Finally an update!!!

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Enjoy the long ride of 13.2k words!! ✨

Triggering topics, can be really sensitive. I am warning it.

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Groan.

A small deep sound whispers in the quite jittery room bending with the bird's chippers outside as morning rays of sunshine enter inside the room through the see-through white curtains in front of the slightly open window.

Taehyung groggily opens one of his eyes while the other was being rubbed by his fist to wipe away the sleep from his sights, a yawned scaping past his swollen lips as his shoulder slumped down with his hands lazily falling on his lap.

He looks around, another yawn sounded from his open mouth as he stares at the empty space beside him and the room around him where no one looked to emerge, the one who his eyes and heart were demanding to see at the moment.

He pushes his arms upwards and stretched his limbs, sighing deeply as he was more awake now from his long sleep where he slept like a newborn baby to the core it made him tired and exhausted from much-contented sleep, still somewhere in the definition of freshly exhausted.

"Koo?" He called with a voice morningly deep but like a whisper which can only be heard inside the room, a pout forming when he didn't hear any response.

"He left?" Taehyung murmured under his breath sadly. "Didn't even leave a note..." He trailed, eyes darting towards the empty nightstand he grumbled. "Stupid!"

He breathes out lazily and pushed the blanket from his legs, swinging his legs to the floor, squirming to reach for his slippers, and stands up when he tucked his legs inside it.

Another yawn leaving his throat making him actually groan in distaste because of it. "Damn it, I slept like a baby still I feel so tired" he moved towards the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth in hopes of getting rid of this fatigue that has entered his system since he woke up.

It's when he fresh up and comes out of the bedroom that he felt the nice aroma of a delicious breakfast that has a hint of strawberry syrup and something sweet, which means his favorite pancakes that his step gets faster with his face concerning a frown of confusion.

He steps downstairs and walked towards the kitchen just to feel his heart skips a beat at seeing his lover standing with his broad back on him where he can see him making some decorations on the pancakes and placing extra strawberry on one of the two plates, neatly like it was to be presented in a cooking show to get extra decoration points.

Jungkook didn't hear the other coming as he was so engrossed in making the perfect first ever dish he ever tried making in his whole life which is a simple breakfast for his one and only----the only one Jeon Jungkook will go to this extent to make him happy and impressed with him.

Kim Taehyung aka the heart of Jeon and also the petal of the beautiful flowers of his dark gloomy life that can't match the beauty of his pup.

When Jungkook was done with his art of decorating pancakes he just hopes are edible enough to eat and taste hopefully good as he did such hard work on learning this recipe from the Internet in less than half an hour and taking another hour making it, especially waking up early to make the special breakfast so he can cheer up his petal from last night events.

"If it doesn't taste good, I am going to...going to...sulk" he sighs, not noticing a silently giggling Taehyung behind who was enjoying the soft murmurs of the older who was still making sure it looks all good and inviting while filling up two cups of coffee/tea.

Jungkook hummed and picks up both of the plates and turns around with them when he stops abruptly more like dramatically with his eyes slightly widen seeing Taehyung standing there with a small smile and twinkle in his swollen eyes.

He quickly cleared his throat, a little awkward with hands holding plates and eyes searching for any anger or hatred in Taehyung's face, he kind of hoped for Taehyung to not jerked him off again in the morning when he will be in a much good state of his mind.

"Ah...petal...um...good morning?" He stammered with words, trying to erase the awkward silence around him, he realized he was still standing with both plates in his hands and decided to put it on the table first so he wasn't looking fool.

Taehyung chuckles lowly under his breathe as he stares at Jungkook hurriedly in placing the plates carefully on the dining table so the strawberries won't fall from where he had concentrating placed them neatly on top of the whipped cream and also placed the steaming cups beside the plates.

Jungkook turns around at the voice, his eyes confused but frantic as he was really nervous and anxious, Taehyung wasn't saying a single word and it was really not helping how he didn't even answer his morning greetings.

Is he still mad? Will Taehyung again going to yank him away? He hopes not.

"P-Petal?...ah..um...are you—are you mad that I am—I am still here?" Jungkook asked nervously, biting his lips, his heart was beating erratically against his ribcage.

"I-I just...um I ah made this for you...at least eat it first then I will leave..." Jungkook pointed at the dishes, his head jerking back towards Taehyung when he heard a chuckle from the younger and looks at him confusingly.

Taehyung smiles weakly, slowly stepping forward, closer to Jungkook making the Mafia's heart go berserk he feels like it will break out of his chest.

Taehyung did nothing but smile when he was a one-inch distance from him, he stares at Jungkook, heard how his breath hitched when he placed his head on his shoulder, close to his neck and wrapped his arms around his waist, cuddling closer to Jungkook by nuzzling his face into his crook of the neck.

Jungkook stilled, frozen, malfunctioned.

"Thank you" Jungkook heard the small whisper, if it wasn't too quiet except his wildly beating heart he would've missed it.

Taehyung smiles against his neck, breathing in the familiar comforting smell of the older and tighten his arms around his middle.

"Thank you for coming last night at my one call...for comforting me...for holding me whole night in your arms....for staying till now...for doing so much effort to make favorite food for me..." Taehyung slightly pulls back and stares at Jungkook with gleaming eyes and a loving smile as he uttered.

"Thank you for everything"

Jungkook smiles, a curved of lips that reflects fondness in his round eyes and shows so many emotions at once, relief, happiness, contentment as well as so much love and adoration.

Jungkook did what his heart desires as he bundled his petal into his arms, against his chest softly, and leans forward to gently press a loving kiss to his forehead, Taehyung closed his eyes in glee.

"I would do so much more if it concerns you, you've no idea" Jungkook murmured, faces so close to each other while their bodies were glued to one another in a loving embrace.

"I really have no idea" Taehyung comments, a small sad smile on his lips as he stares at Jungkook's eyes with his filled with guilty ones, so much pain and remorse holding Taehyung's eyes that it made Jungkook frown in concern.

"Petal—" he wanted to comfort the other, to make those sad eyes turn into happy glints and twinkles, he hates seeing his heart like this, in a state where he looks so small and sad.

Taehyung buried his face back in Jungkook's neck, nuzzling to convert his emotions through actions, hands fisting his shirt behind his back.

Jungkook sighs, not liking it at all when he rubbed Taehyung's back soothingly and moves his head a bit to kiss the upper side of his ears.

"Let's eat first, hm? It's getting cold" he muttered, pulling away a bit to drag Taehyung towards the dining chair to make him sit there but frown when Taehyung shakes his head.

"What?" Taehyung pouts, gently pushing Jungkook on the chair and then comfortably settling himself on his lap, sitting sideways.

"Wanna sit here"

The mafia chuckled in fondness. "Aren't you getting clingy, hm?" He comments softly.

Taehyung smiles and in response nosed around Jungkook's cheek softly, this is his only way of apologizing for hurting him so much with his words, to shower him with love, only saying sorry wouldn't do anything, how he had hurt him with his words now he has to show with actions how guilty and still in love he's with him.

"Any problem?" He raised an unbothered eyebrow.

"Not at all. It's adorable" Jungkook replied, closing his eyes when he felt soft kisses on his jaw, moving his arms to curl around his slim waist.

"Feed me" Taehyung demanded, still pressing soft kisses on his cheek and jaw. "I am busy"

Jungkook softly laughed, opening his eyes and glancing at his petal's soft shy smile as he kisses him on the side of his face and hummed.

"Anything for you" he started cutting the pancake in between to make it small pieces and placed it in front of Taehyung's lips for him to taste.

"Mhm... it's good. 10/10" Taehyung comments, now that he taste the delicious thing he couldn't help but move to the plate and concentrate on his food instead that is so delicious his stomach grumbled in hunger.

"Wow, Kookie. This is so good!" Taehyung said with a mouthful, praising his boyfriend for getting success on his first try who was feeling giddy by his appreciation for his hard work.

Gosh, he felt achieved.

Jungkook smiles big, so wide his all teeth poke out from all the places and he giggles, kissing the back of Taehyung's head in love, sighing in contentment seeing him gobbling it all down greedily.

Taehyung scoop up some of the food and offered it to Jungkook, making him eat with him, now he was the one feeding his lover who eagerly opens his mouth for his petal to feed him, what's better than eating from Taehyung's hand, hm?

"That was amazing!" Taehyung commented, the plates and cups now clean and empty as he rubs his belly cutely in happiness that now he was full and contented.

Jungkook smiles at his cuteness and hummed, placing his chin on his shoulder and asking in his softest voice.

"Full?"

"To the brim" Taehyung cheekily replied and glance back at him, eyes sparkling when something caught his interest and he suddenly stands up, grabbing Jungkook's hand and pulling him up his feet.

"What?"

"Come with me" He dragged him upstairs, but not before placing the dirty plates on the sink to wash it later and took the older upstairs into his bedroom.

Jungkook just followed him like a lost puppy, confused frown on his features as he was forced to sit on the edge of the bed by his petal who went towards his closet after warning him to not move.

Taehyung opens his closet and hunted inside to look for something, perking up when he found it.

"Petal, what are you doing?" Jungkook asked, confusingly. Watching as Taehyung slides the door shut of the closet and skips towards him, crawling on the bed to get closer to him and kneel behind him.

"Sit straight" he demanded, pushing his face so he can look forward and giddily threaded his long fingers into his long hairs to unknot all of the mixed hairs first then he grabbed all of Jungkook's long wavy hairs that were falling all around his neck and forehead, hiding away his attractiveness not like he doesn't look so hot and powerful with long hairs.

Once he gathered all the hairs, he tied them in a small ponytail on top of his head which he took from his closet.
"Done"

Taehyung chirped, pushing Jungkook's face back so he can see how he looks and gasp at the view in front of him.

"O...M...G...." Taehyung let out and covers his mouth as a loud squeal wanted to come out so bad from his mouth and cupped Jungkook's cheeks and squished the soft skin.

"You look so cuteeeee~" Jeon was as lost as ever as he only stares at his heart with confused eyes blinking in utter Innocence. He doesn't know what happened to him that his petal looked so excited.

Yeah, he tied his hair but Jungkook does that all the time when he's working or something, it's not the first time. Perhaps, his petal is the first time seeing him with his hair tied up in a small pony.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around his neck from behind and bury his face in his crook of the neck after kissing the Mafia's cheeks softly.

He was kneeling behind Jungkook to hug him from the back, the leader smiles lovingly and ruffles Taehyung's hair as he softly holds his soft delicate hands which were curled around his neck from the back in his rough palm.

"We need to talk, kookie" Taehyung muttered on his shoulder.

Jungkook sighs at that, knowing this was coming sooner or later and he feels a bit nervous and scared for that.

[^ This is their position atm]

"Mhm," he hummed, his thumb rubbing the younger's knuckles as he looks down to his lap.

"I wanna hear you ...hear everything and please koo...this time don't leave anything. Don't leave me in dark, baby. You should know that it hurts me more when I find it from someone else" Jungkook gulped, the topic of his mother being so sensitive he's afraid of won't be able to tell it to anyone.

"P-Petal but .." he wanted to tell, reveal everything but at the same time he's scared, scared because this always broke a piece inside him whenever he reminisces it, let alone tell it in word by word....so afraid of his petal hating him more than ever when he will know what he did to his own loving mother.

That he's a murderer, his mother was the first victim of his vicious, cruel, and brutal identity.

Although he was forced to, he was threatened, manipulated, he was small, innocent still he did it and there's no excuse for it that he did killed his mother.

Even though it's to save her from the worst pain she could ever get from it still he did.

That he will never forgive himself for it ever in his life, he's bound to live with this guilt inside him, this deep surging agony that he's the cause of losing the most precious person in his life, his one and only protector.

"Trust me with your everything, baby...just as I trusted you with my everything" Taehyung looks up a bit and kisses the Mafia's sharp jaw softly, his hands rubbing his broad chest gently, feeling his fast heartbeats against his palm and he knew the other was nervous as ever.

"Petal...I-I.." Jungkook's voice trembles, he bites his lips, hands curling tighter around Taehyung's hand.

"I will understand you this time, I promise...this time I won't break it, Koo... believe me. You can trust me this time...I won't judge you ...I will be there" Taehyung whispered soothingly and his one hand slowly reach upward to rub the Mafia's ears.

Jungkook's eyes closed instantly and his head unconsciously leaned into the touch, his breath shuddering but he was being comforted and his heart rate slowly calmed down, coming to beat at the normal pace the more Taehyung forefinger and thumb gently rubs the sensitive area of his earlobe and placing soft kisses on the back on his ear.

The moment of pure intimacy was so heartwarming and soft it made Taehyung smile as he nuzzles his face in Jungkook's neck, loving the warmth that seeps from the older and the way he oh so adorably gets putty in his arms whenever to gently play with his ears and hairs.

Taehyung loved this the most about Jungkook.

He only looks powerful and dangerous from outside but only he knows how innocent and pure the older is in so many ways, his mind is filled with dark but there's so much he's not aware of that a normal person should be able to and that reality is heartbreaking.

Taehyung wants to give the world to his lover if he asked for but at the same time, he wants to protect him from everything that can harm the older in the slightest from his Innocence on different matters.

"Ok..." Jungkook muttered after a while of silence and basking in the soothing touch of his petal, his eyes open, they were droopy like he's filled with sleep and author bites her fist to hold the urge to squeal out loud but ahem, I don't want to ruin the moment, excuse me.

Taehyung smiles and nosed behind Jungkook's ears and hummed.

That's when the blaring sound of ringing was heard, flinching both the unguarded male from the sudden sound on the silent room and they simultaneously looked at the light-up phone on the nightstand.

It was Taehyung's.

The younger move forward, with intention of declining the call whoever it is, and wanted to give his all attention to Jungkook when he saw it was from the hospital.

"Kookie?" Taehyung looks at him apologetically.

"Take it, petal" The other nodded timidly and slides the green button, placing it on his ear when he heard from the other.

"Kim Taehyung?"

"Yes?"

"I am from the Seoul hospital, doctor Choi wants to meet you, it's about your brother Mr. Seokjin."

"Is everything fine?" Taehyung asked worriedly, frown of concern on his face made Jungkook frown and he placed his hand on Taehyung's thighs, rubbing it soothingly.

"Yes, he wants to talk about Dr. Kim, the famous physiatrist who is going to take Mr. Seokjin's case"

"Oh, Ok...um ok, I will be there" Taehyung sighs in relief and nods, scratching his eyebrow as he agreed and placed his phone back on the nightstand.

"What is it?"

"It's hyung's doctor. He found a physiatrist for him who is ready to cure his trauma" Taehyung said and then sighs.

"Huh?" Jungkook frowned. "Trauma?"

"Oh, yeah! You didn't know. Hyungie woke up" Taehyung realized and informed the other with an enthusiastic tone as well as a hint of worry which didn't go unnoticed by the mafia.

"Then why don't you look so happy? Isn't it good news?" Jungkook frowned, lips pursing in worry as he scoots closer and cups Taehyung's jaw, thumb caressing his lower lip sweetly.

Taehyung sighs, a pout of sadness visible on his flawless features while he looks down.

"He woke up but his condition is not good, hyung is traumatized, he gets nightmares and waking up crying uncontrollably, it breaks my heart to see hyung in such critical condition..." Taehyung gets his eyes teary, heart-squeezing in pain at the image of terrified Seokjin crying hysterically after waking up from a horrible nightmare.

Jungkook squeezes his hand after intertwining them and smiles comfortingly at his lover. "Don't worry, petal. He will come over it soon, hm? Just stay strong and everything will be fine besides you have me here, huh? I am always here whenever you need me, just a call away"

Taehyung looks at him, a small smile formed on his pursed lips and he leans his face into the warmth that was engulfing his cheeks, Jungkook hand which was cupping his face.

"I have to go. Dr. Kim is coming and I had to be there since hyung always gets scared seeing new people, I am the only comfort for him, I had to be there" Taehyung whispers, voice small and guilty as he grabbed Jungkook's wrist.

"It's fine, petal. Go get ready, I will drop you to hospital" Jungkook smiles, leaning forward to press his lips to Taehyung's forehead and kissing it softly.

"Koo" Taehyung called seeing as Jungkook stands up to leave the room to give him privacy for dressing up and stands up himself.

The mafia turns around and looks at his lover questioningly as he saw the younger walking closer to him, Jungkook gulped as Taehyung cups his cheeks with his both long, dainty, delicate hands and caressed his under-eye area.

"We're going to talk tonight, hm?" Taehyung started seeing as Jungkook sighs and shakes his head. "Petal, focus on your brother first, he needs you the most right now," The leader said, he was honestly finding excuses to somehow not talked it out because he's not sure if he will be able to talk about his mother which is something very delicate to him.

"And you need me the most too, enough of only picking my hyung, baby. Now it's time I should really do what others had advised me, to balance both of you and I want to be there for you just as I am with hyung because I love you, Koo" Taehyung talks, eyes soft and determined as he pushes forward to softly placed a small peck to Jungkook's upper thin lip.

Jungkook opens his eyes as Taehyung pulls back, smiling softly and confidently as he whispered close to his lips. "I love you so much that it's time to show you this as you open up to me, take this time of clearing out your mind and making yourself ready, hm? I'll be there to understand and comfort you"

Jungkook sighs, defeated. There's nothing left to say as he knew it's really time to tell everything to his petal and not repeating the same mistake, he can only hope for the other to not hate him more than before after knowing what he did.

He's scared once again in his life, so much that it creeps into his heart and squeezes the organ brutally.

Scared of losing Taehyung once again.

"Ok" he agreed, seeing as a smile formed on Taehyung's lips who move his head to kiss his cheek then hugging his neck tightly.

"Don't be scared, baby. I will not repeat my mistake, you can really trust me this time" Jungkook sighs in his shoulder, closing his eyes and curling his arms around his lover's waist tightly.

Jeon Jungkook was always the one hard to comfort thus he's still really scared because he can't calm himself from the upcoming heartbreak that is slowly and creepily coming his way, he can see it, feel it, he can't bear the thought of losing his heart, he needs him so much.

Please, be there this time...

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"Papi, stop!" Jimin grimaced as he glares at the latter through his shoulder who was currently back hugging him while he was making breakfast for them.

Jimin learns that Min Yoongi can be really affectionate when he's in a mood that it gets literally annoying for even an affection sucker Jimin who just needs a little bit of time to literally breath.

Jeez, the older is a gummy cat, indeed.

Since, he came here last night feeling the older needs him the most, his comfort, his care, his love, and most of him in general, they have been attached as one body since then.

It was probably the first time, they were together and weren't being wild, horniest beast, fucking each other's brain off at every surface of the Mafia's lavish apartment, even on the kitchen counter and in front of the mirror, wall, floor, ahem window too and making wild memories together by role-playing the poorly scripted, quick thought which by the way they both pull off easily like a pro and satisfied one another's kinks.

Don't judge, it's just their way of loving and having feelings, everyone is different and thus they are, the wild couple.

This was the first time, Jimin entered the house and Yoongi straightly took him to his bedroom, Jimin following behind obediently and see as the mafia went to his closet and took out comfortable clothes for sleeping and they both changed and Yoongi was preparing for the bed.

They had cuddled, all night. Yoongi's head perfectly fitting in Jimin's crook of the neck as he lay half on top of the younger with his muscly arms around his petite waist as Jimin traded his small thick fingers to his hairs, playing with it while hugging his neck, comforting the other silently as the mafia sighs in elation for the first time in his life.

He was contented, protected, so open and raw as he let Jimin see all the other sides which were hidden safely inside the mafia, letting him see his weakness when he's most vulnerable and letting himself be comforted by Jimin.

They had cuddled in the warmth of one another and it was the most beautiful and intimate night for the couple, they felt closer than ever as they had been so open to each other.

The most memorable night.

And if to ask Jimin, he did not expect his boyfriend to wake up being the clingy whiny cat who refuses to leave him for a second, kept holding him for dear life, he wasn't even affected by his warnings and scolding, the mafia was deaf ears with his face buried in Jimin's neck, annoying him by kissing and nibbling into his soft skin.

Yoongi woke up and choose to attack his lover.

"Min Yoongi, I swear to freak stop annoying me!" Jimin had enough, he harshly put the knife down and turns in his hold, eyes hardly glaring at the mafia who had an innocent face like he wasn't wiggling his fingers into his belly unintentionally to tickle him and biting his neck gently then licking it, by now Jimin had like numerous soft hickies decorating his neck.

"What do you want?" Jimin spat harshly but it didn't affect the older, not even a little bit because he knew what he was doing and didn't mind it, he was enjoying irritating his boyfriend, a bit too much.

"Nothing, I am hungry" Yoongi replied cheekily, a gummy smile showcasing as he stretches his lips with a playful glint in his sharp eyes.

"Then let me make a damn food in peace and stop biting me!" Jimin grumbled, really really weak for other's adorable smiles, he's just hopelessly in love that he can't even get mad at the other for so long.

"Ok, I won't do it but let me just hug you" The mafia bargained, earning a roll of eyes from Jimin who turned around to continue cutting whatever he was doing with a murmur. "So clingy for what"

Yoongi happily wrapped his arms around Jimin, his chin resting on his shoulders as he hums, thumbs rubbing soothing circles on his sides of the waist, not in a tickling manner but an intimate, precious kind.

His smile seems to widen as he glances at Jimin's side of his face, eyes stuck to his gorgeous side profile as he chuckles silently remembering how the other was making silly stupid Jokes last night to try to cheer him up while they were cuddling in bed.

His love is so precious, Yoongi is so in love he can't express it in words.

Jimin has yet to know about his feelings and the mafia had planned on making it as special as possible because Jimin is worth all of the sappy, cheesy romantic proposals he always cringed at as it was not his style but for Jimin, it's worth it, he deserves it and Yoongi will make sure to make it memorable for both of them.

And he was going to make it soon, just need to prepare himself because for the first time Yoongi was nervous and a little bit scared for some reason his heart beats erratically and he can feel his ears getting hot red, just at the thought of voicing out his feelings.

Jimin is really having that much effect on him, it's unbelievable.

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The car stops in front of the hospital, Jungkook closes the engine and sighs as he glances at Taehyung who took off his seat belt and turns towards him with a smile.

"When will you come? At my house or yours?" Taehyung asked, hands creeping into Jungkook's and entwining their fingers.

"No ones" Jungkook replied. "We will go somewhere else, somewhere open I..I—" Jungkook stammered, his heart heavy and beating painfully.

"It's fine, Kookie. Wherever you feel comfortable, I am ok with it" Taehyung comfort, smiling as he caressed his thumb over Jungkook's prominent blueish veins.

Jungkook sighs, smiling a bit as he turns to Taehyung and looks at him, the other notices the longingness and sadness there and he felt his heart hurting at it.

"Koo, if you need more time, you can take. We can talk some other day if you're not ready for it. I will wait" Taehyung says, hands going to rest on his shoulder as he sweetly rubs his ears, soothing the other with the sensitive touch.

He has to be understanding the way the other always was with him, being so patient when it was his time to reveal his past.

Jungkook sighs. "No, we will talk today. I am just scared..."

Taehyung sighs, his thumb moving on his earlobe, lovingly comforting his lover as much as he can.

"Petal...can you kiss me?" Jungkook looks at Taehyung, desperation and needs dripping from his tone and eyes as he stares at Taehyung, wanting to forget even just for a minute the thought of losing the other once again.

Can he really trust him this time? He wants, he badly wants to, but his mind says something else, he knew what he did to his loving mother is horrible and unforgiving and he also knew Taehyung will be going to hate him for this when he reveal it was not only his mother he had killed.

There was someone else too.

Someone innocent.

Taehyung didn't take time to think, he didn't hesitate when he pushed forward to cups his boyfriend's cheeks and pressed their lips together in a kiss, he meant for it to be soft and soothing but Jungkook was desperate.

He pushed further to Taehyung, pressing their lips harder and kissing him with sudden desperate need when he moves his lips, Taehyung reaches to his rhythm, kissing him with more vigor, feeling Jungkook's hands resting on his waist and the other behind his head, tilting his head to Kiss him more deeply.

Taehyung hummed under his breath when their tongues met, opening his mouth willing for Jungkook to distract himself into his warmth while he rubbed his thumb on his apples of cheeks, letting the other feels lost in the kiss to forget about the pain and fear.

They were breathless but Jungkook wasn't ready to let go of the feeling, pushing Taehyung face more closer even though there was no space as he kissed him harder.

Taehyung's lungs burn in lack of oxygen but he didn't dare pull away, he breathes through his nose for temporary oxygen and letting Jungkook kiss him passionately.

Both eyes were closed shut as they were all over each other, Taehyung's hands go from his face to his hairs tugging them as Jungkook bit his lower lip, sucking on his pillowy lips harshly to earn out a moan from the other, the mafia's head was hazy, all he can think about is his petal's lips he's addicted to and the feeling of blooming peace and contentment in his once painfully squeezing heart.

Taehyung really was his solace, his comforter, his protector.

Just like his mother once was.

Taehyung moans, loving how Jungkook was desperately kissing him but his large palm lovingly rubbing up and down his sides of the waist, there was a bit of roughness in the kiss but there was gentleness, he was making sure Taehyung was comfortable with it even in a situation where he wants to be free of any thoughts he was still thinking about his petal's comfort these are the moments that show how deeply and sincerely Jungkook loves and adores him.

Taehyung is damn lucky and he realized it when he almost lost the other, not anymore though.

After what felt like long hours they pulled away, heavy breathing sounds in the spacious car with tinted glass while their forehead was pressed together.

Taehyung's chest heaving up and down, breathing harshly to fill his lungs while his hands slide from bunching up Jungkook's hairs to his wildly beating chest, his palm rests territorially against the Mafia's heart, it belongs to Taehyung and the latter is grateful and so proud and happy for it.

Taehyung opens his eyes after calming down, he stare at Jungkook's eyes that stare at him innocently, he couldn't help but move forward to peck his nose sweetly.

"Feeling better?" He whispers, asking Jungkook who gave him a small smile, this time it was genuine and more peaceful than before where it looks forced and painful.

The mafia nods silently as he pulls Taehyung closer and hides his face in his neck, nuzzling his nose behind his ears as he sighs in relief.

"Mhm," he hummed.

Taehyung smiles rubbing his hair and setting them down, it was disheveled because of his harsh tugging and he made them presentable by combing it through his slim long fingers, his long hairs were Taehyung's one of the favorite attractive parts of Jungkook's and those natural curls were just like cheery on top.

They made him look so intimidating and charming, he looks splendid, ethereal yet so innocent and cute in them.

"I'll come to pick you up at 8:00" Jungkook murmured in his neck, sighing in his soothing scent as he lastly kisses his juncture of neck and shoulder then pulls away.

Taehyung hummed then nodded. "okay, I will be ready" he responded, caressing the back of his ears as he smiled at him.

"Take care" Jungkook spoke. "You should also take care and don't think too much, I am here as long as you need me," Taehyung said back.

"This time I won't break my promises, Kookie. I will show you by fulfilling them while being with you" Taehyung murmured and the mafia believed it.

He believed it because this time the promises weren't said in a rash or in the moment of heat but they were said with genuineness and determined heart like they were meant to fulfill not broken.

Jungkook felt at peace, he trust his heart, he will trust Taehyung and he will be brave enough to talk about his past because it's his petal, his heart, he will understand him this time, he can see it in his eyes, they were loving, genuine and full of sincere promises.

"I love you" Taehyung kissed his cheeks.

"I love you more than anything" Jungkook responded with sincerity.

"Take care, bye" Taehyung bid byes as he comes out of the car, waving as he entered the hospital and Jungkook sighs, he wore his sunglasses then slides down his tinted car window, hands gesture the other car standing on the other side of the road and few normal clothed males comes out of the car and enter the hospital.

They were Jeon's trusted guards, are there to protect his heart from afar.

He won't take any more risks, he wouldn't let his petal go through that ever again, he will protect him and if means from afar so be it, he doesn't care.

He drove away when he saw them following his lover and checking the surrounding from any kind of danger, he knew his petal was now in safe hands as his guards will take the bullet to their chest without any hesitation but won't let a scratch come upon his petal.

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Taehyung walks to the busy corridor of the hospital, reaching to the doctor's room and step inside after knocking, he was faced with two men sitting on the chair, one was Dr. Choi who had been there since the start of his brother's treatment and the unfamiliar person sitting in front of him, he guessed it's Dr. Kim.

"Good Morning" he greeted, nodding his head at Dr. Choi who greeted back and smiled and saw the other doctor turning his head towards him.

He looked intimidating, was taller and broader in physics, sharp jaw and cold eyes, Taehyung smiled towards him nonetheless.

"Hello, Taehyung. Meet Mr. Kim Namjoon, he's the one who will take Seokjin's case" Taehyung bowed politely but Namjoon smiled and push his hand Forward for a formal handshake, Taehyung did and smiled, relief to see him not looking so intimidated anymore.

"He's Kim Taehyung, Mr. Seokjin's younger brother" Dr. Choi introduced him.

It's not like Namjoon didn't know about it, he already knows every little detail about Seokjin's family and the day of the incident.

"Thank you, Dr. Kim, for this, I will always be grateful to you," Taehyung said, gratitude shown on his face as he heard from Dr. Choi about the famous physiatrist who is known for his amazing technics which will cure the traumatized person's in a short period of time, he's happy he chose his hyung's name for it, he doesn't have to pay either.

"It's my job. You don't need to thank me" Namjoon said, smiling politely.

I would do anything for Jin anyway

Taehyung smiles, looking at Dr. Choi who smiled at their interaction and speaks. "I will show you to the patient's room, he's very jumpy and frightened seeing new people so you had to be cautious" he informed.

Namjoon nodded as they walked out of the room to go towards Seokjin's private room.

Taehyung was the one who first entered the room and he saw Seokjin sitting on the hospital bed, his head to the side, looking out of the window in a deep trance, he looked pale and unhealthy.

Taehyung's eyes brim with tears, it always does whenever he sees his once such an energetic and cheer full brother being so silent and lack of enthusiasm and emotion in his eyes, they are always so blank and alert, he looked so different than he was three years ago.

That nightmare took away his brother's everything.

"Hey, hyung" Taehyung gulped down the lump in his throat when Seokjin didn't react, he was still looking out of the window with blank eyes, he looked numb and empty.

His hands were resting on his lap, he was now able to move his hands/arms from the physiotherapy he gets every day for hours, he can't move his legs yet, they are still temporary paralyzed but he can move his toes, and sometimes the heels of his legs, he will be able to move it wholly in few days.

Namjoon had a frown on his face when he entered, eyes looking intently at the unmoving Seokjin, he had missed the other so much and seeing him after years, he can feel his heart beating fastly against his chest, his hands clenching and unclenching in nervousness, Seokjin still has the same effects on him after years.

Taehyung walked closer and sits beside him, he placed his hand on his brother's and squeeze it, instantly the older flinched back in alert and looks with widening eyes towards Taehyung that had deep fear brimming in them.

"It's fine, it's fine. It's just me, hyungie. Taehyungie" The younger calmed the frightened older who was breathing irregularly at getting shocked, he was still looking with large fear-filled eyes at Taehyung, not able to come out of his shock state faster.

"T-Tae..." Seokjin let out, breathing, chest moving back and forth as he tried to calm himself.

"Yeah, it's just me. Sorry for scaring you hyungie" Taehyung patted his hands, eyes guilty as he moves forward to nuzzle into his broad shoulder in apology.

Seokjin manages to calm himself, he smiles a bit and patted Taehyung's head. "It's okay"

Taehyung moves back and smiles at him, he blinked repeatedly to stop the tears to come out of his eyes before he faced him.

"How are you?" Seokjin smiled almost....nothing, it looks blank but also warm.

"The same ... How are you doing?" Seokjin's voice was small and shaky, almost fragile.

"Missed you" Taehyung pouted and hugs him tightly.

Seokjin chuckled but then his eyes landed on the two figures behind Taehyung, one was the doctor he recognized but when his eyes landed on Namjoon, he frowned.

Namjoon's breath hitched, he clenched his fist tightly, looking at Seokjin's eyes dead-on, he hopes that older remembered him but the luck seems to be not on his side when he sees the alert posture the older got, fear brim in his eyes once again when he looks at Namjoon, not leaving his eyes.

"W-Who is this"

Namjoon's heart cracked, it was soundless yet he was able to feel the squeeze it gives him inside his chest, it was painful.

Of course, he won't recognize him.

He swallowed his pain and smiles professionally towards him when Taehyung glances at him and spoke.

"He's Dr. Kim, he's here to help you," Taehyung said shortly.

But the mafia leader was desperate, for Seokjin to at least remember him, even get a glimpse of the past and seeing how Seokjin was frowning looking at him continuously, he had a hope the latter might be thinking hard.

"You can call me Namjoon, no need to go all professional. I love to treat my client with a friendly manner more than a professional" Namjoon said his name intentionally, he saw how Seokjin's frown deepens, he was still staring at his face all over, like he was trying to remember something.

"Namjoon?" Seokjin breathes out in a whisper, the sound of the name looked oddly familiar to his mouth as he tilts his head, watching Namjoon all over.

Namjoon breathes out shakily, he bites his inside his cheek, chanting in his mind to please please don't forget about me, to remember who I was to you.

But unfortunately, sadly but expectedly that it was Seokjin couldn't exactly pinpoint the familiarity he felt at seeing the mafia.

Namjoon's jaw tightening in disappointment, he was expecting it but it still hurt the latter was not able to remember who he was.

"I should start my session now, I had to go somewhere else too after this" it was just an excuse, to be alone with the one who has stolen his cold heart all those years ago.

Taehyung nodded and sighed, looking at Seokjin who frowned. "What does he mean?" He asked faintly.

"Hyung, you will be fine with him here alone, right?"

"No" Seokjin immediately declined, shaking his head. "Where are you going?"

"I am not going anywhere, I will be outside the room. Don't worry, he's a very nice person, you're safe here" Taehyung tried to calm him but Seokjin didn't budge.

"No, stay!" Taehyung looks back at Namjoon with questioning eyes who shakes his head.

"I am sorry but these session needs to be only with the patient, No one is allowed to be in the room," he said firmly.

"Hyung" Seokjin looked at him pleadingly.

"Don't be scared, Mr. Seokjin. You have a button here beside your bed, if you feel unsafe with me or uncomfortable you can anytime press it and they will come inside the room the next second" Namjoon reassured him, he smiled at him, still professionally.

Taehyung nodded along with Dr. Choi who showed him the button and Seokjin swallowed and looked down silently, he didn't say anything.

They all nodded to themselves and Taehyung stands up, kissing Seokjin's forehead and reassuring him one last time before he along with doctor Choi left the room, making Namjoon and Seokjin alone.

Namjoon sighs as he walked forward, intending on sitting on the chair beside the bed, and Seokjin's hands instantly settle on the button attached to his hospital bed as he watches Namjoon coming closer to him.

The leader noticed and he smiled, this time warmly, softly almost lovingly.

"Hey, Seokjin. How are you feeling right now?" Namjoon asked, sitting on the chair, looking at the other with soft eyes and a warm smile.

Seokjin was alert but he was calm as he stares at the other, now that he was closer Seokjin can see him more clearly up close and he can swear he had seen that face somewhere but he can't specify where.

"W-Who are you? Why do you look so familiar" Seokjin asked instead, his hands still hovering over the button but his eyes squinted at Namjoon's who smiles charmingly at him as he chuckles a bit.

"Really? Can you remember where?" He asked, raising a strong questioning eyebrow.

Seokjin shakes his head. "I d-don't know"

Namjoon nodded understandingly though his heart still stings a bit. "We will talk about it when you remember"

"So I know you?" Seokjin raised both of his eyebrows in surprise, eyes widen a bit as now his hands come to the bed instead of the button.

Namjoons smiles only, he stayed silent sparking Seokjin's curiosity.

"How are you feeling?" He asked again and Seokjin looks down at his fingers which were now playing with each other.

Something about the other, the weird familiarity, like a feeling of belonging or something close to it makes Seokjin calm and he was able to become comfortable from those soft warm eyes like he had been lost in those eyes before as he sees so much familiarity in those.

"I don't know...it feels odd." Seokjin's reply was not sure, he had a frown on him as he looks away.

"But I have one question. How was I able to...able to heal...heal this early? When I ask the nurse they didn't answer me" He asked, shakily, fear evident in his eyes with a hint of confusion because he can't see any marks or feel any pain anywhere on his body, how can he heal in few days that his skin is so clear and so pale?

Namjoon sighs as he hummed, nodding. "Do you know what date it is today?" He asked, gently.

Seokjin looks towards him scowls. "What kind of question is that?"

"Just tell me, which year it is right now?" Namjoon had a really calm and encouraging expression in his features that made the other response although it felt weird. Why he was asking these questions?

"August 2018" Seokjin replied nonetheless.

Namjoon nodded, as expected. "Now, what I will say next Seokjin listen to it calmly. Don't need to pressure yourself and take it to your little head, hm?"

Seokjin tilted his head, frown deepening but he stays silent.

"It's not august 2018....it's 5th July 2021. You went into a coma for three years" Namjoon said slowly, every word said with utmost gentleness and care as he closely watches Seokjin's reaction to it.

The other wasn't looking like he was believing him at all but Namjoon notice the glint of horror and surprise shown in his blank eyes.

"W-What?... stop it! Stop this nonsense" as expected, he didn't believe him.

Namjoon nodded and took out his phone, he showed him the date that was on the display, and Seokjin looked at it closely and that's where his eyes widen largely and horror was written all over his face.

But it was distracted by pain, pain that suddenly engulfs his fragile state of mental health as he groans in suffering, grabbing his head when he can suddenly hear voices.

How are you today hyung?

When are you going to wake up, huh? It's been t-three years...how much beauty sleep you need more hm?

I miss you...please w-wake up hyungie...Taebear misses you so much...

Y-Yesterday was such a hectic day, hyung sorry I wasn't able to come, I was so t-tired I slept the whole day.

Hyung today I want you to meet someone...he's Jung—

"Ahhhh" Seokjin whimpered in pain, his head pulsing in sheer brutal pain that made him dizzy, he can only see darkness but the voices were there and all have belonged to his baby brother but there were more voices, one more very different and shaky.

I love him so much but I am scared....so scared to tell him the truth... You are his hyungie...he loves you so much...can you ..can you tell him to ..to understand me, please?

I am ready to beg him .. please I love him so much—

"Seokjin!" Namjoon's voice distracted him from all those voices that scream in his head making it so painful for him to breathe even, they were nipping like needles.

"Ssh, I told you to don't pressure to your small head" Seokjin breathed out, opening his eyes and breathes shakily.

"Here" Namjoon gave him the water and he took, gulping down small sips as he calmed down.

"T-three years...how—how my angel survived alone..." Seokjin is stressed, his eyes formed with tears as he looks at Namjoon with worry and guilt in his eyes.

His hands came to cover his mouth as he cried silently at the realization, his baby brother was all alone for three years, he doesn't know how much he would've gone through, Taehyung doesn't even know how to survive one day without his appa or hyung, how much he would be suffering without anyone besides him.

How scared and alone he must have felt, Seokjin's heart squeezes only at the thought of it, he felt so guilty and terrible for his brother.

"Don't stress about it, Seokjin. He's here in front of you now, hm? So don't worry, it's not good for you" Namjoon reassured him, hands itching to touch, to engulf the other into his arms and comfort him but he refrain himself from doing it, he doesn't want to make Seokjin uncomfortable, he was already in a very vulnerable state of traumatization.

He doesn't want to be added to the list of people he got scared of.

It happens for another hour, the session was long but it was affectable, Seokjin was able to open up about few things and it was progressing in Namjoon view as he was able to pinpoint few things about the other's fears and way of talking.

He asked questions, the one which won't scare away the other, and in a way, Seokjin didn't feel uncomfortable. It was his specialty as a physiatrist, he talked to them in a friendly manner and a comforting smile with a gentle and welcoming tone.

"That was it for today." Namjoon stands up, adjusting his coat as he smiles down at Seokjin who in all the time they were together in a room didn't stop looking at the other doctor with searching eyes like he was really trying hard to remember something.

"I will come back tomorrow, hm?" Seokjin nodded a bit, he saw as the others bid byes and turns to leave but Seokjin voice stopped him from stepping further.

"Who were you to me? I wanna know"

Namjoon's heart skips a beat, it started beating wildly against his ribcage as his back was facing the other male in the room.

Namjoon glances back at the other male, looking at him with eyes that hold many emotions, but sadness and something so raw and deep was dominating his every emotion.

Seokjin's waited for his response, anticipating, feeling his heart also beating fastly as he holds the eye contact.

The mafia gave a miserable smile when speaks. "I don't know about you...but to me?" He stares at Seokjin's face all over, sadness reflecting in his eyes darkly as he smiles softly at him.

"You were my everything"

Seokjin's face flattens from all the frowns as he stares with surprise at Namjoon who smiles with tight-lipped, showing his dimples deeply as he nodded.

"See you tomorrow.....Jin-ah"

And then he walked out of the room like a harsh wind rushing past, Seokjin stayed there frozen, beads of something whitish, bluish, something uncolored filled pictures run through his head as he heard that name from the older's mouth.

"How can someone be this beautiful is beyond my thinking. You're made with literal care and attention"

"Hahaha...now you're flattering me. But I ain't going to give you a chance with that typical flirting I have listened to it a lot. Do something new and I might think about your offer"

"Mhm, Jin-ah. You are really thinking so low of me now...just give me few days, I am going to make you fall so hard for me"

"That confident at your face?"

"Nah, I am going to make you fall for my genuine feelings for you, not my face, there are millions for it already"

"Ahahaha...sure sure"

Seokjin opens his eyes, he can't see faces clearly, but he can hear that soft voice, that laugh of his, and those words.

And at that moment he knew, Namjoon was someone very important, very close to his heart that he's forgetting about.

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"So you're going to tell him everything?" Yoongi sounded as he stares at the leader sitting in front of his head hiding behind his arms as he rests it against the counter, cigarette in his hands.

Jungkook sighed, eyes bright red as he pushed his hands away from his hiding spot and looks in front at the wall as he hummed with a nod.

"Are you sure you can do it, kook?" Yoongi was worried, he knew how hard this is for Jungkook and he wants the best for him but he doesn't want him to force himself for anything.

"I will... I had to. I can't hide this from him anymore. He deserves to know everything" Jungkook replied, voice hoarse as he placed the killing stick back between his lips and take a big inhale of the addicting weed.

Yoongi sighs, he gulped down the alcohol from his glass and placed it on the counter.

"He'll hate me" Jungkook sounded bitter, and an empty chuckle left his mouth.

"He won't" Yoongi denied immediately.

"Who wouldn't when they hear that I killed my mother...the most beautiful person of my life" Jungkook ignored Yoongi's comment as he looks down, a puff of cloud coming out of his mouth as he drank the liquor in his hands in one go.

"Kook, we're not going with this again," Yoongi said firmly, finality in his tone.

"All my fault".

"It's not your fault, kook!"

"If only I wasn't too weak...too fucking stupid maybe I was able to safe both Maa and—"

"Stop right there, Jungkook!" Yoongi interrupted, sternly.

"You were a freaking kid for god sake stop blaming yourself!" Yoongi stands up and cups Jungkook's cheeks and made him look at him.

"You were just a kid!" Yoongi repeated for the ninth time for years.

"Still I was the one who shoots—"

"You were forced to, Jungkook! You were threatened! It's still is not your fault" Yoongi emphasized his words as he looks directly at Jungkook's teary eyes.

"We're not talking about this again" Jungkook looks down and sighs deeply.

"I am scared, hyung..." Jungkook spoke vulnerably.

"Don't worry, Kook. Taehyung will not do that, I can assure you that" Yoongi squeezed his shoulder as he patted his head comfortingly.

"I hope so"

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Giggling.

The sounds of happy waves of laughter and small whispers were chirping in the entrance of the mansion as two figures, huddled up to each other were walking inside with hands intertwined and gleaming eyes.

"I love it! The way he got so shocked at seeing his brother, it was the best part" Hoseok chimed, gossiping about the action movie they saw on their amazing date and giggling to themselves like fools in love.

"My favorite part was when he kissed him in between the action! I am going to try it too one day, be prepared baby"  Samin gushed out, winking at the bashful hoseok who rolls his eyes.

"As expected from you"

"You know me well baby" Samin smirked but their little bubble of happiness and whisper was interrupted by the sharp bitter nip standing on the end of stairs.

"I see you both got into good terms, huh?" Minhyuk raised an eyebrow at the annoyingly laughing males, in his eyes making them stop in their tracks.

Samin rolls his eyes and chooses to ignore his existence but stops abruptly.

"Are you guys finally together? Thought you won't ever be able to ask him out, such a coward" Minhyuk scoffed, noticing their intertwined hands.

Samin glared at him but then he smiles. "Jealous much?"

Hoseok squeezes his hands, silently telling him to move forward so they can go to their room.

"Huh? Me and Jealous. Come on, I almost got to kiss him but of course, you had to interrupt. Really think, he will be loyal to you if he can be in my arms just this easily?" He comments with a smirk.

"What are the chances that I won't be able to do that once again, hm?" He provoked but before anything more could be uttered, something happened.

And Minhyuk was on the floor with his jaw cracked and mouth bleeding, he got punched.

Not from Samin, he was holding himself back because Hoseok gestured him too. It was Hoseok himself who step forward and throw a brutal punch at Minhyuk's face.

"You thought two minutes of vulnerability can define who I am, huh? Don't think I am in a mafia just for hacking, I can pretty much show you the hell in this world" Hoseok glared down at him, hard and angry.

He snapped his fingers in front of him and spoke. "Watch out"

With a last glare, he went back to Samin, holding his hands and dragging him upstairs.

"Wow," Samin breathes out when they entered the room.

"That was hot" He comments, still shocked but so proud of his boyfriend.

Hoseok huffed and slides out his accessories in front of the mirror, Samin walked towards him to back hug his body.

"He thinks I am defenseless and unable to fight. Jeez, the stupidness of that prick is amusing" Hoseok huffed once again.

Samin chuckled. "The way I am so proud of you, baby. You were so sexy for that" He complimented proudly and lovingly.

Hoseok looks at him and smirk. "I am only sexy while punching someone? I think I need to change that for you" Hoseok turns around and grabbed Samin's collar, pulling him forward and kissing him hard.

Sam was shocked but god that was a turn-on, he wrapped his arms around his waist and kissed him passionately.

Hoseok pulls away and smirks, pushing Samin on the bed and straddling him.

"Let's show you my another sexy side"

....and let's just say Samin got his treat ;)

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"where are you taking me?"

Taehyung asked, his voice like a soothing whisper in the silence of the car, blending the deepness of his tone in the noises of the car running on the silent road with occasional cars coming or going but at some point, it stop and now they were the only one on the darkness of the road with wide trees and their leaves overshadowing the dark road.

"Somewhere far" Jungkook response shortly, he was visibly fidgety, his hands clenching and unclenching on the steering wheel with his knuckle's turning pale from the level of tightening hold he had on it, Taehyung can feel the bouncing of his legs which he was doing in nervousness.

He was nervous and Taehyung can feel it.

"Are you sure you're not planning on kidnapping me?" He joked to cheer up the other, although the darkness of the road creeping him out he trusts Jungkook with his whole heart and soul and lungs and whatever organs he owns and knew he was totally safe with the older and nothing could happen with him in Jungkook's presence.

The mafia chuckled at that, he smiled, it was tight-lipped but it was there and Taehyung knew somehow he managed to distract the older for a few moments to ease his nerves.

"What If I am? What you gonna do? I can do so many things to you here and no one will know about it" Jungkook teased, successfully got distracted from the depressing thoughts his mind was occupied with the silence of the car ride towards the outwards of the city where he knows a place which will help him to soothe himself and open up to his petal.

Taehyung gasped fakely and narrowed his eyes at the side profile of his playfully smirking boyfriend and spoke. "And what are the things you are planning on doing?" He asked with a fake suspicious tone.

The mafia chuckled and glance at Taehyung, giving him a knowing smirk with a playful evil glint in his eyes. "Many things"

Taehyung bites his lips, a smile forming on his blushing face as he moves forward to lightly hit Jungkook's arm. "Pervert"

Jungkook laughed, throwing his head back, teeth showcasing his sharp frowning face, automatically making Taehyung giggle as he covers his mouth and the melody of two beautiful laughs of the world were blending into a lovely rhythm in the once silence and tensed filled aura.

"God, it's so easy to make you flustered" Jungkook commented, laughing more when he felt the younger glaring at him from his peripheral vision.

He looked peaceful and free of nervousness now and that all it took for Taehyung to smile contently to himself.

There comes the silence again but it was not unbearable and uncomfortable, it was peaceful and tolerable because now Jungkook's hands were intertwined to Taehyung's and his thumb rubbing circles on his dainty knuckles as they rode towards their unknown destination.

It doesn't take more than 20 more minutes before Jungkook finally decided to stop his car, In the last ten minutes they had such an unwavering ride as the bumpy roads weren't at all made correctly for a car to be able to cross by but they were finally there.

Jungkook grab Taehyung's hands protectively in his as the walk a bit to the clearing, he was the one leading the way as Taehyung was too occupied by the aesthetically beautiful view in front of him, his head was up high to the thousands or millions even trillions of stars decorating the sky, scattered all over the darkness and sparkling in the night.

[A/N: I can't choose one, so imagine whatever you like from both of them ^ ]

Jungkook stops and sighs, gesturing Taehyung to sit down and the younger did, crisscrossing his legs on the ground as he watches Jungkook settle in front instead of beside him with confuse frown but it wipes out as quickly as Jungkook leaned back down and placed his head on his lap, he was laying on the grassy floor resting on Taehyung's thighs.

Taehyung smiles down at his lover who again had that sadness, the deep crawling agony shown on his face as he watches at the millions of sparkling stars above the sky with shining eyes.

Taehyung's hands went to his hair as he pushed them out of his face and behind his ears then playing with the soft locks of his raven hair.

Taehyung was kept staring at Jungkook, noticing his every move from his shaking hands to his unblinking eyes that looked to be shining with something that was hiding his black orbs behind the salty liquid of it.

"You see up there, petal" Jungkook's voice was trembling, it was very visible from the crack it did from when he uttered his name.

Taehyung looked up where he was pointing his finger on and watch at one of the brightest twinkling stars up above, showing its worth by shining the brightest of everyone around them and smiles at it, it looked so pretty like a galaxy that was reflecting on the shining of Jungkook's eyes.

"The brightest star that's blinking?" Jungkook said.

Taehyung hummed in acknowledgment.

Jungkook blinked, chin bopping as he gulped down his pile that was forming on his throat.

"That's my...m-my mother" the mafia finally uttered, his eyes visibly brimming in unshed tears, the word only had so much sensitiveness to his heart, it was unbearable that the gut-wrenching pain consumes him.

Taehyung's smile falters as he immediately looks down at Jungkook seeing the small painful smile on his face with tears in his bambi eyes.

"My m-most beautiful and l-lovely m-mother...my—my everything" A lonely tear roll down Jungkook's temple, it managed to slip from the pool that formed in his round eyes.

Taehyung gasped silently, his eyes widen for a moment as he stares down at Jungkook who was just staring at the star with his lower lip wobbling and eyes blinking with tears.

"My everything" Jungkook repeated, this time his voice so small, so weak.

Jungkook sniffled, his mouth opening to breathe out shakily, so sensitive and vulnerable that he wasn't able to hold himself together just from the mourning pain of his mother he still wasn't able to come across, it always left a deep scar on his soul whenever to remember her and it is almost every night for several years.

Taehyung cupped his chin, his palms covering his neck as he thumb around his jaw, Jungkook instantly leaned his face into Taehyung's arms which were over his cheek to cup his chin, and sniffled as more tears left his eyes.

"She l-left me....left me...all alone" he muttered, sobbed against Taehyung's skin who was biting his lips, his own eyes pool with tears as he saw Jungkook in this state for the very first time.

Broken, tored, shattered beyond any repair.

"K-Kookie...ssh... it's fine. You don't need to tell me, ok" Taehyung can't see Jungkook in this state, he can see how much sensitive this is for the latter and how it was physically paining him from voicing it out.

"No, I want to tell you...tell you everything" Jungkook protests, breathing harshly to calm himself, he needs to let it out, open up to Taehyung, he wants to show everything he's been hiding inside for so long.

"She was so strong...so so brave and beautiful, petal that—that even when my... my shit of a father..." Jungkook gritted it out, with so much venom and hatred in his tone and eyes when he mentions his father. "...would—would beat her s-she won't make a sound..."

"She was...she was so strong heart that—that even when that shameless bastard brings o-other women in the home to...to s-sleep with them, in the same house, same fucking house! where I and my lovely mother are locked up..." Jungkook sucked in a sharp breath, his hands fisting the grass under him so tightly that the mud comes out of it and he crushed them unconsciously.

Taehyung noticed everything but he stayed quiet, gasping silently at every single word Jungkook uttered with so much agony and fury with his each gritting words.

"We weren't allowed to go out..." Jungkook sighs out, his eyes still stuck to the same star, that's blinking brightly.

"She was ...she was forced to hear...hear all those...those noises they made in the bedroom, she cried, petal...she always cries so hard, screaming, she used to cover her ears to stop those disgusting noises coming from the other room, she would lock us up in the bathroom which was in the other corner of the hallway but they were just so loud and—" Jungkook shook with fury, his eyes were so sharp and glaring, tears continuously leaving from his eyes and wetting the pants Taehyung wore, his voice was trembling.

Jungkook sobbed, chest heaving up and down fastly as his cries, the loud sobs ring in Taehyung's ears like a nipping pain, they were heartbreaking.

"She stays there...stays in that hell just—just for me...we had no one behind our back to go back...we had no one other than that—that monster, no money, nothing to survive without him." Taehyung bites his lips, swallowing his own sobs as he caressed Jungkook's hairs soothingly.

"She stays there, bearing all pain without a complain, swallowing her pain without a single noise, and sucking her tears without a single sniff, she was broken but she stayed strong ..j-just... just for me" Jungkook closes his eyes tightly, gut-wrenching pain engulfing his soul wholly.

"She didn't want to take away a father figure from me because unfortunately, he was an average father to me than a horrible husband to my mother" Jungkook scoffed.

"Yet once it got too much she tried to sneak out with me, she tried to run away but we got caught and then it was...was a n-nightmare to her" Jungkook shook, his hands coming to grab Taehyung's tightly, his heart is in so much grief and agony he cried as he speaks again.

"He would abuse her mercilessly, he was a monster! She cried! Begged but he didn't stop and when it was not enough that he almost took her life he...he...he dragged her...her to..to the bedroom and...and—" Jungkook couldn't complete, he couldn't say the other words when he loses all of himself and curls himself into a ball, he curls against Taehyung, burying his face in his stomach and holding on his arms around his neck for dear life.

He cried loudly, nonstop, shaking, trembling badly with each heartbreaking sobs coming out of his heart.

"B-Baby..." Taehyung called, he was shaken up, he didn't know how to calm the older, he was also crying, tears rolling down his cheeks as he rubbed Jungkook's back, lovingly and comfortingly caressing his hands and hairs but Jungkook was unstoppable, he still spoke in between those loud unstoppable cries.

"a-and it wasn't... wasn't the first time! It wasn't the first time, Petal! She had gone through that a lot...a lot of times!" Jungkook fisted Taehyung's shirt so tightly into his hands as he wails loudly.

"But she never let me see it! Never let me see how much in agony she was! She always hides it from me and I always use to believe her lies! I wasn't—wasn't able to see the desperate pleads behinds her...her pretty smile... couldn't help...help her soon" At this point, Jungkook was hyperventilating, he was unable to breathe properly as he grabbed onto Taehyung's hand for dear life.

"Kookie! Baby breathe! Breath with me" Taehyung cups his cheek, making him face him as he bends down to kiss his forehead softly, rubbing his ears quickly to calm the older who gasped for breaths but his eyes stuck to Taehyung's teary, worried and terrified ones.

"Ssh, breath baby. I am here, hm...I am here" Jungkook leaned into the touch on his cheek, the warmth engulfing him as he was curled up on the floor with Taehyung softly caressing his ears.

"You know...w-what excuse she used to give me?" Taehyung shakes his head, he was trembling but doing his best to calm himself, to be strong for the older who needs him the most right now.

"When I noticed her...her bruises she would tell me they are from...from the burn marks from the straightener..." Jungkook bites his lips, crying silently. "But petal she didn't have anything like this with her, she never had any straightener with her...."

"I was so dense, stupid! I believed her lies" Jungkook grabbed his hairs and tugged them harshly in anger and disappointment at himself.

"Kookie! Don't do that, shh" Taehyung pushed his hands away from pulling onto his hairs harshly and intertwined their hands instead, kissing onto his pale trembling hands and caressing them affectionately.

"This is not it, Petal...I've done the worse crime....worse sin which is unforgivable.... something no one can even imagine... something on that day...I had..."

"That day?" Taehyung looks down with a confused frown, his hands pushing away all the sweaty hairs out of his teary messed-up face, and looks at Jungkook who wasn't able to look in Taehyung's eyes, he laid there numb and blank.

He was hiccuping, his body was trembling but suddenly all the colors drain from his face, he looked empty, broken, emotionless.

"B-Baby?" Taehyung called for him, fear bubbling inside his heart at seeing Jungkook so silent all of a sudden, suddenly he was frozen and looking at nothing.

"That day...." Jungkook started, his voice had no emotions, they were small but cold.

"That day... I was in the kitchen with Maa...we were making cookies....we enjoyed playing around, she was happy... I was happy...it was...it was...my 9th b-birthday" Jungkook blinked, he looked so....scary yet so so vulnerable.

His hands unconsciously moved back and forth at Taehyung's hands like he was living in those moments, Taehyung swallowed Jungkook wasn't here, he wasn't with him.

He looked like he was gone back to his past with how unmoving his body was.

"We were playing hide and seek while the cookies were in the oven, my favorite game, she knew that's why she always plays with me" Jungkook smiled, eyes blinked slowly.

"But then suddenly a noise came from the front of the door, father came home...he was...he looked scared, terrified" Taehyung gulped, he feared the worst, his heart beating wildly in anticipation but Jungkook looked the opposite.

He looked calm like he was telling a horror story to Taehyung.

A real-life horror story.

"He looked like he came running here but before Maa and I could think about it, a loud bang was heard...I got scared" Jungkook's hands tighten on Taehyung's, he scoots closer to him, like he feels terrified and Taehyung was his protector.

"And many people entered our house, oven ting was heard, my c-cookies were ready but...but there were too many guests... That's what my l-lovely Maa said ...she managed to hide me in the storeroom" Tears leak from Jungkook's eyes but no sound other than his shaky voice could come out.

"But they found me, because...I was c-crying...I wanted cookies" Jungkook's lower lip wobbles as he blinked multiple times.

Taehyung cried silently, so many tears were messing his face as he sobs under his breath.

"Maa screamed, father also did...they both wanted me safe but....but Maa begged for my protection only, she was ready to give everything but only wanted them to let me go and father was ready to serve my beautiful mother to them to save himself and me" Jungkook's eyes were hooded, stuck to the grass as the wind was passing by them, they were unfocused but they were like a big screen, showing a horror movie.

"The guest laughed...they made fun of us...made fun of my mother...me, they even crushed my cookies...they were playing with me...but" Jungkook shakes his head innocently  "But I didn't like that...I only liked playing with Maa"

"I was crying...I wanted to go to her but they won't let me go...." Jungkook moved, he looked up at Taehyung and saw his uncontrollable tears streaming down his petal's pretty face.

"You know what they said?" Jungkook's shaky hands went to Taehyung's face as he wipes his tears, Taehyung sobs at the touch.

"W-What?"

Jungkook tilts his head as he looks at Taehyung intently. "They gave me two options..."

"Either I k-kill her with my h-hands or they will o-order their guards to h-have their way w-with her"

Taehyung gasped, loud, eyes widen in shock, utter disbelief, terrified, horror-filled as he stares at Jungkook with loud breathings and a frozen state.

"K-Kookie..." Taehyung cried, hands trembling and he squeezes their intertwined hands at the pain that consumes him, the agony in Jungkook's blank eyes was so sheer he wasn't able to look at it.

"You know what I chose?" Taehyung shakes his head, he didn't want to hear, he didn't want to hear the next heartbreaking thing that will come out of Jungkook's mouth, he was already broken from just hearing it what Jungkook must be going through is beyond anyone's imagination.

"Stop...please kookie .." Taehyung cried, hardly.

"S-Should I tell the truth? W-Will you slap me if I-I do? H-Hate me? Leave me? Would never talk to me?...like Maa did? She left me too....and you know who did the unforgivable sin?" Jungkook glared, not pointed at Taehyung it was hard, sharp, raged filled, so much hatred and venom.

"Me! I did it! I killed her!"

"I s-shot a bullet to her chest....the sound was so l-loud...t-there was so much b-blood but she...my strong ... Strong, brave Maa didn't make a sound, s-she cried with no voice, she was in a-agony, in pain but she didn't complain even when she was dying....even when I k-killed her....she stayed strong...so I don't feel guilty...." Tears were endless, unstoppable, uncontrollable, unbearable, so painful, so hard....so fear-filled.

"S-She loved me t-that much, she..."

Taehyung was broken, he looks at Jungkook's eyes, he was crying but finally, he broke down at that end of the horror story, so hard, so unbearable, so much grief and agony. Finally, he told the last bit of his real-life terror, his nightmare, his past last truth, adding to the heart-wrenching pain.

"Maa was t-three months pregnant"

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Tissues anyone? ಥ_ಥ

That was it! Hope you liked this chapter and it was worth all the waiting I made you guys do.

But Namjin met!! They will have their bonding time now.

This was painful omg hope you guys feel the emotion. See you soon, bye bunnies 💜🤧

~bunnies~