiting for him to leave before i gently touched my head where he'd kissed me. and then i furiously spammed jimin with all of the details becuz i couldn't rly spam jungkook with our interactions even if i wanted to. he'd said he was going to sleep.

i wandered up to my own bed and laid down, staring at my phone until sleep dragged me down.