Alexander's POV

"HAMILTON!" I winced at the loudness.
"Yes Thomas?" I made my way towards the living room amd leaned om the door frame. "What do you need?"
"Can'ya write Jemmy another peom?" He looked towards me with his puppy eyes. He looked so adorable.
"Please????" I mumbled an ok and walked back to my room.
This is so dumb! I'm doing everything for him. But i shouldnt! I dont know. Why doesnt he love me? Am i too dumb or something? I just want him to love me back. (Guys...) I sat down at my desk and pick up my pen.
Dear James,
I couldnt bring myself to face you with my emotions. I was afraid. That you wouldnt accept me.
It sounded like a letter that i'd write to Thomas. Because it was. Just that it was for Thomas to give to James. That was how it went. I would spill my emotions onto a piece of paper. And the same feeling to be given to the person who is loved by the person that i love.
You are my everything and i cant seem to express what i feel for you phisicaly. So i'd write you letters instead. Letters that i'd thought through. Where my ink spills onto the paper.
Thomas doesnt know. He wont know. Wouldnt want to know. How i feel.
I would catch a grenade for you. I would jump infront of a car for you. I would lie, break and fake it all for you.
This is how i would heal. This is my therapy. A way that i can forget everything else.
I would do anything. My light, my life, my love. I would die for you. I would surround myself at the ocean floor. In the darkness around the waves that will blow me along the current. I would stay in the dark a bit longer.
A tear fell on the page
Hold mg breath a little longer. Live a little longer. Stay a little longer.
Another tear fell
I love you more that whatever thing can express. I would make sure you would be happy. Even if its not with me. But i would love you. If you wanted me too.

I started coughing.

I would run for you

I ran into the bathroom

I would kill for you

I kneeled infront of the toilet

I would do anything

I started vomiting

Because i love you

Petals came out of my mouth.

Even if you cant return it

"The Hanahaki disease."
---------------------------------------------------------AUTHOR'S NOTES

Welp. I remember someone asking for Alex getting deathly ill. Hehe rpg_game. Anyways. Do you want me to continue this? Its kinda sucky since i didnt proof read it but whateves. The requests are still on. So if you wanna, go ahead. Thx buddies!                                  -ANobody