This is so cute ಥ‿ಥ

Hoseok sighs as he looks up, the brightness of the moon illuminating in his face, showing off his detailed features that were consist of swollen red eyes and a permanent red-tinted nose, his lips chapped and rough from constant biting while his face contorted with exhaustion.

The cold wind hitting his face where he clutches the railing of the Mansion's balcony he was standing at and mourning at his pathetic soul which was in so much pain.

His eyes were sore from crying that even burns to open it for a long time, he constantly had to blink it which ended in him with tears in his eyes.

Not just by the sting in them but also the harsh ache inside his chest, deep within his heart.

The loud breath of heaviness came out of his chest which did nothing to fades away the heavy burden on his chest.

Hoseok looks down and shuts his eyes tightly. His knuckles turning white at how tight he was holding onto the railing at the intensity of the pain in his body.

"Why it's happening to me?" His voice was hoarse and rough from crying continuously for a week.

Hoseok looks up and sighs with a shaky breath as his eyes brim with tears once again which he tried to control. His throat was so sore from holding up the constant pile inside it.

"I'm sorry, Sam...so sorry" A choked up sobs left his mouth as he silently cried looking down at the floor.

"I love you...I love you so much" his heart hurt from the burden of this feeling that he was holding up for so long.

Why does this hurt so much? Wasn't love suppose to give you peace? Then why his love is giving him nothing but pain and grief?

How long should he handle this ache in his heart? How long should it take to move on? Why he can't move on from this even going as far as to flirt with Minhyuk so somehow distract his feelings?

After such a hard time consoling himself and finally decided to move on and maybe distract himself by interacting with Minhyuk he still can't let go of this feeling.

He can't—can't give anyone the feeling his heart already decided to give this to his best friend only.

The best friend he's been hurting just to get rid of this feeling because honestly, he was tired. Tired of living with the thought of getting a chance with Samin who sees him nothing but as a good friend or maybe like a brother too from how much he gives him his love and calls him sweet nicknames.

Samin never said anything about that to give him a hint that the latter might also have feelings for him so hoseok just assume that he only sees him as a good childhood friend.

He was heartbroken, so in pain that he had lost his senses of thinking rational and what does it say?....

...when a person is in pain and in their most vulnerable self,  where they had lost every will to think straight and contemplate what's right and what's wrong—they always tend to do whatever suits their situation and ended up doing a worse mistake.

That's exactly what Jung Hoseok did...

When Minhyuk came behind him with an evil plan, seeing the latter in his fragile state he decided to grab the opportunity he was finding for such a long time and get what he was intended to do.

Hoseok gasped as he felt arms sneak around his waist while he was crying in despair at his cruel fate and froze for a second.

"Ssh, it's fine..." Minhyuk said in a fake gentle tone as he pulls Hoseok close to his body.

The latter gasps and tried to move his arms from his body weakly but Minhyuk tightened it. "L-Let go...what are y-you doing?" His voice shaky and trembling, the sudden stop to his sobs had his throat burning more in pain.

But Minhyuk didn't budge even after his few tries of pulling away from the hold and Hoseok was too weak at this moment to fight back so he gave up and just stays there while he shut his tightly as more tears roll down his cheeks.

Minhyuk smirked.

"I am here, you can cry all you want. I'll be there" he purposefully made his voice soft, comforting trying to manipulate the heartbroken male who was into too much of his pain to realize how he decided to never talk to Minhyuk ever again because his touch always feels so uncomfortable and the way he looks at his body disgust the latter.

Hoseok had never felt this ashamed of himself for making this decision to distract himself with Minhyuk because that is the worst decision of his life.

Minhyuk is a greedy male, Hoseok was all aware of his lust thus he started making his distance from him when Samin sees them together in the hallway a week ago.

Right now, his vulnerability didn't get the intention behind his touch and closeness, and sees this as his comforting point because hoseok was badly in need of a shoulder to cry on and to feel peace.

Because the touch felt like a button of peace which causes him to turn around instantly when Minhyuk said he's here and he clung to him, crying on his chest and desperately finding the comfort, for the warmth that gives him peace.

But he found none.

The warmth he was searching for wasn't the one he's holding right now, he's very familiar with that warmth that even Minhyuk fakeness doesn't trick him and he pulls away a bit but the other male instantly pulls him back.

"It's fine, sweetheart. You can cry on my shoulder. I will comfort you, hm?" Minhyuk instantly Said, smiling for the other to believe him.

Hoseok doesn't know what to do at this moment he wasn't able to concentrate on the situation at hand when he keeps looking into his face while tears roll down his cheeks.

Minhyuk reaches forward to gently wipes his tears, Hoseok leans into the touch...he was vulnerable at this moment, he was in need of someone to comfort him, to take away his pain, and to bring back his peace.

Hoseok's fragility leads him into imagining Minhyuk as Samin and he smiled at the face of his love he sees in front of him.

"Sami?" He whispered.

Minhyuk frowned at first, he scowls internally at the name of that Samin but then smiles, if by this he can have the taste of this male then so be it.

"Yes, baby?" He says, knowing well how Samin calls him a baby.

Hoseok smiles, but it didn't reach his eyes because he doesn't know why the sound of it doesn't give him butterflies. He didn't blush nor the look on his Sami's eyes made him shy away.

Why it wasn't filled with that adoration he holds in his eyes always for him?

Why—Why does it all look so fake?

"I-I l-love you...Sami" Hoseok confessed, tears slowly roll down his cheeks as he pressed his cheek further into Minhyuk's palm which he thinks is Samin's.

He forces himself to enjoy the warmth of the palm of his lover but doesn't know why...why it didn't hold the feeling of protection and comfortness rather so dull and full of danger and lack of security.

Minhyuk gritted his teeth at that but manage to smile and leans closer to Hoseok. "I love you too, baby"

Hoseok's eyes snapped open and more tears leave his eyes as a wide heart shape smile formed on his lips. "R-Really?"

He was longing for Samin and his warmth around him so thus he didn't stop the older when he leans closer, only inches away from his face and aiming for his lips.

Hoseok just smiles in happiness and slides his hand around his shoulder to his neck and wrapped it loosely around it as he closes his eyes.

....giving the permission for the latter to do whatever he wants to just take away his pain.

He wants his love, his Sami to kiss him like he's in the cloud.

He wants to be free.

Minhyuk smirked in victory as he pulls Hoseok flushed to his body and tilted his head to get closer to his inviting lips he was dying to devour.

Hoseok furrowed his eyebrow, he doesn't know why...but the hold of his love doesn't have any gentleness in there...it wasn't careful like it used to be, they weren't holding him with love but there was this harshness that had Hoseok's heart beating louder in his chest and instinctively made him opens his eyes.

Like some force had made him do that, his whole body froze in realization like the sky was screaming at him to open his eyes as the loud thunder erupted in the sky and he flinched when he opens his eyes and his gaze lands on something.

More specifically someone.

Samin smith.

Hoseok stilled as his eyes widen when it lands on the teary eyes of the other who was standing in the corridor with his fists clenched tightly on his sides and his face smeared with tears of pain...tears of betrayal...tears of disbelief.

Hoseok jerked back and backs away from the fakeness of someone he was thinking as Samin and looks with horror written on his face at the face of Minhyuk he was imagining it as Samin.

He covers his mouth in surprise and then looks back at Samin who shakes his head weakly with disappointment present on his face and looks down, still crying at the harsh pain in his chest as he looks to his side and gritted his teeth in a fury that's building in his chest.

How can Hoseok do that to him?

Hoseok breathes loudly, his heart beating loudly in his chest that it rings in his ears as he keeps looking at Samin's heartbreaking teary eyes and cried more when the latter glance at him one last time and turns on his heels to walk away from there.

Minhyuk rolled his eyes at the drama, he was irritated for getting interrupted. Finally, he was going to taste him and Samin has to ruin everything every time.

"Sam...S-Sam...Sam!" Hoseok breathes out, running back in the direction of the mentioned male who was running fastly to get away from there, get away from the pain inside his heart that had him feeling numb from everything around him.

"Sam! SAM! Sam stop, please! Listen to me!" Hoseok runs after him, desperately calling for him asking for a chance to explain himself.

He doesn't know why but he feels like he had to tell Samin that what he sees wasn't what it seems—that he wasn't going to Kiss Minhyuk, he feels like he's betraying the other and he had to explain to him before he misunderstood.

Although he doesn't have to give any explanation since it's not like they were dating or something but yet here he was running after him to explain himself.

Hoseok grabbed Samin's wrist to prevent him from going any further. "Sami, listen to me! This is not what it looks like! I swear! I-I don't know... don't know wha—"

"Enough!" Samin yelled as he turns around, flinching the latter who looked wide eyes at him when he for the first time ever yelled at him.

"Enough is enough!" Sam gritted his teeth, the tears were still rolling down his cheeks as he uttered with his hard but shaky tone.

"Why are you here, huh?" Samin raised an eyebrow. "Please, go! Go and kiss that mother fucker! Why are you following me? He's your lover, huh? Who am I?"

Hoseok shakes his head desperately as he cried. "N-No Sami...you—you're misunderstanding me, please"

Samin scoffed as he looks to his side. "Yeah right. What I see with my own eyes was a misunderstanding, huh? Why are lying still? Why does it matter if I even see it, huh? You shouldn't care, right? So just fucking go and continue whatever you both were doing before I rudely interrupted it!"

Hoseok looks down and cried loudly, he was out of words. He was overwhelmed with everything happening. He couldn't handle it, he doesn't know what to do at this moment.

Samin's heart pain to see the younger, his baby crying like this but he was too hurt, too heartbroken to care right now. He has his own betrayal, disbelief, and pain to handle first.

"Sami...please" hoseok looks up and tugs on his wrist tightly as he sobs.

"You just showed me how low my value is in your life, hoba" Samin muttered as he sniffs looking at the younger.

"I told you countless of times to stay away from Minhyuk yet here you're...k-kissing him" Hoseok shakes his head.

"I didn't! I didn't kiss him!",  Hoseok said, the other was misunderstanding it. They never kissed, he opened his eyes before Minhyuk can attach them.

Samin did not believe because he has seen with his own eyes how the younger was smiling when Minhyuk was kissing him.

The image tore his heart completely and he was unable to tear it out of his mind.

He was heartbroken.

"Don't lie...please, don't lie" Samin pleaded as tears of deep pain rolls down his cheeks.

Hoseok stares at his pain-filled eyes and frowned when he realized something. "W-Why are you in so much pain? Why does it's affecting you so much?" He asked confusingly. "It surely not because of Minhyuk, right? There's something else" he guessed looking at the sheer pain in Samin's eyes and staring at him to find the answers when the latter chuckled bitterly.

"It doesn't matter anymore...j-just go and....and have fun with Minhyuk... I hope he will make you h-happy" After saying this he quickly turns around and hurriedly leave from there before hoseok had a chance to even stop him.

Hoseok still had a frown on his face when he looks at the retreating back of the older and a thought ran into his mind.

What is he hiding?

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"Petal, are you ok?" Jungkook asked as he was driving the car and Taehyung was sitting on the passenger seat with his legs bouncing up and down in anticipation.

"Yes! I am just so excited!" Taehyung exclaimed with a wide boxy smile.

The mafia chuckled and gently squeezed the hand of his petal which was intertwined and bring it closer to pressed a fond kiss to his knuckles.

Taehyung's cheeks tinted pink but he continued his excited talk. "You know, Hyungie never let me date anyone before and now when I am doing it I am just a bit scared of thinking about what was his reaction to it if he was conscious? He will probably hit you with his weapon's" The younger chuckled.

Jungkook frowned. "Why though?"

"Huh?"

"Why he didn't let you date anyone before? Isn't this your decision?" He said as he glances at his side.

Taehyung sighs. "He was just very protective over me since you know I have a...um special condition so he just always worry about someone's taking advantage of me as I was very naive back then"

Jungkook hummed in response as he nodded. "Are you not anymore?" He teased with a smirk.

"Of course, not! I am very smart now or I won't be your boyfriend today" Taehyung bit back, proudly.

Jungkook chuckled. "Point"

Taehyung giggles.

He pulls over at the parking lot of the hospital and Jungkook parked the car around the corner, noting towards the cameras and parking it away from their eyes reach.

He closed the engine and came out of the car to go towards the other side and open the passenger door for his petal who smiles and comes out.

Jungkook grinned back but noticed something and frowned, he stepped closer to Taehyung who looks at him with a confused face, and grabbed his collar to push them together.

"I know I said that you look ethereal with my marks on you but..." The mafia buttoned the first two-button out of three which hides the pretty pinkish blotches that adorned Taehyung's neck from their last night romance and glances up at his petal. "...but they are only for my eyes to admire"

Taehyung blushed and smiles shyly. "I did that on purpose. I thought you would want that...like showing off what's your kind of thing, you know? Seeing how over-possessive you're when it comes to me" he smiled.

Jeon scowled as he gets more closer and placed his wide palms on Taehyung's waist and the other on his chubby bread cheek as he boop their noses together.

"Who do you think you are, hm?" Jeon raised an eyebrow.

Taehyung frowned at the words spoken by his boyfriend.

"A property or showpiece to show off, huh?" Jeon still had a displeased scowl and a slight glare of an unamused expression on his face towards his petal.

"I didn't mean it in that way, baby" Taehyung pouted.

Jeon rolled his eyes.

"You better be," he said seriously and gently squeeze his arms as he rubbed them soothingly.

"Now listen to me very carefully, petal. I admit I am a bit possessive but my definition of possessiveness is protecting you from every harm." He sighs as he gently caressed his apple of cheek and smiles.

"You're not any prized possession that I own and brag it in front of the world, to showcase it－you're that treasures gem that I want to hide from the evil and in the protection of my embrace so no one can steal or hurt you in any way."

The mafia said this with seriousness and protectiveness oozing out of his posture as well as hold the fondness in them for his petal only.

Taehyung chuckled and steps forward to softly sneak his arms around Jungkook's waist and looks up at him with a loving look as he pecks his lips.

"You can never disappoint me" He muttered against his lips and pecks it again. "I love you so much, you know that"

The mafia grinned and hummed as he nuzzles his nose into his petal's cheek and nodded. "Still, you can't beat me"

"So you mean to tell me you love yourself more than I love my boyfriend?" Taehyung playfully raised his eyebrow.

Jeon rolled his eyes once again.

"What I mean is that you can't beat me when it comes to love between us. I love you more than you can ever"

"So you're telling me I don't love you enough?"

Jungkook frowned. "Are we fighting now?"

"You started it" Taehyung huffed.

The mafia sighed. "fine, we both love equally but I do a little bit more so now you have to compromise because that's the fact" he shrugged.

Taehyung rolls his eyes this time at the smugged expression of his lover and sighs.

Jeon was proud when his petal gave up, he never loses, glad to know his few rules are still not broken by his whippedness towards his love.

"Shall we go now?" Taehyung asked. "I am so excited to introduce you to, hyungie! He will love you, I am sure of it" he smiled his big boxy smile which brightens up the mafia's heart into fireflies of his love.

Jeon nodded and chuckled at the adorable bounce on Taehyung's step as he dragged him inside the hospital, the mafia instantly tightens his hand around his petals where their hands were intertwined and he got a squeeze back of assurance from Taehyung.

They walked through the corridor and Taehyung stopped in front of a particular private room he visits often and opens it to enter inside the room.

Jungkook following behind him after he checked around to see if he notice anything suspicious but found nothing.

When he stepped inside he sees the hospital bed where a person was laying with an IV attached to his hand and an oxygen tube around his nose, his skin was so pale that blueish veins could be seen on his neck and cheek area as they stand in front of the bed now.

Taehyung smiles as he gently sits in the chair and carefully grabs seokjin's hand and pressed a loving kiss on his knuckles.

"Hey, hyungie. How's my handsome hyungie doing?" His voice had a cheer in it as he placed Seokjin's palm on his own cheek and leans into the touch.

"If you're worried about me then don't worry! I am so happy!" He said cheerily and glances behind him to his lover who gives him a sad but reassuring smile.

The mafia intently looks at the oldest in the room, laid on the bed and a permanent frown was etched on his forehead as he clenched his fists tightly on his sides as the mafia's eyes burn with fire as suddenly seeing the scenery in front of him which looks so familiar, the screaming rang in his ears more specifically...

...a cry of a young child.

Beep......beep.......beep........beep...

W-Wake.....u-up...

The mafia turned around with wide eyes as his breath hitched, chest swelling up in intense pain as he clenched his fist so tightly that his knuckles turn white.

He closed his eyes forcefully.
Shut up! Shut up! Go away! Go away! GO AWAY!

"Jungkookie?" The deep soothing voice sounded in the room and the mafia's whirling memories instantly fades away when the softness of his petal's touch felt on his shoulder.

Taehyung turns him around with a concerned gaze and cups his cheek as he sees his tightened jaw and a harsh glare like a flaming blaze in his eyes that looks so dark and...gloomy.

"Baby" Taehyung caressed his cheeks. "What's wrong?" He asked softly, concern evident in his eyes as he stares at him.

The mafia silently stares at his petal, fist still clenched tight as he gazes at Taehyung with a distant look on his face.

"You know, petal?" Jungkook started, eyes unfocus as he tried to say something which is inside his heart for a long time, eating him alive and leaving nothing behind.

"If something is wrong but—but you still do it because you have no choice left but— but to do it....is this still consider wrong?" The mafia said, eyes blankly looking at his lover for answers after making Taehyung speechless of this sudden question.

Jungkook was not waiting for any answers, it's like he was in a trance, mind shut down to think rationally yet the words kept coming out of his clueless mouth leaving the younger atmost disbelief and shock.

"Or—Or when you will be given two choices where on one side you'll have an ocean of burning lava which will give a slow painful death by slowly burning each bit of your skin—or the other side where is the end of the way, the deep frightening cold-water river is present, so deep but so beautiful at the sight, where the death will be much easier and less painful if you fell and drown the life out of you" Jeon tilted his head as a small smile formed on his lips which holds no emotions.

It's a blank smile as he was just gazing at Taehyung when he uttered the next sentence.

"Which one will you choose? The ocean of burning lava or the deep cold-water river?"

"K-Kookie?" Taehyung's hand slips from Jungkook's cheek as he stared at his lover with uncertain but a hint of fear and concern-filled eyes.

Jungkook stayed silent for a while but then chuckled and looks down, shaking his head as he sighs deeply. "The question is weird, right?" He smiles his bunny smile as he grins, like what he said earlier was just a deep thought of his and it's nothing serious like it was just a nonchalant thought...

...like it didn't kill the mafia from inside those long years ago.

"I just got this suddenly in my mind so I asked, did I frightened you, petal?" Jungkook steps forward and caresses Taehyung's cheek with a loving genuine smile.

Taehyung stayed silent and stare at Jungkook without a word. "Sometimes you force me to think how I ended up with you" the mafia frowned.

"Why?"

"You sound creepy a moment ago, it gives me shivers" Taehyung shuddered at the image that carved itself in his mind.

Jeon just smile as he leans forward to kiss his lips softly. "Got carried away, I guess. I had this question for a while in my head so I decided to ask, didn't mean to scare you, my heart" he kisses his forehead, lovingly.

Taehyung sighs as he pouted. "Don't act like that again. It feels like some devil possess your body, you looked so blank"

Jungkook chuckled and nodded.
"Anything for you"

Taehyung smiles he pulls his hand to take him back towards the bed and sit with him on the chair.

"Let's introduce you to hyungie." He said enthusiastically causing a wide grin to form on Jungkook's lips.

"He's Seokjin Hyung, my brother and hyungie, meet Jungkook," Taehyung said as he looks back and forth between his brother and lover and smiles a bit shyly as he said the next thing. "My boyfriend" he revealed.

Beep...beep..beep..beep..beep..beep...

The sounds of heartbeats which were normal a second ago went faster the next moment Taehyung uttered this and the monitor showed high rates as it kept sounding loudly in the room.

Jungkook frowned as he looks at the blaring machine looking like it's broken as it suddenly starts yelling and frowned annoyed at the irritating but most familiar tone of it.

Taehyung expected this as he knew his brother can hear him and this was not a shocking reaction seeing as how protective his hyungie is towards him from the start and quickly holds his brother's hand and caressed it delicately. "Ssh, calm down, hyungie. He's not a bad person. He's the sweetest and gentlest baby in this world to ever exist"

Jeon rolled his eyes but he was also confused at the way Taehyung is reacting like his brother can hear him as the way he was comforting him.

"Petal, I think there's something wrong with the machine," he said, eyes furrowed as he doesn't know yet that the reason behind these sudden fast heartbeats of Seokjin is because he can hear them rather he thinks the machine broke.

Taehyung chuckled as he shakes his head. "The machine is fine, it's just that Hyungie ca—" before he could complete his sentence where he was going to tell how his brother can hear them even when he's in the coma, someone knocks on the door.

Jungkook instantly stands in front of Taehyung with a stern posture as the door opens revealing an unfamiliar nurse who frowned as she sees the unknown men in the room.

"Who are you? How did you come here? Who allowed you" the nurse asked as she came closer, Taehyung couldn't be seen as he was hidden by Jungkook's buff protective figure in front of him so the nurse gets alert at seeing the stranger in the patient room.

"Hey, Mia!" Taehyung pokes his head behind Jungkook and smiles at the familiar nurse who he's been seeing since the start and waves his hand cutely.

Mia glances at the sitting male and instantly a smile formed onto his lips. "Hey, Tae!" She greeted, relieved to see the familiar male in the room.

"How are you?" Mia asked as she came closer in intend to hug the younger but Jungkook prevents her from doing so and blocks her way.

Mia looked confused at Jungkook.

Taehyung rolled his eyes as he stands up and taps on Jungkook's shoulder. "I know her, don't worry"

Jungkook sighs as he still did budge and stands in between them. "Kookiee~ move. I wanna hug her! She's been away for two weeks, I missed her" He whined and pushed the buff male away a bit with all his might and huffed as he finally hugs Mia who returns the embrace warmly.

"Ignore him, he's very protective" Taehyung whisper in her ear and squeezes her, he missed her a lot.

Mia chuckled and nodded as she pulls away. "How was your vacation? Did you have fun?" Taehyung asked.

"It was amazing! The best trip of my life" Mia chimed as she glowed from the happiness in her heart.

Taehyung smirked and wiggle his eyebrows at her. "It sure seems like it"

"Yah, brat!" She playfully hit his shoulder causing Taehyung to giggles sweetly.

Jungkook pokes the inside of his cheek with his tongue as he rolled his eyes at the two friends talking animatedly to each other.

"Oh shoot! I came here to tell you that doctor Lee is calling for you. He wants to talk about Seokjin's condition." Mia hurriedly said as she suddenly remembered.

Taehyung nodded. "Ok, I will be there" Mia hummed as she walked out of the room to check on other patients.

"I will come with you" Jungkook butted in as he steps forward.

Taehyung shakes his head. "No, you stay here. I will be back. The doctor won't let you come inside the office anyway so just wait here"

Jungkook frowned. "Fine, then I will wait outside the office"

Taehyung sighs as he inwardly rolls his eyes at Jungkook and shakes his head. "Relax, Baby. It's not like someone's going to kidnap me or something without your presence."

Jungkook's frown deepens as he grabbed his hand and pulls him closer. "Don't fucking say that!" He gritted his teeth.

Taehyung gets startled at the sudden aggressive gesture of his lover and gulps as he smiles nervously. "K-Koo? I was just—just joking. Calm down"

"Don't ever joke about this, you hear me?" Jeon said sternly.

Taehyung nodded instantly. "I won't relax"

Jeon sighs as he gathers his petal in his arms and tightly holds him inside his protective embrace as he lovingly kissed his head.

"Now go but be careful, hm?" He pulls back and patted his cheek.

Taehyung smiles and leans upwards to peck his cheek softly then turning on his wheels to walk out of the room.

The smile wiped out of the mafia's face as he fishes out his phone from his pocket and messages his guards.

Stay alert! He's coming outside. Guard him around from afar.

After getting the reply he pocketed his phone and sighs as he looks back to stare at the laid figure on the bed, the heartbeats still ringing loudly but this time at the average rate, not too fast, not too slow either.

"Your brother is so naive...so innocent." He said with a small smile as his eyes sparkle at the mention of his petal.

"Yet he's the strongest person I have seen in my life. So brave and so beautiful. A perfect combination, don't you think?" He chuckled to himself as he sighs loudly.

"But just how much I adore his Innocence and simplicity, it's also is very dangerous. He doesn't know how much danger is luring around him." Jeon sits on the bed beside Seokjin as he keeps staring at his face with an unreadable look on his stoic face and a pursed lips.

"Would you mind If I tell you a secret?" Jeon started, heart racing but the hidden fear slowly eating him from inside and he feels badly wants to let out.

If not in front of his petal then he can at least tell his brother who can't hear it.

Maybe, it will give him the courage to open up to his petal, it's like practice as to how to tell this, the words that can't seem to come out of his mouth. Maybe he can say it here, find words to tell his petal.

"I really love him, you know that?" Jungkook smiled as he looks at Seokjin like the man is hearing him and will answer him of his insecurities.

"He's my heart, Jeon's heart" he chuckled and shakes his head. "The cutest person to exist in this world"

"My petal"

"And what's better than getting his love back in return. I am so lucky" he chuckled.

"Everything looks fine, right? Like I love him and he loves me back, we're really happy and all...but.." his smiles slowly wipe out as a frown took over his features.

"There's always has to be something that can become the reason of losing each other.....I also have one" Jeon's voice becomes lighter as he starts to whisper talk unknowingly with the burden of emotions bubbling in his heart.

"I am hiding something from him...a big secret...a big reality of my life which will separate us immediately when it will be out." Jungkook looks down.

"I am afraid"

"I dread that day when it comes out and there will be no way of bringing it back of what we have between us" Jeon clutch the fist against his thighs as his legs bounce in nervousness.

"Because....because I'm one who he hates the most in this world. Who—Who he fears the most in this world...I don't want my petal to ever get afraid of me but one day he will and I...I just want to stop the time....stop right there so that I will have my petal always close to me...I can't—can't live without him...he's my everything" Jungkook stuttered as his chest is so heavy with burdening fear and sadness that he couldn't seem to control himself right now.

"I—I wish...wish that I could change my...my fate or...or at least see what will happen in the future so that I can do my everything to prevent it from happening." Jungkook looks up as his eyes shined in deep sadness.

"I am just so scared" his voice came out so small and vulnerable.

He didn't notice but the heart machine that is attached to Kim Seokjin has again started to beat normally...like—like the man is listening to him...like he's hearing his insecurities, his fear of losing his love...like he's trying to understand him.

Jeon let this be his comfort of this undying fear.

"I am the mafia...a leader of one of the biggest mafia of this world..."

Jeon felt his heart stop for a second as he let it out verbally, his fear, the reason for the future separation between him and his petal, the fear of losing his treasure.

His eyes instantly turn to look at the door to see if his petal is there or did he hear it but no one was there and he sighs out a relief, this thing is so sensitive that Jeon is scared of anyone hearing it and then telling this to his petal resulting in him losing him earlier then he thought.

Jungkook looks back at the male laid on the bed and frowned when the machine again starts blaring out loud heartbeats which were a lot faster than before.

"What the fuck is wrong with this machine?!" Jeon scoffed as he ignores it as he sighs loudly and shakes his head.

"It's like you can hear me...you can not, right?" Jungkook again shakes his head at his dumbness. "He's in a coma, he can't hear me"

He gazes up at Seokjin and breathes loudly as he tilted his head to the side.

"What do you think?"

"Will Taehyung accept me if he will come to know about it? You're his brother, you'll know right?" Jeon said as he looks at Seokjin with an emotion that can break anyone if to see it in a ruthless mafia leader's eyes.

Desperation.

"I know about your past, about how you came here and I am very thankful to you for saving my petal that day but now you don't have to worry anymore. I will take good care of him. He's in my protection now" Jungkook smiled as he hesitantly placed his palm on Seokjin's hand and patted it awkwardly.

"But there's one thing good about me!" Jeon perked up as he sighs, trying to make himself feel as reassuring as he can. "I don't kill innocent, I swear I never did!"

"Will this be enough for him to accept me?" Jeon bites his bottom lip anxiously.

Seokjin didn't reply, of course, he can't but his breathes were shallow, his hand moves a bit under Jungkook's palm and the mafia looks down and smiles a bit.

"Are you saying yes?" Jungkook knew he was being delusional but this is the only thing a mafia can do to reassure his racing heartbeats and heavy chest also the gut feeling that it won't be the case here.

"I am not a good person, I know...but—but don't I...don't I deserve petal? I know he's too good but I am...I am trying my best too..." Jungkook swallowed his fear as he grins a bit.

"You know I even stop doing so many things in front of my petal so he stays comfortable...and—and I am not bragging and all but I cheat on my diet too for him so that I can accompany him while eating...I—I also ate chocolate once for him even when I hate sweets...and grow flowers on my backyard although I hate that smell...I compliment him a lot too because he's just so perfect and beautiful...I don't do anything that brings discomfort to him either...isn't it enough?"

Jungkook sighs loudly.

"Can he accept me if I...If I beg him to stay with me...I am ready to do it if it means he will be with me forever." Jeon bites his lip as he squeezes Seokjin's hand and pats it gently.

"Will you...Will you tell him to understand me? You're his h-hyungie....he will do everything you'll tell him to do...he loves you a lot. Please...tell him...I will do everything for him...I can...do everything" Jeon looks down and blinked his eyes.

The deep sadness consuming the mafia to the core he feels his eyes burning in desperate tears but he held it in because...

...Jeon never showed his weakness in front of anyone other than his petal, that's his new rule.

"I love him...I love him so much. I am not lying...trust me, please...you do, believe me, right?" Jungkook looks at the unmoving Seokjin pathetically as he waited for an answer, for any sign that can give peace to his insecure heart which was in so much pain and agony.

"Please believe me...I will never...never ever hurt him...please tell him to never leave me...I won't be able to live without him" Jeon begged.

He felt exposed, vulnerable, so small yet he couldn't able to stop himself from holding himself up. He was so in deep misery to cover himself up from being so open and fragile.

The mafia let his guard down which resulted in a worse mistake.

"Baby?"

Jeon froze as his heart stop for a second at the voice of his petal.

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