Kie's POV:

JJ and I have been dating for a few months and things were going great. The pogues would constantly tease us, but they also thought we were a super cute couple.

JJ has been such a good boyfriend. This was his first real relationship. I sometimes struggle with thinking how many girls he's been with but then I remember that I'm his girlfriend.

JJ has been busy working all week so I've barely seen him. It was late Thursday night after JJ got off work and I missed him. I wanted to see him and I knew his dad wasn't home so I went to his house to surprise him. His bedroom door was shut and I opened it ready to go crawl into bed with him.

I opened the door and I froze. JJ was in bed with another girl. They both paused and he looked at me. I screamed at the girl, "Get the fuck out!"

She didn't move and I went over and ripped the comforter off and the girl tried to cover herself back up and I threw her clothes at her and she grabbed them and quickly got dressed and left. She was terrified.

"How could you?" I asked JJ with tears streaming down my face

I realized he was super drunk and that this conversation would be pointless. I turned around and left his house. I was shaking and crying and I got home and went and laid in my bed bawling.

I cried myself to sleep that night and I didn't go to school the next day. Sarah had texted me and asked what was wrong. I didn't respond to her. She came over after school and I told her everything. She was pissed at JJ. She spent the next few hours hanging out with me.

John B called her and told us to come to the chateau. Sarah told John B we weren't coming because we were doing girl things. I wasn't ready to tell John B and Pope about JJ.

Sarah slept over and JJ hasn't even bothered to try to talk to me. I think that hurt even more. A few days passed and he wasn't in school Monday or Tuesday. He was there Wednesday and he wouldn't even look at me. He looked like he hasn't slept in days.

The girlfriend in me wanted to ask if he was okay and ask him to come over after school to take a nap together. But he cheated on me.

The following weekend, I went to the chateau for a fire. I knew JJ would be there. He sat across the fire from me and just kept to himself.

"What's going on with the two of you?" John B asked me and JJ as usually we were sitting next to each other and making out the whole time

"He cheated on me" I said looking down

John B and Pope were both pissed at him and I sat there while the two of them yelled at JJ. He didn't say anything. He just sat there. I had nothing to say to him. He cheated on me. I still loved him but had to get over him.

That night, we were all crashing at the chateau and I took the spare room. I had been crying myself to sleep all week. Tonight wasn't any different and JJ came in and asked, "Can I talk to you?"

"There's nothing to say" I said trying to hide my tears

"I'm so so sorry and it's stupid to even apologize because I know that nothing can take back what I did"

"Why even bother then? Just leave me alone." I whispered and he left

We didn't really talk over the next month. I haven't seen him with any new girls either. I wondered if he's been with anyone since that night.

He was in a dark place. He worked almost all the time and was drinking and smoking more than he ever had before. I tried to ignore it. He also didn't talk to the pogues much anymore as they were all on my side. I did feel guilty that he lost his friends because of it all.

It has been exactly two months since I caught him cheating. I was still miserable crying over him and to make matters worse, it would have been our six-month anniversary today.

I skipped school and just laid in bed all day. It was the middle of the day when my bedroom door opened and JJ stood there.

"I kinda snuck in here through an open window" He said walking over to my bed and laying down with me

I didn't say anything. I just enjoyed the moment as he turned and wrapped his arms around me. I pretended that for a minute, he never cheated on me.

"Why haven't you tried to talk me?" I asked with a sniffle

"Because I have no excuse. There is nothing that I can do to take it back"

"Tonight can we please just not talk about that?" I asked

"Whatever you want" He said still holding me tightly

I stayed like this for a few minutes and then I asked, "Have you been with anyone else?"

"No, not since we started dating. It was only her that one time" He said honestly

"Who was she?" I asked

"Some girl who I bartend with at work. Her name is Kayleigh. She's a freshman in college." He said this and it hurt even more knowing they work together. I could stop thinking about how much he flirted with her.

"Kie, nothing else ever happened with her. It was that one night. The worst night of my life.... I'm so sorry"

I just quietly cried and didn't say anything else. I already felt like shit so I just kept digging deeper and asked, "How did it go from nothing to you fucking her?"

"I had been working crazy hours that week and I took a few shots on the job which isn't allowed and she did too. She brought me home because I was too drunk to drive. She came in with me and walked me to bed and we just kissed and then things started happening and then you walked in."

"Who made the first move?"

"We both leaned in for the kiss at the same time" He replied

"Why didn't you call me? You know I would've picked you up"

"Damn it, because I depend on you for everything. You pay for most of our dates, you're the only fucking person I can open up to about my dad, you constantly have to deal with my shit. I just want to take care of you for once but I clearly fucked up that up and I know it's all my fault. If I could go back, I would. I wouldn't take any shots, I wouldn't talk to Kayleigh or let her take me home. I'd go right home and call you to come over and tell you how much I love you"

"I'm sorry, JJ. I just need time. You should go" I said kicking him out of my bed

He was crying and he slowly got up and said, "Goodnight"

I didn't respond. He left and I cried myself to sleep. It sucks that JJ was the one I wanted to punch and scream at but also the one I wanted to hold me and tell me everything would be okay. Over the next few days, I ended things with JJ.

I don't think I could ever get over the fact that he cheated on me. The pogues supported my decision and they didn't talk to JJ anymore either. He broke away from our friend group right after high school graduation. Everyone went their separate ways to work and college.

In college, I finally started dating again. I didn't think about JJ as much anymore and it didn't hurt as mad. I dated one guy for about six months and we just weren't compatible.  

I met another guy who I was with for four years. We had just broken up as he wanted to get married and I wasn't ready to.

I talked to Pope, John B, and Sarah all the time. No one has really heard from JJ in years. Apparently, he still lived at home with his dad.

I was back home for the weekend to hang out with the pogues when we were watching a movie when our phones started blowing up. Luke Maybank was dead.

"Holy shit..." John B said showing everyone the news

"I wonder what happened" Pope said looking at his phone to see what his cause of death was

"It says he was shot as part of a drug deal gone bad. His killer was Barry who got arrested"

My mind wandered to JJ and then John B said, "Maybe we should go check on him"

"Has anyone talked to him since high school?" Sarah asked and no one had

"I'll go" I said getting up and ready to head over there. Everyone asked if I was sure and I reassured them and said I needed to go alone

I dove a few miles down the cut to JJ's house. It looked the same. I walked up to the door and it was a crime scene. There was caution tape everywhere and I saw lights on inside.

I crossed the line and I opened the door. JJ was home. I walked inside and said, "J"

"Kie" He said from his bedroom

I walked in and he was sitting on his bed, numb. I went and sat next to him and I hugged him. He broke down crying in my arms.

I laid down and he laid on my chest and I rubbed his back and played with his hair. An hour went by and he calmed down.

"You're here... It's been six years" He said

"Yeah, I know. How are you?"

"Fine... Why are you here?"

"Because I just heard about your dad and.."

"And I'm not going to bother you with my troubles. I appreciate you coming here, but I've been alone for six years. I can be alone for this" He said

"I'm not going to let you go through this alone"

"Why not? I've been alone my whole damn life. I have no friends anymore and now I have no family"

"Because you don't let the people you love go through shit like this alone"

"What? You don't love me, you hate me. Don't pretend you love me"

"I don't hate you, I was pissed at you for cheating on me. I could never hate you because I loved you and I care about you"

I realized that JJ had truly been alone these past six years. I suddenly felt so guilty for none of our friends talking to him.

I hugged him and he told me what happened with his dad and Barry. Thankfully, he wasn't home and didn't witness it.

I laid there listening to his trauma about his father. It was super late and then he started talking about Kayleigh. He apologized again and he said, "If I'm being completely honest, I haven't slept with anyone since that night. I'm punishing myself and in no way am I blaming you."

I told him about the two boyfriends I had in college and how they both ended. JJ was different, but he was still the same. I realized most of his anger and sadness was not about his dad. It was about him sleeping with Kayleigh six years ago.

I wasn't ready to do this and I don't think JJ was either. I don't either of us will ever be completely healed, but that's okay because we can be broken together.

I looked at JJ and said, "My four-year relationship ended because I wasn't ready to get married. Getting married to him meant that I could never be with you again"

JJ became more focused in the conversation and he looked at me and sai, "After all these years, you still want to be with me?"

"No..." I sad and before I could continue he gave me a confused face

I continued, "I need to be with you"

He didn't waste another second before he grabbed me and kissed me. We were making out and it felt like no time had passed. JJ was so needy and I can't imagine it's been six years since he's been with anyone.

He took my shirt off and he started kissing my body. I missed him so much. No one could make me feel the way JJ did.

Things excaladed quickly and soon we were breathless laying in his bed. He pulled me into his arms and he said, "I never told you before, but I love you. I love you so fucking much"

"I love you too, so fucking much" I said kissing him

We were laying in bed and I was creeped out by the thought of a murder happening here, but JJ informed me Luke was killed at Barry's place. They just searched this place.

JJ held me in his arms all night long. I woke up in his arms and he said, "Good morning, my beautiful girl"

"Good morning, J... We should get married" I said looking at him being totally serious

"We will, I promise you that" He said kissing me

We got up and got ready and we were heading to the chateau to meet the pogues. We showed up together and Pope said, "Wow, you two didn't kill each other"

"No, we didn't and we're getting married" I said smiling as I kissed him

"Really? You're marrying a cheater?" Pope asked

"Shut up, no one ever mentions that again. I make my own decsions. I love JJ and we are getting married and we're going to have lots of babies" I said smiling at JJ

We all spent the day together, just like old times. That night, JJ and I went back home together. We had been back together for about a month and we were officially engaged.

We were going on a date when we saw Kayleigh. She looked at us and came over.

"Hey babe" She said to JJ

He looked confused and she said, "Don't act like you didn't spent how many years hooking up with me"

"We hooked up once" JJ said firm

"You're a fucking slut. Stay the hell away from my fiance" I said kissing JJ as we walked away

"I promise, nothig ever happened" He said once we were away

"I trust you" I replied as JJ and I walked away, me giving her the middle finger

He kissed my head and she was so pissed. I was just glad that I ended up with JJ after all these years.