We all are lost!

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He glanced at me as if I were the only hope he had amid chaos.
He looked at me as if He will never sense the rain again on this earth.
When the droplets touched our skin it was all cold outside, stormy one as there will always be cold as there will be no sunshine only the opaque as we all are lost; completely in our thinkings but his affection made me warm, and my heart was sinking in the neverending journey where I could only feel the warmness of it.

After the horrendous encounter with Sarah, I thought to let my mind focus on something better which will make me at peace so here I was on the fields reading whatever I want to. I wanted to be alone at least for a moment to gather my thoughts because I might have confided in her that I am not anxious about anything she does, however, I was scared; she has power while I have none this isn't my country for fuck sakes! This isn't my home and I am disastrous, but still, I will always protest against her!

"What are you doing?"
Why does this boy always have to come to my side? He is making me get depending on him!

"I am reading can't you see that?"

I mumbled that little harshly so he runs away from here.

However, he didn't. he snatched that book and grabbed my bag while walking.

"Where are you going with my stuff?"

"If you want to read something then I have a better place.. come with me!"

And with that he got inside his car and started the engine, I was glued to my spot, what does he mean by I have a better place?

Well you won't know that if you don't go with him

Yes.

"Be fast!" He started honking as going to explode all the environment.

"Coming," last time I exhaled some fresh air.

"Good girl, now say nicely to me- Mr Malhotra please drive this car for me!"

"You are joking right?"

"No! I am dead serious!"

For a long minute, I gave him a look! Look as- shut up otherwise I will punch you on your face. But saw his sincerity towards me so I followed whatever he mumbled," Oh please Mr Malhotra Do me a favour and drive this car for me," if looks could kill he would be dead by now.

"Yes of course, why not!"

With that, he started his engine and the speed got increased second by second until I couldn't see anything; we are lost in the world there is nothing left just our presence until we have revolted against the wind.

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When it stopped, I saw a huge book store and a library, a beautiful one, it was on the themes of vintage.

It was precious, I have never seen anything like this in my life. The crafted wooden designs were breathtaking, I felt as if I had been time travelling and we are in the 19th century, oh how lovely it would be to feel all old again.
When the books were handwritten not just printed on paper.

But how in the earth did he know this place?

"How do you know this place?"

"Well, coincidentally this store and library belong to my father!"

I could feel the pinch of anger in the mention of his father's name.

"So you come here regularly, or?"

"Well, I come here twice a week," why he is not doing eye contact is he ashamed of anything and doesn't want to admit it?

"Didn't know you read," I was very chaotic about this. He never showed any interest and all of sudden he is telling me this!

"Look Julia, there are two kinds of people in this world. Some who hide well, and some who don't!"

"What do you mean by that?"
He looked at me for a moment, not looked he glared at me, pierced my soul in his heated gaze, there was something about it, something which was telling me to run away it is all going to collapse but I didn't flinch from my spot I wanted to understand whatever he has to say!

"If I don't show it doesn't mean I don't do it!"

Now, I understand, he just didn't want everyone to know his attributes, maybe he is living in a personality that he doesn't want to live.

He is lost in himself!

The winter of California was not cold anymore it became warm, and comfortable as the fresh flowers bloomed again in the garden as all the stars were shining bright in the sky, as everything has turned upside down.

"So, come with me."

He grabbed my hand, intertwined our fingers and my heart did a little
summersault in my chest.

It was like a heaven on earth, the smell of books intrigued my spirit and there was no one, the place was empty. Only at the counter, the bald man was sitting, on the first floor where it was a charming room to sit and read, it was alone too. 

"Why is this empty?"

For a second he smiled sheepishly, as a child. "I thought you would not like other people's presence that's why I got it empty,"

Oh my God! Did he just do that because of me?

"Why? Thank you!"

"Nevermind," A hard cold stare from him make me realize he wanted to say something else. As there is more, more of him that he is keeping. But the question is why?

Suddenly, I heard thunderstorms, looks like the whole City is raining, raining to make this world a better place where everything will be free with no more chains to hold.

He went to the different side to pick a book and I started searching for mine, then the smell of coffee hits my nostrils, the aroma of it could divine everything. Didn't know when he got coffee.

"Take this," he offered me. It was a Starbucks coffee, a cappuccino just the way I like.
However, how in the hell of the universe does he know that?

I gave him a stern look, "what I just seem to notice things and you are one of them!"

Oh, how wonderful to find out that!

We sat down near the table, he had a book in his hands, it had a black cover which was very strange because I have never seen that kind of book.

What if this book is related to black magic? And he wants to do black magic on you then maybe kill you?

I gulped, No way! We drank coffee in silence, and I was melting because he was continuously glancing at me.

What is wrong with him? Does he want to hypnotise me?

To draw his attention from my eyes, I cleared my throat! "Whose book is this?"

"Mine!"

What the actual for the mother of good!

"What?????????"

"Yes, I wrote this book, see-" he showed me the initials N.V.M

"N.V.M?"

"Neel Vinita Malhotra," he looked away as he was just about to pass out.

"Vinita?" Is this woman her mother?

"Yes, that's my mother's name,"

Oh, that's his real mother's name. That's the first time he has mentioned her name.

But where is she? Is she in India? Is she in Mumbai where we attended our school?

"She is no more," He whispered and looked away, I could see him under my eyes, every emotion every breath he was taking, there was so much struggle in them.

He showed me a part of his life, to which he was emotionally attached.
I could see that if I would not be here he would have begun crying.
Crying because all we can do is show gratitude.

At that moment right there I wanted to hold him tight and never let him go. To say in his ears that everything will be alright!

But I didn't! Because I was too afraid of the consequence, but at least I can hug him, hold him for a moment till he feels alright.

I went to his side and hugged him right, rubbed his back for a moment he was still at his spot.

When I thought to let go, he holds me tighter, "Don't please!"
maybe he was holding it for too long.

But when the sky was getting grey and all the trees were flying in the direction of the wind, I saw him staring at me, he tucked my hair behind my ear, holding up my chin.

"I know you will kill me for this but this is worth everything!"

Then slowly, without giving me second thoughts he placed his lips over mine.

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