Kie's POV:

We were at the annual beach party. We had all consumed a few drinks, but we weren't drunk. JJ and I were laughing, and he'd been flirting with me all day, and I was flirting back. It was a busy party, and we wondered off away from everyone to some rocks down the beach. 

We sat on the rocks and just talked about stupid shit, deep shit, everything, and nothing all at the same time. JJ was telling me about how Rafe and some girl got caught going at it during a kook party last week. Apparently, someone walked in and everyone crowded around.

"That's so embarrassing to have people walk in. I can't believe they didn't lock the door" I said laughing

"Stupid kooks" He agreed

We were best friends and I felt comfortable enough to ask JJ, "What was your first time like?"

He chuckled and said, "Honestly, I haven't gone all the way. I've made out with girls and had a few suck my dick but that's all.. What about you?"

"Dude, you know I haven't done anything"

He smirked and said, "I know, but just making sure nothing changed during your kook year"

"Fuck no, I'd never get with a self-absorbed kook"

"That's my girl" He smirked as we made eye contact and we both leaned in for the kiss

We instantly broke apart as we both knew it was a bad idea.

"We shouldn't," I said

"No, bad idea" He agreed

"But" I said

"No one has to know" He said

"No, they don't... We could lose our virginities and never speak of it again"

He pulled me close as he crashed his lips into mine. I thought kissing my best friend would be awkward, but it wasn't. We were making out and then JJ stopped the kiss and said, "I've got the keys to the Twinkie"

We went to the Twinkie and John B had already parked in the back around no other cars so we were good. JJ and I had sex and for my first time, it wasn't bad. It was uncomfortable at first but it got more enjoyable as time went on. 

JJ and I got dressed and the we re-joined the party so we didn't get caught. I thought we were in the clear and that no one would ever know, but on Monday at school, everyone knew. 

As JJ walked in the hallway, all the guys were high-fiving him and giving him "the look" as they were proud of him. The whole school knew that JJ Maybank lost his virginity and girls were all asking him to take theirs. He was famous and girls were lining up to lose their virginity to JJ.

It only bothered me because some girl saw us sneak away that night and the news spread like wildfire through the school. But people didn't congratulate me like they did with JJ. I got nasty looks from everyone. I got called a slut, whore, skank, you name it, I was called it. There were post-its on my locker telling me that I was a slut, to keep my legs closed, etc.

I saw my locker and the whole school watched me open the locker to grab my backpack and I left school in tears. I didn't ride home with John B like I always did. I walked and when I got home my mom was there.

"Honey, what's wrong?" My mom asked concerned

I didn't want to tell my mom, but the whole school knew so it wouldn't be long before my mom heard. I looked at her and said, "The whole school is calling me a slut"

"What the hell? Why? Who?" She asked furious going into protective mode

I took a deep breath and said, "Because the whole school found out I lost my virginity"

Her eyes widened and she asked, "When? Where? You aren't on birth control, did he use a condom?"

I really didn't want to have this conversation right now, or ever. I wasn't about to tell her the details. It was actually really special and it's something that I want to keep private. I looked at her and said, "We were safe"

"Who'd you sleep with?" She asked

"Why does it matter?" I asked

She looked at me and said, "I know it was one of those stupid pogues"

"Okay, first of all, they are my friends and second, you slept with a pogue and had me so you don't get to judge me" I said going inside and slamming the door

I know my mom thought it was John B or maybe even Pope. There was no way she'd think it was JJ. I locked myself in my room and cried. I avoided the pogues for a few days and I didn't go to school either.

John B and Pope were pissed at me for breaking the no pogue on pogue macking rule. JJ went off and did his own thing just like he always does. It was Thursday, and I was back at school as I had a few tests I had to take. I didn't look at the pogues and I sat out in the courtyard alone. People would fake cough and call me a slut as they walked by, they'd hand me notes that said things like FU WHORE, etc.

One guy came over to me and asked, "Whacha doing tonight, since you're open for business"

His group of friends all laughed and suddenly JJ was there and he punched the guy who said that. Most of the school was paying attention now and he said, "The next person who disrespects Kie is going to regret it. She isn't a slut, or a whore, or anything like that. It's none of your fucking business, but yeah we did have sex, me and Kie... You guys aren't calling me a slut or a whore so you don't get to call Kie one. Fuck off!"

JJ walked up to me and I really appreciated what he said, but I was still pissed at him for taking this long to do it. I left school early and went home. It was around 8 pm and I could hear my mom yelling at whoever knocked at the door. Shit. I sprinted downstairs and my suspicions were right, JJ was here. 

"JJ, it's not a good idea for you to see her. She's really upset about everything that's happened" My mom said

"I know, I just wanted to check on her"

"That's nice, but we're taking care of her. Go back to the cut with your friends where you belong" My mom raised her voice

"Mom... He's my friend, don't talk to him like that"

"Kiara, go upstairs..."

JJ looked sad and I was tired of being mad at him. I walked up to him and I hugged him. He held me in his arms and whispered, "I'm so sorry"

"It's okay, thank you for what you did today"

My mom knew now that it was JJ. I didn't care. Our hug broke and JJ said he'd call me later and he left before my mom freaked out.

"KIARA ANNA CARRERA, what the hell were you thinking screwing JJ Maybank?" She screamed at me

I just looked at her and said, "I was thinking that he's nice to me, he's funny, he protects me, he likes me, and what the hell... Everyone has a first time and I'm glad it was with him"

She got even more pissed when I said that. I didn't care because it was the truth. I went upstairs and took a shower and when I got out, my dad grounded me and said I wasn't allowed to ever see JJ again.

I called JJ and filled him on the situation and he apologized as he felt responsible for everything. I told him it wasn't his fault and that we'd talk later because I could hear my parents coming upstairs. 

The next day, I went to school and most people had stopped talking about it. JJ came over to my locker and asked, "Can we hang after school?"

"Yeah, meet me at my car" I said going to my next class

After school, JJ was waiting by my car and I asked, "Where to?"

"I was thinking the beach? We could grab some ice cream at that one place you like"

I drove to the beach and we got ice cream and walked to the area where a bunch of driftwood had accumulated and sat down. 

"Kie, I really am sorry about the way that everything happened. I never meant for the whole school to find out, call you a slut, and have your parents find out"

"It's okay, really, it's not your fault... People just suck and my mom will get over it. I mean she can't really say anything because she did the same thing"

"What did she do?"

"She slept with a pouge" I said and JJ laughed

I looked at him and said, "I'm glad my first time was with you, no regrets" 

"No regrets for me either" He said looking into my eyes

"So we're good?"

"Yeah, we're good" He said smiling

We finished our ice cream and then I took JJ home and things were back to normal between us. I got home and I was grounded because I slept with JJ. I was in my room doing homework and there was a knock on my door. My mom came in and said, "I made you a doctor's appointment for tomorrow at 3:30 after school"

"What for?" I asked confused

"Birth control, if you're going to be having sex, you will be on birth control so you don't end up pregnant. I'm not mad, I just don't want you to be a teen mom" She said calmly 

"Okay, thanks" I said

Kie: Can't surf after school tomorrow

JJ: Why not?

JJ: Thought things were good between us

Kie: They are, promise

Kie: My mom made me an appointment tomorrow

JJ: Oh, ok

JJ: Everything ok?

Kie: Yeah, she's just having me start birth control so I don't get pregnant since she knows I'm having sex and got the whole condoms can break speech

JJ: Makes sense. Are you good going alone?

Kie: Yeah, I'll be fine

JJ: Cause if you wanted, I could go with you

Kie: You don't have to go, going to be a lot of girl talk and then I'm working at the Wreck

JJ: Then let's surf tomorrow after school

Kie: Deal 

I went to the doctor and I decided to get the birth control that goes in the arm because it seemed like the easiest and best option. I worked that night and the next day JJ and I were surfing together after school with John B. It's been a few months since I lost my virginity to JJ and he lost his to me. 

I started talking to this new guy, Anthony. He had just moved here from Florida and we went out on a few dates. We were at a party, and we snuck off, went to his house, and hooked up. The whole time I was waiting for it to be over. We got dressed and I left his place and went home to take a shower. I felt dirty and kind of gross. I laid in bed and watched a movie on my laptop before falling asleep.

The next day, I told JJ that I needed to talk to him and I went over to his house and picked him up. He got in the car and I drove to the old lighthouse and it started to rain so we just sat in the car and I said, "I hooked up with Anthony"

"Kinda figured that when I saw you guys leave the party early"

"I regret it"

"Did he hurt you?"

"No, nothing like that... It's just... When we did it, I didn't feel dirty or gross or you know like it's something I shouldn't have done. I didn't regret it... Now, after I left and I had to shower and I wish I could take it back. It just felt wrong if that makes sense"

"Yeah, it does... I almost hooked up with Natalie last week but I stopped it before it got too far"

"J, it felt right with you and I know we don't have a lot of experience with this, but maybe we could try it again sometime and see how it feels if we were to hook up again"

He smirked and said, "I think that's a good idea, come here" 

He pulled me closer to him and he crashed his lips into mine. It took me a second to process what was happening before I kissed him back. I broke the kiss and asked, "Right now, in my car?"

"It's pouring outside, no one can see inside" He said

I didn't argue as we both crawled into the backseat and began making out again and taking clothes off of each other. We hooked up again and after we sat there in my car with foggy windows and he asked, "Do you feel dirty or gross?"

"No, do you?"

"Not even close, I want more" He said looking at me

"Me too" I whispered as I leaned to kiss him again but he had already taken his used condom off so instead he went down on me and holy shit is all I have to say about that

I came down from my high and he was smiling and I said, "Yeah, I don't ever wanna sleep with anyone else besides you"

He laughed and said, "I feel the same way"

"So what does that mean for us?" I asked my best friend

"I don't know, more than friends but less than lovers" He said unsure

"I like it, more than friends but less than lovers" I said getting dressed

We sat in my car a little longer and JJ showed me his phone and some of the texts from girls at school asking him to hook up.

We laughed at most of them and he said, "They are all so desperate, total sluts... I know most of them have been having sex since seventh grade" 

"You don't think I'm a slut do you?" I asked 

"No, not at all. Why would you think that?"

"Because I've already been with two guys"

"Don't worry about that... I don't think Anthony really counts and I've also been with two girls"

We headed back and I dropped JJ off at home and I went home. My mom looked at me and said, "You look happy"

"I am" I said thinking about my new situationship with JJ as I went upstairs to do my homework