Y'all remeber when I said I was lesbian? Yeah I'm actually asexual and aromantic. (istg these things are so confusing)

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It didn't take a genius to notice the ever growing distance between the Black brothers. It didn't even take someone with a lower IQ than Snape to notice. It worried James especially, because he knew neither of the brothers could've lived if it weren't for the other. This meant something had happened, something big, possibly even bigger than he could fix, but he chose to ignore the dark thought, that stood idle in the back of his racing mind. James couldn't just sit and watch the two grow apart from each other.

He had been intruduced to their relationship years ago and already then he had been amazed by the love and care the two brothers shared. He knew it had been the same from the very beginning. He remembered how Sirius had described it to him ages ago when they were still 13. ("Oh merlin Prongs, it was amazing. You wouldn't know, you don't have siblings. But just... He was there, in my arms. I was holding him for the first time and.. And it was wonderful, absolutely brilliant! I remember the feeling I had. I knew I would do everything in my power to protect him.) 

What had happened? They were so close but now neither even dared to look at the other.

"Prongs, are you alright?" Sirius tilted his head at him, "Are you even listening me?" James snapped out of his thoughts and chuckled awkwardly. "Yeah, sorry. That's awesome" he replied with a small smile and a nod. Sirius rolled his eyes, the faint happiness on his face fading away as he leaned further in to the oak bed frame. "You weren't listening to me" he stated.

James sighed and looked down, "I'll admit. Sorry. I zoned out." "Sure" Sirius muttered and crossed his arms. Sirius wasn't dumb. He had noticed how much James had zoned out around him a lot recently. Everyone was slowly betraying him and leaving him. "Hey uhm, what happened?"

Sirius tensed, "What do you mean?" "You have been so distant lately." "No I haven't" Sirius said quickly, immediately getting defensive. "I don't mean me. I mean you and Regulus. What happened? Regu-" "Don't mention his name!" Sirius yelled out.

"Pads-" "He's a traitor" Sirius hissed and sat up propely. "He betrayed me! He's one of them. Fucking mama's boy! He got the mark!"

James's eyes and mind darkened. "No... He wouldn't do that... He isn't like that" he whispered. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HIM ANYWAY?! HE'S ALWAYS BEEN THE FAVOURITE CHILD, NO SURPRISE THAT HE TURNED OUT LIKE THOSE BITCHES!"

Oh yeah. Sirius still didn't know about their relationship. James swallowed hard. He still didn't believe this. Not his Regulus. His Regulus wouldn't do that. But then again, what the hell did he know about them? Regulus could have been playing a role all along and he just would have been too dumb, and in love, to notice. It just felt too hard for him to believe any human would be so cruel.

Remus ran in and straight to Sirius. He pulled his boyfriend onto his lap and hugged him. He rubbed Sirius's back as the smaller boy started sobbing agaiinst his chest. It had been hard for Remus to believe it too. He had went to talk about it with Regulus and now understood Regulus didn't want the mark. Remus leaned close to Sirius's ear, whispering to him how it was okay. He understood well how much betrayal Sirius felt.

James decided he didn't belong into this moment and stood up. He went and wakllked to the library, already knowung who he would find from there.

Regulus was sat at one of the back tables. He seemed to be reading, but in reality he was just staring at the pages. He had been constantly zoning out ever sense their argument. James sat down next to him and wrapped his arm over his shoulders. Regulus flinched and turned to look at him quickly. He let out a breath out of relief and closed his book. He leaned against James and relaxed, letting the older rub his side and start playing with his hair. Regulus closed his eyes. He hadn't slept propely in ages.

"He hates me" Regulus whispered to the silence surrounding the two of them. "He's just very upset, but he doesn't hate you. He loves you. Can you tell me what happened?" James asked softly. Regulus sniffled and nodded. "Mother sent me a letter a couple of weeks ago and told me to visit home. But when I went home, you-know-who was there" he took a deep breath and swallowed hard, "He told me to walk over and I did. He grabbed my arm and pointed his wand at it, but I quickly pulled away. He... He-" Regulus started crying.

"Shh, baby. You don't have to tell me if it makes you uncomfotable" he whispered and kissed Regulus' head. "N- no. I want to. He told me he would hurt Sirius if I didn't let him put it on me. So when he grabbed my arm again, I didn't pull away. I just couldn't look. And J- jamie... It hurt so much!" "You are strong my love" James whispered.

Regulus sniffled again and nodded, "When I got back to Hogwarts, Barty saw my mark and yelled out 'holy shit'. It brought a lot of atenttion and soon like 10 people has seen it, before I managed to hide it. They started talking about it, and soon more people were talking about it... And now I barely leave my dorm. Every time I leave, there's someone pointing at me or people flinch and run in the opposite direction at the mere sight of me... And then Sirius found out and it all got so, so much worse... I thought he would understand, but he just kept on going about how I betrayed him. How I chose them over him..." Tears threatened to spill.

"Does he know they threatened to hurt him?" James whispered. Regulus shook his head, "I would have told him, I promise. But then he said he would've rather died than chose them. So I just kinda figured that he wouldn't really care who they were threatening. He probably hopes I was already dead. He hopes I wasn't here."

James stood and picked him up. Regulus yelped and clung to him. James walked back to their dorm and sat down on his bed.

"Why did you bring him here?!" Sirius yelled and tried to leave, but Remus was stronger and had a tight grip around his lover's waist. "I'm s- sorry.. I'll just.." Regulus tried to get up, but James wouldn't let him move. "Tell him what you just told me" James said calmly. "No! I'm not listening to this piece of shit! He betrayed me! He chose them over me!"

"I didn't want to take the mark Sirius!!" "Shut the fuck up Black!!"

Regulus started crying again and covered his ears as James pulled him closer. "Maybe, if you would let him say a word" James hissed ( Imma snake, a slithery little snake ) and glared at his best friend. "He doesn't deserve it!" "He deserves so much more than you do right now so shut the fuck up!"

Sirius froze and his eyes widened. "I knew it... Now you are betraying me aswell" he whispered. "I'm not betraying anyone. Please, stop. Stop being so selfish, this isn't about you as much as you think it is. Not everything is about you, Sirius, get that through your head. Only one is." "What do you mean?"

Regulus sniffled and turned to look at Sirius, "He said he would hurt you if I didn't let him put it on me" he whispered, "And when I tell you it hurt when it was put on me... Hurt isn't even near strong enough word to describe it. It was so fucking painful. Not only physically but because I knew this was how you would react. Shut me out and blame for something I didn't get to decide."

Sirius had never felt more guilty in his life as he stared at Regulus. Regulus's face was so broken. Tears were constantly falling; eyes red and puffy. He wondered what it had looked like when he was given the mark. He wondered if he had taken in all the pain with a smile, thinking that at least he saved Sirius. He wondered what it might have felt like having to watch the mark on your skin every moment and having to be reminded of the pain. And all only for Sirius to scream at him and victimise himself.

( this is the bit where you cry, get the tissues ready )

"I'm sorry" Sirius whispered. Regulus gave him a small nod. He might not forgive him yet, but he would eventually. One day the two brothers could be happy and together again. One day the war would be over and they could forget the past.

Maybe one day they could be happy.

Maybe in another universe they could be happy.