song: wind me up by the strange kids

TW- this oneshot is very heavy so if abuse topics are sensitive i don't recommend

tyler was insane.

and josh loved it.

tyler was the type of guy to use some one over and over again, and then dump them when they need him the most. he was a psychopath.

he had a talent in finding especially vulnerable people when they're at the worst, and coaxing them into believing he was helping them.

when really, he just needed someone to play with.

and josh was his favorite toy.

the two boys have been in an off again, on again relationship for 6 years now. starting when they were 16.

josh had more issues than you could count on your fingers. addiction, depression, bipolar disorder, ptsd, and more than he could even keep track of.

tyler loved hurting him. not just physically, but mentally.

he knew he was all josh had. he knew josh would always be there. he knew he had the boy wrapped around his finger.

toxic doesn't even begin to describe their relationship. mental and physical abuse were very prominent.

they had been broken up for a week now, and tyler was getting bored. so, he texted josh.

T: i miss you baby.

tyler sent the text before straightening up his house a bit. he knew josh would be coming over.

J: fuck you

T: please i love you
T: come over now

J:  you don't mean that

T: i love you so much josh please come over

J: i love you tyler

tyler smiled, waiting for the knock on his door.

josh relied on tyler to live. he needed him. i guess you could say tyler needed josh as well. life wouldn't be worth living to him if he didn't have josh to play with.

after not too long, he heard the knock on his door. he opened it, seeing josh standing there, tears already in his eyes.

"cmere baby." tyler sighed, pulling josh into a hug. "i missed you."

"i missed you too tyler." josh said. tyler grabbed joshs jaw, tilting it up to look at him.

tyler connected their lips, pulling josh inside and shutting the door. he moved them to the couch, josh straddling him.

he immediately tore joshs shirt off, before wrapping his fingers around his neck.

josh moaned, gasping for a breath as tyler palmed him. he pulled josh down by his neck.

"you need me." tyler whispered in his ear. josh nodded. "say it."

"i need you." josh whined.

tyler pushed him down on the couch, immediately finding his way on top. he slid his own shirt off as he started pressing kisses down joshs chest.

josh knew tyler had issues. maybe even worse than his own, but that's what he loved about him. he loved that someone was worse than him.

their relationship started off so perfect. dates every other night, good sex, sweet messages, and good gifts.  it only got worse though.

the first time they broke up was because tyler had cheated on josh with another guy. josh found out through a mutual friend. they were broke up for around two weeks, with constant messages every day from tyler begging and begging for josh to come back. josh never stopped loving him.

the second break up was because joshs mental health was declining rapidly. he felt he needed to fix himself before he could try to fix tyler. this fight was bad. the screaming, the glass being thrown at each other. tyler still has a scar from the beer bottle that cut his stomach.

that break up only lasted a week, before josh came crawling back.

tyler lined up with josh before slowly sliding in, josh moaned, digging his nails into tyler's back.

"you're fucking mine." tyler grunted, picking up his pace inside the boy.

"i'm yours." josh replied.

josh was kept at tyler's bedside to use on his darkest days, to use when he needed him. ready to wind up whenever.

josh rolled them over, positioning himself over tyler and sinking down.

"i love you." tyler said, thrusting up to match joshs bounces.

"i love you." josh replied, tilting his head back. tyler flipped them back over.

"you're my toy josh. you know that? i love you." tyler said in his ear.

"i know." josh said, tears pricking at his eyes again.

"let me hear you." tyler commanded.

"i am your toy. love me."

"that's right." tyler smiled, pressing kisses and sucking marks into his neck.

"need to cum ty." josh whispered.

"not yet my love." tyler said, covering joshs mouth with his hand.

josh whined, tyler groaning as he clenched.

"f-fuck." tyler stuttered, removing his hand and replacing it with his lips. "cum with me."

josh but down on tyler's lip, chasing his finish. tyler came inside him, harmonizing moans as josh finished on his stomach.

tyler grabbed a tissue, cleaning up the boy before connecting their lips.

"i love you." tyler said. 

"no you don't." josh said.

"what makes you say that?" tyler asked, brushing the hair out of his face.

"i was all yours then you put me away." josh said.

"i keep you close." tyler said, kissing along his neck. "don't say i don't."

"you don't." josh said, tyler wrapped his hand around joshs neck.

"yes i fucking do." he hissed. josh whimpered.

"i need you ty." josh said.

"i know."

"say you need me." josh stuttered.

"i don't." tyler kissed him.

"i fucking hate you." josh cried, slapping him across the face. tyler grabbed his wrist, hard enough to bruise.

"you stay alive for me." tyler replied.

josh didn't have words. he knew it was true.

"exactly." tyler said.

"how do you do this?" josh said, cuddling up to him.

"do what?" tyler asked, kissing his cheek.

"get inside my head." josh whispered.

"i know you. more than you know yourself. i'm all you have joshua. i'm all you need. our plastic world." tyler said agaisnt his skin.

"do you stay alive for me?" josh asked.

"you ever leave me for good, my death is on your hands." tyler said, turning on the tv.

"i won't leave you ever again." josh said. "i love you."

"i love you josh."

(I-A-M-Y-O-U-R-T-O-Y-L-O-V-E-M-E)

A/N: i'm ngl i kind of love this

i'm a sucker for oneshots like this.

lmk your thoughts!