When my heart aches and in a sudden rush of feeling
I realise, maybe too late, that we live far away from each other.
The feeling of guilt and regret in my stomach when I think of highshool moments that I should have enjoyed more when I was with them
Or the lost time when I knew I could have free time but spent them on homework or lonely moments.
That feeling wrenching me from head to toe as I realize something I should've been realizing way before.

Gorge serrée
Yeux ballants
Levres tremblantes
Poumons étouffées
Joues rouges émitoufflées
Dans la rue mon corps crie
Ma voix se tait et dans le bus mes joues accueillent le salé de mes larmes
Qu'ils me manquent
Et que nos moments me manquent
Les ai-je laissés de coté ?
Je les veux pour toujours
Mes amitiées préférées
Mes plus belles années
Mon mal de tête
Ma culpabilité
Le besoin de les avoir avec moi
Le besoin de leur toucher
Le besoin de leur figure réconfortante

La lumière s'est éteinte au dessus de moi sous la noirceur de la nuit je laisse mes larmes s'enfuir

TV

Ma plus grande réussite au lycée
Highschool was the funniest and most succesful times of my life
I will never forget anything
I will never forget every moment and every laughter
Every memory and every tear
Every hard times and all the love
And all the acceptance
And all the loyalty
And all the feelings in my guts
That I would feel when I was with them
All the anxiety I could fear when they were not at school with me
All the pain I felt when I feared the end of our friendship
A part of my heart belongs to them
And I already gave them a very big part of me a long time ago
Souls connects, faces and shapes together
I know we as an us will never be forgotten
I know they feel me
And everytime I gave them the right to drown deep into my vulnearbility it never was in vain because I know what I felt, thanks to them, was beyond the feeling of acceptance but it was appartenance.

My tears stopped falling