The door opens with a creak, reminding Jungkook he'll have to oil it later. "Jiminie-Hyung?"

Jimin turns around in his chair with tired eyes. "Jungkook, Baby, I know I'm not spending enough time with you and I know it sucks but I really need to study. I'm so sorry."

"I'm not asking for attention Jiminie, I know how important this is to you, I just thought you might like some hot chocolate and a hug," Jungkook sets the mug down on the desk.

Jimin stands up with a grateful smile, before getting wrapped up in the taller's arms. He loved the way Jungkook's hugs made him feel both so warm and so safe. "Thank you so much Jungkook. How do you always know what to do to make me happy?"

"That's easy, it's because I'm in love with you," Jungkook kissed his hair. "Your happiness is a big priority of mine."

"Your happiness is really important to me too. "Th-thank you," Jimin held him closer. "I'll p-pay you back really soon, o-okay?"

Jungkook heard the shake in his beautiful boyfriend's voice. "Jiminie are you crying?"

"S-sorry," Jimin sniffed, clutching onto Jungkook's hoodie. "I'm just so scared."

"For what?"

"Well, for my whole life I never knew what I wanted to do," Jimin confessed. "I went to community college for two years just to get a degree I didn't know if I would even use. But now," He stuttered. "Now I know what I want to do, and this is the only school I want to get into. Jungkook what if I'm not good enough?"

"Are you kidding me?" Jungkook pulled back to look Jimin in the eye. "You're the best makeup artist I've ever seen in my life! What makes you think you can't?"

"Well, the school is so prestigious, and you know I wasn't good in school," Jimin listed. "I just don't know what to do, the written test is in two days."

"And you're going to pass it, and the performance test too. It's something you're passionate about," Jungkook encouraged. "Trust me, you know the things you're passionate about like the back of your hand. I mean think of all the useless boyband facts you know!"

Jimin fought back a smile, but lost. "If the test was about Louis Tomlinson I would pass with full marks."

"And you'll pass this one too," Jungkook told him. "You're going to walk in on the test day, and go, 'oh this is so easy, what was I worrying about?'"

"You think so?" Jimin looked up at him with big eyes.

Jungkook pecked his lips. "I know so."

"Thank you," Jimin let go of his lover. "I'm going to get back to studying now, okay?"

"Alright," Jungkook smiled. "And I'll be here whenever you might need me."

Jimin couldn't ask for a better person to spend his life with. 

A/N: Someone told me I could make a book with just my author's notes.

I think that was a hint that I need to shorten the fuck out of them.

But guess what? I'm not. Cuz I actually have stuff to talk about today! Yay!

First my life and what's going on and then about Jikook but mostly Jungkook because I have a lot to say about that bunny.

So first about me. My Uncle passed away three days ago. It wasn't because of COVID-19, he's been slowly declining for probably about a year, year and a half, and he lost the battle after fighting for a long time. 

This is my Uncle Biff;

Now, you probably made stereotypes, and that's fine, I don't feel bad about that. But you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. You probably could guess that he smoked, he drank, he didn't really take care of himself. Those are all true but he's also great with kids, he's funny, he'll always make sure to say hi to everyone at a party. 

But now he's gone.

And that's scary. Because he's the first one to go in what I really truly think of when I think 'family' This is my family;

Granted it was the only picture I could find. This was from 2011. See the taller one in the polka dots? Yeah that's me. Now, some people have come and gone through here but most of the people you see, those are all my family even if their not blood related. Like the other girl my age that isn't wearing the exact same thing as me, we weren't blood related until 2009 (and that's because my dad gave his dad a kidney) and the girl on the far left, she's not blood related but her and her entire family are basically part of this family. These are the people I know. It's my Grandma, her four brothers, and all of their kids and grandkids. That's who I saw as my closest family.

Even as a kid I was so scared when one of them would finally pass away. And when Uncle Biff finally did it was crazy. My life's already turned upside down with the virus and now this? Nothing is the same anymore and that's scary.

But I don't want to talk too much about me. Uncle Biff will live on in our memories. By our I mean my family, not our as in you. You didn't know him you don't have to keep him in your memories-

Sorry it just sounded really weird when I typed it out.

But okay, let's talk about how Jungkook is absolutely terrible at hiding his emotions. 

Terrible.

He cries all the time, you know when he's jealous, when he's happy, when he's in love, ect. And this came up last night because I was watching a video of fetus Jungkook (aka 2013 not fetus fetus) and I was like, "Aw he was such a lil gay boy."

Because oh my God the amount of times you caught him staring. He was so shy but his emotions were so loud. And it wasn't just like, Jimin he stared at, and that of course makes sense. I don't know when he actually started liking Jimin, and it may have been around this time, but I think he was just really confused at this point. He'd stare at Namjoon, at Taehyung, at Hoseok. And the way he looks at them even now is in admiration and happiness and brotherly love, like this;

And trust me, this isn't being petty, these were the fondest looks I could find for them. Tbh I was looking through Jungkook staring at Taehyung and literally his face was blank in most of them but they were like "oh my God stop staring at Taehyung he might melt!" BTS has never once made Jungkook stop staring at Tae. They've never tried to stop Jungkook and Taehyung from having flirting moments that all seven members have had with each other. Yet Jungkook has to be constantly reminded not to stare at Jimin like this;

And not to mention he did this;

But I'm not out here trying to write yet another author's note proving Jikook, it's already been done, it's in the past, I'm here to talk about new things.

Anyways, Jungkook stared at everyone like so much, most of the time basically screaming, "Oh my God this Hyung is so cute!" Without even saying a word. I'm not sure how good of a liar Jungkook is, because he's not called a bad liar like Hoseok, but I can't judge how he lies because as far as I've seen he's never told a lie on camera about his and Jimin's relationship.

He's never said he's single, he and Jimin both like to dance around the word friend a lot, but they never use it. "Jungkook and I are similar in that way." "Me and Jimin click very well." See, it could be interpreted as many different things. And it's not like they don't call the other members their friends. Jimin was asked what Taehyung meant to him and he said best friend, but they don't call each other friend. 

But he's never denied a relationship with Jimin, and that could have been in the circumstance that he's never been asked. At least that's good that they don't flat out ask Bangtan if they're dating each other, though Taehyung did shut down the one Taekook shipper when she was like, "Cuddle with Jungkook who you love so much." And he flat out said, "Stop being delusional." 

Fans like that are a waste of time tbh, talking about shipping so one of the members actually sees it smh.

But yeah, Jungkook is absolutely terrible at showing his emotions, so when he finally realized he did like Jimin, you saw the shift in attitude there, and then when they started dating he couldn't not look at Jimin like he was his entire world, it's just how he is.

I saw this thing on Instagram today. It was a caption to an Instagram post about Jikook and it said, "'Jimin fell faster, but Jungkook fell harder.'" And I think that's really difficult. Because I think Jungkook fell really fast, and it all hit him at once and he was like, overwhelmed in this crazy feeling (even tho looking back you could tell he was a baybee who was in love with all his Hyungs) 

I think he's had the internal conflict of being attracted to men for a long time, at least as long as right before their debut, but I think this could have been the first time he actually fell for someone and it all came so quickly, like you saw the shift to, "Haha I'm taller than you I'm the real Hyung here you're my short cute Hyung." To, "I want to be the only one to sit next to Jimin, that's only fair, I'm going to kick Tae with a soccer ball."

That kind of thing.

Are you confused yet?

Either way, good. Let's keep going.

I also think over the years he's gotten really protective over Jimin. Not in a helicopter parent, or like controlling way, but he's shown great care to make sure he's safe and comfortable. There's of course the obvious, like when he'd accidentally hit him, or whenever Jimin wasn't feeling good, or was injured, he'd walk next to him and make sure he wouldn't get trampled at the airport, that kind of thing. But you also see like, really subtle things. Like when Jimin was doing VR, the cake thing.

Jungkook knew he was afraid of heights. He wasn't in any danger, there was no reason to want to protect him here. If it was Seokjin in his place, or Hoseok, he'd laugh. But he goes, with the most sincere voice, "Ready?" And his eyes aww. 

It won't let me post a link but if you want to see it go on Instagram, look up jikookpancakes. As of now it's the seventh post down, and the 'tumbnail' or whatever you call it on Instagram is Jungkook. He's wearing black, his hair is black, the background is black, and his doe eyes are so pretty. So hopefully based on that you can find it, it's the first time I've ever seen it and I was just amazed to be honest that it's so underrated.

But yeah. Saying Jungkook fell harder implied he fell deeper in love, and we really have no way of knowing, but I really think their love for each other is equal. Sure Jimin isn't an open book when it comes to emotions like Jungkook, but he shows his affection in other ways, hugging, touching, stuff like that.

Not to mention they both literally gravitate towards each other. It's really not satellite Jeon anymore, it's more like magnets. Even the slow walking towards each other and then standing next to each other, but having their arms brush slightly constantly.

I don't know how to rephrase it to be honest, it's not working in my mind. I guess a summary is while Jimin most likely did fall first, Jungkook made up for lost time by falling hella fast. And their love deepens every day. I think the fact that we'll see a lack of Jikook moments in stuff like maybe Run BTS, but then they'll be all over each other in a Vlive, kind of makes me wonder. Like, I remember so many moments in 2018, then in 2019 it felt there were much less (tho we did get the iconic ear suck) but I think that's the company's doing.

Because they've probably gotten to a pretty high level in their relationship. I mean they've been together for years. I couldn't tell you how many but I know it's been years. The more committed they become the harder it would be to lie about it, so the company hides it. Of course it doesn't work very well, because they wanna sit next to each other and when they're sitting next to each other their petting each other's hair, or touching each other's hands, or this;

And yeah, Jimin was all over Tae too, but the middle image, when you watch the video you see Jungkook's mood change even slightly and the faintest smile comes up on his face. It made me so happy ^^

But yeah. It's crazy. I hope someday they'll tell us their full love story. I will watch the entire video in one sitting even if it is 27 hours long.

They make me so happyyyy

Anyways, I've kind of taken a day for myself. I texted almost no one. And the one person I did text I didn't get into a conversation with. I was just kind of done with talking to people for a little bit. I love people, and I love being around people, but I shut my phone off, I took a break, and I feel a lot better. 

I'm still in the mood to respond to your comments though, so if you're seeing this and am like, "oh fuck I commented 82 times" (which tbh I'm sure that's happened before for different reasons) don't worry, I will respond to all the ones I see that I feel need to be responded to ^^

I know I don't respond to everything people say, but I try my absolute best to respond to at least one of everyone's comments.

So that's it.

That's the oneshot.

It's not random.

It's not talking about Ikea (which a lot of you had opinions about by the way like-)

Well I guess that was just talking about Ikea..

I love you guys!!

See you soon!!

-Mikayla