I walked out further than I had ever before. This was the first time I had been more than a mile away from Mother's House.

I wish I had a choice to weither I could stay there or not. But I was kicked out for the week. I had been kicked out for days at times. But a week, I had never been kicked out that long. I had to be back before 3pm today though and by the sun it was already 2pm.

I looked around and saw a sparkling lake shimmering against the faint glow of the moon. As much as I hate to admit it I loved the forest.

I never went to town. Ha. I've never even seen a town before. Let alone anyone other than Mother and Father and my siblings.

I would always wonder what other people would be like. I was known in the house to be a rebioluis kid and never lissen to the rules. Father would every once in a while have a chat with Mother saying that I acted too gay.

As a almost seventeen year old I think I should know what that means but my parents never explain it to me. I wish they would but I know that they never will.

I walked up to the lake and looked in. And instead of seeing the moon glistening throughout the water I saw something somewhat in the shape of a moon but more of a Indigo color.

Weird. But must just be the color in the atmosphere or something like that. I never got a chance to learn anything but basics from Mother.

I wonder what school is like. I mean I know what school is because I have had schooling lessons every friday. But it was always with Mother because Father is always too busy too spend time with us.

I sat down by the bank of the river. I never liked to swim. But getting my feet wet and dipping them in was a different case.

I heard something move behind the bushes. I knew it was either a cat or fox. And being honest I think that they are cute. But Mother never let's me bring one back to keep as a pet.

I looked back towards the bushes where I heard the noise. I moved my hand. Being twenty feet away ment nothing to me. Ha I figure my limit is one hundred feet.

While I moved my hand I focused my mind on moving aside some of the leaves. People would say I'm out of my mind if I did something like this in front of them. At least that's what I think. As Mother and Father thought the same. Even though its true

The leaves on the bushes moved aside and a small fawn came out. I smiled. Never seeing one fawn on it's own before I walked up to it with my palm out so it could check me out.

The baby fawn came closer. I heard something move about behind me. I knew it was time to head back.

The birds above started to speak in a rushed voice and fly out above the trees. Always in a hurry I thought.

I turned back to the one baby fawn. A small warming smile formed on my face. I hoped the baby fawn wasnt scared. I could feel a anxious aura around the little fawn.

"Its okay" I tried to say in a soothing tone. Apparently it scared the baby fawn because it started to back up a bit in fear.

I didnt like that it was getting scared from me. I've never looked harmless and I have been told this by my family. Mother would have said I'm too gay from being too kind and nice unlike my brothers. Father would always say I have the body of a straight man but mindset of a gay man. I still dont understand what they mean by that though.

I backed up slowly. Not wanting to scare away the fawn all too much more than I had already done. I stood up and looked back at the baby fawn.

It looked so harmless. So small. But from my youngest brother's saying the strongest things come in the smallest packages. Or in his case shortest. Man he had muscles though.

I started to walk my silent walk back to Mother's House. I knew that I would get a beating for being late. But it was worth it for being out here trying something new.

Helping out a baby fawn. I've seen a bunch of fawns and deers before but every time they were always together in a little group or family. They're never on their own.

I started thinking about all the impossible reasons that the baby fawn could be all alone. But Father would say that its mother and siblings all died or something.

But I knew better than to talk about mystical things with Mother or Father. They say I'm delusional or something. And would send me to a mental place or something like that.

Walking back all I could think about was what I could do tomorrow to help the little fawn. Stuff like that. And all the what other people call stupid and impossible reasons that it was all alone.

But people don't need to know about what I can do with my hands and my mind. I've kept it a secret for as long as I could remember. No one would believe me anyways.

I walked up the pathway to Mother's house. I looked at all the roses that were carefully places and well tended for. Mother took pride in her gardening.

I never understood why.

I saw Father standing by the doorway. A stern look on his face. Knowing darn well what he is going to do to me, I walked in and said "Morning Father." I walked at a normal pace not wanting my siblings to wake up and me get in even more trouble than I already am.

I walked up the stairs not wanting to know what Father had replied. It was either something about how mad he was, how late I was or how much I was going to be punished.

I looked through the halls. I saw my littlest brother, Hongjoong poke his head out and give me a sorrowful look. Knowing what I was in for. But even I never know what I'm in for. No matter how much it happends.

I walked straight into Father's office. I know what he was going to do to me. He did something like it every time. I only ever remembered what he does and did to me as soon as I walk into the office.

I made my mind think that way so I wouldn't run off. Because if I were to be found I would be in more trouble than I would ever had been before. I never knew if Mother had known what Father did to me.

But then again it was never really father who did it.

I looked around and saw the familiar black haired shape standing right next to the door that goes into the bathroom. The door was all the way opened.

The black haired figure walked over towards me and pushed me back against the door. His arms keeping me trapped so I cannot move from his grasp.

One of his hands wrapped itself around my waist while the other sounded like it locked the door. Probably not wanting Mother to walk in here and hear something from the bathroom.

I've never kissed someone before. No one wanted to kiss me because no one liked me or loved me. Except little Hongjoong.

I felt his one hand go under my shirt. While his lips started to suck my neck biting and not being gental.

I also never gave in. I put one of my hands onto his stomach. I was just about to push him away when he grabbed my hands and put them both above me. I couldn't move.

I saw he had earplugs in his ears so he wouldn't hear me yell and scream. It was worth a try. But the walls here are soundproof so no one who wasnt right up and against the door could hear anything.

He stuck his one hand down to my hip bone. Squeezing hard he dug his nails into my skin.

"Come here unless you want me to tie you up again." The horrible guy said. "No. LET ME GO" I screamed into his ear. Wanting him to hear every word I said.

I know he did but he didnt show any sign if showing it. I struggled to get my hands free from his grasp but he was too strong.

"You heard me." He whispered into my ear. His breath heating up my neck. Shivers of discomfort ran through me. But his nails were digging into my hip and leaving pain all over me.

The worst thing is I loved the pain.

I kept screaming until the figure gave up on letting me give in. He dragged me over to the bathroom. Me still screaming. I know it does no good but I wasnt thinking about that right now

He picked my up and sat me on the counter spreading my legs. He kept one hand on me to pun me down and not let me able to even move a muscle.

He came back up from under the counter with some ropes. He tied them to my hands and tied them to the top of the mirror stretching me out a little bit.

His thighs pinning me down so I also couldn't move my knees or legs. Once he was done with  tying up my arms he moved to tie my legs up. Making sure to tie them individually so they were still spread.

I kept screaming hoping he would hear me and give up. But it was like he was stuck on his mind's needs. It looked as if he had a problem stirring up in his pants.

Apparently he caught me looking at his already hardened member and he came closer to me so he was kissing my neck leaving Mark's all over. "You like the pain huh?" He whispered down my neck.

He dug his nails into my thighs making me cry out in pain. Half wanting him to do it again and half not.

I was laying in a very awkward position for me But he had done this before and so he knew exactly where to tie me up. I didnt care what happened to my wrists from now on.

He moved to undo my pants. I kept screaming and thrashing trying to get out of the ropes. I know it won't do much but I moved my hands to try and scratch away some of the ropes to set my hands free.

He tugged down my pants taking my boxers with my pants. He then stepped out of his pants and threw them out to where they landed in the bathtub.

He smirked at me. I knew if I didnt keep my eyes open he would go way to hard on me. I focused my eyes to keep on his member. I felt shivers of discomfort run through me as he slid his boxers down smoothly and slowly.

He started kissing my chest after taking off my shirt. Leaving darkest marks I think is even possible.

He started to stroke my member making me cry out in pain as he started stroking faster and applying much more pressure than ever before.

"You're too pretty for your own good, Yeosang." The guy said.

Before I knew it he grabbed out a knife and stabbed me in the leg. Making me cry out in pain.

After a few more minutes of him stroking and leaving marks on me everything went black.