Kie's POV:

"Alright, Kie... Truth or dare" John B asked

"Truth"

"Tell us about the first time you did it"

I rolled my eyes not wanting to get into this right now. But it was part of the game so I simply said, "It was good. The usual"

JJ was next and he shockingly picked truth. He never picks truth so I decided to reuse John B's truth and said, "Tell us about your first time"

He just smirked and said, "Nahh, I'm good"

"Come on, JJ" Pope said

"I'm not answering the question. I'm done with this game" He said leaving the fire

We all thought it was weird that he just took off like that. He left on his bike and I continued playing truth or dare with John B and Pope.

Pope left pretty early and then John B headed to bed. I decided to head to JJ's house. I arrived and I texted him that I was outside and that we needed to talk. He didn't respond so I texted him again. He finally came outside and invited me in as his dad was gone.

"I don't know what happened earlier at the Chateau, but I'm sorry" I apologized as I felt guilty that he left like that

"Not your fault... Just didn't feel like playing the stupid game"

"Okay... I just thought John B asked me and so I didn't think it would be a big deal to ask you because you are always telling us about your hookups"

"I was thirteen.... Got into a huge fight with my dad and I couldn't go to John B's because I pissed his dad off by stealing his booze. So I met this girl and she was eighteen and here with her friends for a week. I needed a place to stay so I basically traded sex with her for a place to crash. It's not something that I'm proud of but I did what I needed to do"

"I'm sorry, I had no idea..."

"You wouldn't know because it's not something that I'm proud of. It's actually really embarrassing"

"It was illegal what she did"

"I was the one who convinced her. It wasn't good sex at all. I had no idea what I was doing, I mean I knew what I was supposed to do but knew nothing about how to make it enjoyable for her. What about you, was it actually enjoyable for you?"

Shit. Shit. Shit. I totally lied earlier. I've never actually done it before but didn't want the guys to know that. I couldn't lie to JJ but this was humiliating considering how many girls he's been with and all the experience he has.

"So I kinda lied earlier... I've never actually done it. I just didn't want everyone to know that. There's been opportunities but it just didn't feel right"

"Don't be embarrassed... If I could go back, I would wait for the right person. I wouldn't lose my vcard at thirteen and lose track of my body count by age fifteen"

"Then why do you keep hooking up with random girls?"

"It's easier to do it once with someone knowing we don't ever have to see each other again. I hate all the emotional attachment shit"

"So you're saying you'd never want to fuck the same person twice?"

"I mean, I have but it was strictly physical. We both agreed to a friends with benefits situation and we both got what we wanted out of it. I wanted someone to sleep with and she wanted to make her ex jealous"

"JJ, I'm not trying to tell you what to do but from what everyone says it's so much better when you're with someone you love and truly care about"

"Probably, guess I'll never know. But hey, it feels good and it's a huge stress relief for me. Besides it's not like you even know what it's like. How long are you gonna wait?" He said getting defensive

He quickly added, "Sorry, none of my business. But you could always ask Pope if he wants to hook up. He's still a virgin and he likes you so you can both just rip off the bandaid together"

"I'm not going to ask Pope. That would be so awkward. He'd be all scientific and textbook about it" I said and JJ laughed as he knew I was right

I looked at JJ and this next question would change everything. Once I said it, there was no going back.

"Will you take my virginity?" I asked him and he was surprised

"You want to have sex with me?" He asked

"I mean why not? We've known each other for years. I trust you and you have a lot of experience. I want to lose my virginity and you like to have sex so we both get something out of it"

"Kie, are you sure? This isn't something you can ever get back. I don't want you to have any regrets"

I thought about it for a second and I didn't think I would ever regret it. He said, "I'll tell you what, you think about it for a few days and if you still want to do it then we will"

I left and headed home and I couldn't stop thinking about JJ and what he said. He was so sweet about the whole situation. A week had passed and my parents were out of town. I texted JJ

Kie: My answer is still yes. My parents are gone this weekend if you want to come over tonight

JJ: I'll be there

Later that night, JJ showed up and we went up to my room to watch a movie. I didn't know what to expect. We watched the entire movie without even kissing. I decided that maybe JJ didn't want me and so just ruined our whole friendship. He looked at me and asked, "So, are we going to do this?"

"Only if you want to" I said and asked if I wanted this and I told him yes

He was being super sweet about this and asked if I wanted the lights off or on and then he kissed me. I melted into the kiss and all my nerves suddenly disappeared. We were making out and JJ started kissing my neck. This already felt amazing, I don't know how much better it could get.

It got so much better. He kissed almost every inch of my body and he went down on me. He was super sweet and always asked my permission, told me what he was doing, and made sure I was enjoying it. He looked so sexy opening the condom wrapped with his teeth. He inserted himself inside me and paused allowing me to adjust and then he began slowly thrusting his his hips.

By the end, my legs were shaking. It was amazing. JJ laid down beside me and he asked, "So, any regrets?"

"No" I said at a loss for words

"Good, me either" He said sitting up like he was getting ready to leave

"Where are you going?" I asked as I was hoping he'd stay

"I'm sorry, I just don't do the whole after sex cuddle thing" He said grabbing his clothes off the floor of my room

I know I agreed to this, but I felt so used. So violated and like it meant nothing. He left my bedroom and I was left alone naked in my bed. A few minutes later, he came back in and I haven't moved.

"That was a dick move on my part... I'm sorry" He said

"It doesn't matter... It's not like it meant anything. You don't have to stay, in fact, it's best if you leave"

"I panicked okay? I don't do the after sex stuff. I grab my shit and leave. But I actually wanted to stay with you and I just don't know what to do and I didn't want you to feel uncomfortable if I stayed"

"Take your clothes off and come back in bed with me"

He started to take his  clothes off and I was watching him. He was completely naked and turned the lights off and got back into bed with me. I curled up next to him and he wrapped his arms around me.

"You're right, it's a lot better when it's with someone you care about"

We both fell asleep and the next morning we said we were just going to pretend it never happened. We went our separate ways and a few weeks later we were in another game of truth or dare. John B asked JJ, "So before you freak out and get pissed off, tell us about your best experience in bed"

"It was with this kook and she was fucking beautiful. She invited me over to hang out and we had sex. The best sex of my life. It was so good, I spent the night at her house which you know never happens. I think I'm gonna text her and ask if she wants to do it again"

I was trying so hard to not make it obvious. I hoped I wasn't blushing or smirking or giving myself away to the group. A few minutes later, my phone vibrated and it was JJ texting me.

JJ: so.... you, me, sex, tonight?

I couldn't help but look over at him smiling like an idiot watching me.

Kie: I don't know... It kinda breaks the no pogue on pogue macking rule

JJ: Screw the fucking rule

JJ: We've already done way dirtier things than just macking

Kie: I'm just kidding... Where tonight?

JJ: Under the stars

Kie: Sounds romantic

JJ: Only the best for you

I suddenly couldn't wait for John B and Pope to decide to go inside for the night. I just wanted to be alone with JJ. I couldn't help but look at him differently ever since we did it. Pope was the first one to go to bed and he took the spare room. John B was the next one, going into his room which left me and JJ alone.

I got up and went to sit by him. He smiled as I sat down beside him and then he leaned in and kissed me. We were making out and he asked, "Wanna go down on the dock?"

"Okay" I said as we got up and headed down to the dock

JJ stopped and grabbed a blanket from inside the Chateau and laid it down so we weren't laying on wood. We were making out and he paused and looked at me.

"What?" I asked worried something was wrong

"Nothing, just can't believe this is real" He said kissing me again

JJ and we're both laying on the dock breathless and sweaty as it was super humid out tonight. We jumped into the marsh to cool off. I swam over to JJ and he pulled my body against his. I wrapped my legs around him as we made out again.

JJ and I eventually got out of the water, dried off, and put our clothes back on. We walked back to the fire and I was going to go home but JJ stopped me and said, "Stay with me, in the hammock, under the stars"

"Okay" I gave in as we walked over to the hammock and instead of us laying at opposite ends like we usually did, we laid on the same end and I rested my head on his shoulder and his arms were wrapped around me

"Kie, I don't know what's happening here but I like it, a lot and I don't want it to stop"

"Neither do I"

"I want to take you out on a real date, but I'm new to this. I just don't want John B and Pope to find out. Not yet"

"I'd love to go on a real date with you, J and it can be our secret"

He leaned in and kissed me as he whispered, "I'm the luckiest guy in the world"

"You're so sweet, but I'm the lucky one"

"How? It's just me? I'm a pogue from the cut with an abusive alcoholic father who has no shot at a decent future. You're technically a kook who lives on Figure Eight. You could get any guy you wanted and you picked me"

"Don't talk about yourself like that. You aren't your father. I'm lucky because you care about me and you actually want to have a relationship with me unlike the other girls"

JJ and I laid there together in the hammock both awake but not speaking. We were both just thinking about how much we loved each other.