(Requested by DaphneBoyden )

Warning: gigantic spoilers for episode 2 of season 2. Read at your own risk.

Jessie's POV

I was in shock, I felt as if my entire body had shut down. Petra was floating in the air to my left, a look of terror on her face as a glowing red gauntlet rested on her hand. How could I let this happen? Why did the Admin have to choose her out of everyone here? She looked over at me in the slowed down time, almost pleading for me to do something to make all of this stop. But what could I do? My mind was shutting down and I could feel it. The Admin was saying something, but it was going by so slowly that I couldn't understand what he was saying anymore.

The only thing on my mind was her. Petra, the arguments we've had in the past few days, all the lies she told, the jealousy, the old times, our dates, our first kiss. All of it came rushing back as we shared a long look, unable to look away. This was all my fault, and whether we had been arguing or not, Petra was in this situation cause of me. She decided to stick with me, and I couldn't figure out why.

What did all of this mean? Was she going to become the Admin like Vos had? Would the girl I know and love be lost forever? What if I can't save her this time?

All of these questions bounced around my head, then it all went silent, and a single sentance, one Petra had said while they were making their way to the fortress of ice, came through the silence. "I just didn't think you needed me anymore." It hit me, all of this could have been avoided. Every moment could have been different if I had just paid more attention to my girlfriend, my best friend, than to my work.

Many what if questions filled my head as Petra's eyes started to widen even more. My mind silenced at the look she gave me. I wondered if things were going as slow for her as they were for me, but that couldn't be possible could it? The way she looked at me, how her eyes seemed to look straight through me to what I was thinking. She had the nasty habit of always knowing what I was thinking, but this, this was different. Her fearful expression turned to one of shock. I guess I had to look pretty scared for that to have happened. My eyes traveled down to the gauntlet, my breath catching in my throat when I remembered what she said when I had learned what it meant.

"No matter how hard I try you're always better! You're always the hero!"

There had been so much hate in her voice, so much jealousy. At the time it hurt, but I would do anything to have her cursing me out rather than seeing her wear that glove. My mouth felt dry, and I was sure my hands were shaking. Her words kept going through my head, bouncing around until my head felt like it had it's own heartbeat. This, this was all my fault, and now Petra was getting the tail end of my mess. My chest hurt, as if I couldn't get enough air in. What was this? Anger? I haven't felt this angry...

Since Reuben....

My eyes turned back to the Admin, eyes narrowed in a fit of anger as time slowly went back to normal. Maybe this was my fault, but that thing, whatever it is, started all of this. Like hell if I'm going to let it get away with it!

"Well, she's not exactly what I wanted. We'll have to work out a few kinks here and there." The Admin laughed, floating Petra higher above my head. I looked up in terror, watching as she shrieked in terror. "Jessie!" She called, eyes meeting mine one last time before she was gone, pale purple whisps the only thing marking where she had been. The anger I had felt before doubled, making me draw my sword in a flash, swinging to strike the Admin right through it's chest, a killing blow.

It dodged my attack, with such ease, like it was nothing. "Jessie, Jessie, Jessie." It drawled, "You never know when you've lost." I felt my heart sink, those words had been said to me before, but this time, this time I felt as if they were right. I had lost, and I couldn't accept it. "Now I'll send you and you're dolt friend where you'll never see the light of day again!"

Those were the last words I heard before everything went black.

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Yay! Anyway as you can see I managed to update for once. I will be more regular with updates now that Season two is out and I'm rather invested in the storyline again. Plus I need to do something as I procrastinate school work :p so I'll see you guys soon, and as always, leave requests in the comments!

-Yang