Kie's POV:

We were all hanging at the chateau. John B and Sarah had just got home after everyone thought they were dead. JJ had been acting cold towards everyone since the big fight with his dad when he used the money to buy the hot tub or as he called it the cat's ass.

I have been busy working at the wreck as my parents were using that to punish me for all the trouble I've gotten into. I hated it but tonight was Friday and I was finally getting to hang out with my friends. It's been a week since I've seen or talked to any of them. My parents took my phone away.

Pope came up to me and tried to put his hand on my thigh. It was so uncomfortable because he was in love with me and I didn't love him back. But now, we were pretty much dating and I felt awful for doing this to him. I slept with him and it was the worst thing I've ever done. I've never regretted something more.

"Hey, has anyone seen JJ?" I asked as he wasn't here and it wasn't like him to miss a party

"No, he's been missing all week" Sarah said

"Kie, relax and he's probably been busy hooking up with random girls, getting drunk, you know stupid JJ shit" Pope said annoyed that so was worried about his best friend

I pulled my phone out that I finally got back right as I walked out the door. I texted JJ Hey! where are you? we're at the chateau. get your ass here now!

There was no response and Pope was getting all touchy with me. I got up and went to the dock and called JJ. No answer, so I left a message. I walked back to the group and said, "I'm worried about him. I'm going to see if he's okay"

I walked to my car and Pope said, "You are not going to his house. His dad will kill you"

They wouldn't let me go alone so they all came with me. We arrived at JJ's house and thankfully his father wasn't there. We opened the door and I said, "J, are you here"

We slowly walked around and I opened his bedroom door. He was in his room. It was trashed. He had been crying. He was drunk and probably high. In his hands was the gun.

"J" I said softly

"Stay the hell away from me" He said holding the gun to his pec muscle

Everyone was now in his room and JJ's body looked rough.

"Dude, what the hell happened?" John B asked

"My dad found out about the phantom. But it doesn't matter anymore because nothing matters." JJ said

I was freaking out. John B started trying to talk JJ out of whatever he was going to do. JJ suddenly pointed the gun at us and said, "Maybe I should just shoot all of you and then myself so we can stop living like this"

"Woah, man! Calm down" John B said stepping toward him

JJ wasn't thinking logically. I yelled at them to get out and they all told me they weren't leaving me alone with JJ. I knew he'd listen to me. They left and I was alone with JJ.

"Hey, it's just you and me now. Put the gun down and we can smoke and talk about this"

"I don't think Pope wants to share you. You two seem pretty close after you fucked him"

I shut his bedroom door and I said, "This whole thing with Pope is a huge mistake. I don't love him. I have no romantic feelings for him. I just don't know how to end things with him when I'm the one who caused this issue."

"I don't want to hear about your fucking relationship problems. Just leave me alone and go be with Pope"

"J, I'm not going anywhere.." I said firmly

He pressed the gun to his skull and I said, "J, put the gun down. Look at me. Please talk to me"

"Nothing to say besides goodbye and have a good life" He said crying

My whole body tensed waiting for the loud noise but it didn't come. I looked into his eyes and I said, "J, you can't.. If you do, your dad wins"

"Fuck him. He's a fucking piece of shit who has given me nothing but a shitty life."

"You're right about everything but I can't live without you. You are my best friend and losing you will destroy me." I said walking closer to him

I was close to him and I said, "I'm going to carefully grab the gun from you and give it to John B, okay?"

He pulled the gun down and handed it to me. I left the room and handed the gun to John B.

"You guys go, I'll take care of him tonight. I will call you if anything changes"

"Kie, let us stay" John B protested

"No, his dad could come home. Please leave. All of you. I need to go be with him" I said walking back into his room and closing the door

He was still just standing there. I hugged him and we cried together. I brought him to his bed where he laid down and I laid right next to him.

"J, can you please talk to me" I said wanting to help him

"Nothing to say" He said

I talked to him and told him how amazing he was. How he was so loyal and kind. I said nothing but good things and he fell asleep. I fell asleep too but on his chest so if he moved I would wake up. I woke up in the morning to JJ's voice, "Damn, I don't think Pope would approve of this"

"I don't care about Pope right now. I care about you. How are you?"

"I'm so stupid.. Thank you for everything last night."

"How did you end up in such a bad place mentally?" I asked

JJ told me about the fight with his dad and then he did a line or two of cocaine on top of a bottle of vodka and weed. He also swallowed a few pills. He was super embarrassed.

"Hey, it's okay... Just promise me you won't ever do that again. We don't have to tell anyone else. What you just told me will stay between us." I said not wanting everyone to know his secrets

He continued telling me about his dad, his childhood, and even his mom. We laid in his bed all day just talking. I ordered a pizza for us and after eating, JJ wanted to shower.

I didn't want to leave him alone. I followed him to the bathroom and I said, "Please don't do anything stupid"

"I'm just going to shower" He said walking into the bathroom and I shut the door behind him

I sat right next to the door and I heard the water turn on JJ opened the door and said, "See, I'm still okay"

I laughed and said, "Shut up"

I could hear JJ get in the shower and he had been in there for a bit. I went into the bathroom and asked, "Are you okay?"

"My body hurts" He said with his voice shaking as he slid the shower curtain open

I slowly looked at him and he stood there. I saw the bruises and cuts on his body. I didn't even care. I stepped into the shower fully clothed and hugged him so carefully.

I washed his hair for him and he said, "You know you're wearing your clothes in the shower, right?"

"Shut up" I said laughing and he was laughing with me. I turned to get out of the shower and he stopped me and said, "Your turn"

He yanked my leggings off and my t-shirt off as they clung to my body. He left my bra and underwear on and he grabbed his shampoo and put it in my hair and was rubbing it in.

"Sorry, it's probably really shitty shampoo compared to your kook stuff"

"It's okay, thank you but you don't have to do this"

"I want to" He said as he continued and eventually we both got out of the shower

He handed me a towel and he left the bathroom and came back with his clothes for me. I took off my wet underwear and bra and put his clothes on and I hung my clothes up in the shower to dry. I walked into JJ's room and he was back laying in bed.

"What do you want to do now?" I asked

"I want you to come back to bed and lay here with me" He said quietly

We watched movies on Netflix on my phone all afternoon. I let everyone know that JJ was okay and not to worry. I spent the night there again and the next morning I woke up to JJ waking me up frantically.

"We have to leave now. My dad's home" He said and we both got out of bed and climbed out the window. We got in my car and I drove to the chateau. We walked inside and everyone looked at us. I realized JJ was only wearing his joggers and I was in his t-shirt and a pair of boxers.

"I see you two have been busy" Pope said pissed

"This isn't what it looks like" I said

"Really? Because it looks like you fucked JJ" Pope screamed at me

"Pope, nothing happened okay?" JJ yelled

John B asked how JJ was and he told him he was fine and just got too drunk and wasn't thinking right. Tonight, I snuck JJ into my bedroom and he said, "I can't believe Pope thought we fucked"

"I can... He's way too insecure" I said and I told JJ all about how I screwed up with him and how I don't like him. I also told him about how bad the sex was which sent JJ into hysterical laughter. We were slowly calming down from the laugh attack and I said, "The whole time I was with Pope that night, I wished it was you"

Things got super serious and I didn't really know why I told him that. He looked at me and he rolled over and hovered over the top of me and rocked his hips back and forth. I was laughing and he asked, "Is this what you imagined?"

"Something like that except we were naked" I said

"Yeah? Like this?" He asked taking his shirt off and then pulling at mine

"Uh-huh" I said

"And then what?" He asked and he leaned down and kissed me

He kissed me and it was different than any kiss I've had before. He pulled away and laid down next to me.

"So you're just gonna stop?" I asked

"Yeah and I don't want to, trust me. I'd go all the way with you right now but if I do that, I won't ever want to walk away. I'm a one-and-done kinda guy but I don't want that with you."

"J, it's always been you." I said looking at him and he looked shocked

"Me?" He asked

"Yeah, I love you and I can't ever lose you. So please don't ever leave me here alone on this planet without you no matter what... You can come to me with anything"

"Even if I killed my dad in a fight?"

"Yes" I said looking into his eyes and I could see him relax

"But please don't try and kill him or do anything stupid"

"I won't, I just like knowing that I have you" JJ said

He held me in his arms and he kissed the top of my head. We were falling asleep and I was almost asleep when JJ said, "I love you, Kie"

I looked at him and he kissed my lips. We broke apart and he said, "You're the first person I've ever said that to in my whole life"

"I'm honored," I said as I kissed him and fell asleep in his arms