"Where were you today, Kook. Don't lie." Taehyung says as they get into his place a bit later that evening.

Jungkook sighs, he was hoping he'd forget about that. "Don't get mad."

    "No promises." Taehyung says stopping and standing in front of Jungkook with his arms crossed.

Jungkook looks down at his hands. "I had to run back to my apartment to~"

    "Stop." Taehyung says holding up a finger. "Come again?"

Jungkook sighs, looking up at him. "I had to go to my apartment~"

    "Jungkook." Taehyung says, the disappointment in his eyes making Jungkook look down. "Why? Why would you do that? And alone? What were you thinking? Do you~"

    "I just had to pay my rent, Taehyung. I didn't even go inside~" Jungkook starts to defend.

    "No, no. That doesn't matter. You couldn't have waited for me to go with you?" Taehyung asks. "What if something happened to you?"

    "I'm fine, Tae. Nothing happened. See?" Jungkook says holding his arms out.

Taehyung sighs. "You should have waited for me, you know better Jungkook."

    "Tae, I wasn't gonna let anything happen. I'm not a child." The younger says crossing his arms.

The pinkette nods. "Fine. But don't do it again, please? I can't stand the thought of something happening to you, okay?"

Jungkook smiles at Taehyung's comment. "I'm sorry, I should've told you or Jin at least. I don't have any reason to go back though. Yugyeom paid the last of my rent."

Taehyung's face falls at the mention of the other man.

    "And get this." Jungkook chuckles. "He told Mr. Chan that we moved in together across town. He's insane."

Taehyung frowns as he watches Jungkook walk away, he grabs his wrist and pulls him into his arms.

Jungkook tenses up at first as his face is buried in the crook of Taehyung's neck.

He hugs him back after a moment. "What's wrong, Tae?"

    "I don't know." The model responds quietly. "I'm sorry."

    "Why are you sorry?" Jungkook asks, chuckling a bit.

Taehyung sighs, he felt like everything in his life was a fucked up mess and it was his fault.

Jungkook pulls away from the hug enough to look up at Taehyung. "What's wrong, Tae? Tell me."

Taehyung looks at Jungkook with glossy eyes, he had so much he was holding in and he wanted to just spill it.

He wanted to share the burden of his problems with someone else instead of lugging them around on his shoulders alone.

He wanted to talk to Jungkook, be open with him, laugh with him and cry with him.

He just wanted to be human for a little while, he just wanted to actually display his emotions instead of forcing his eyes to be hard and his features to be blank.

He just wanted to let someone know that he hurt just like everyone else hurt.

    "Taehyung?" Jungkook's voice says making him realize how close their faces were now.

Taehyung looks up into Jungkook's eyes and for a moment everything stops as he presses his lips against his.

Jungkook's eyes widen at first but they slowly fall shut as he kisses Taehyung back.

A single tear slips down Taehyung's cheek and for a moment he feels so vulnerable, so exposed and helpless.

He pulls away first and Jungkook's eyes open again, looking at him.

    "I'm sorry." Taehyung whispers before pulling away from Jungkook and walking away.

Jungkook stands there in shock as he watches Taehyung disappear up the stairs.

His fingers come up to his lips and he touches them, his heart beating faster as he relives the moment that occurred only seconds ago.

Jungkook experienced something he never felt before, something he thought was only made up in movies and books.

He felt sparks flying when his lips met Taehyung's.

—

Taehyung is sitting on the windowsill in his bedroom when Jungkook opens the door while knocking simultaneously.

He doesn't look over at him as he lights his last cigarette.

He'd managed to smoke a whole back in two hours, that's a new record.

Jungkook walks over to him, a cup of hot tea in his hands.

He sets the cup on the windowsill before taking the cigarette from Taehyung's fingers and putting it out in the full ashtray.

Taehyung keeps his eyes focused out of the window, chewing his lips anxiously now that his cigarette was gone.

Jungkook sits the ashtray on the ground and hands Taehyung the cup of tea.

The model takes the cup without looking up at him.

    "I'm not." Jungkook says making Taehyung look at him in confusion. "I'm not sorry. S-So you don't be sorry. Okay?"

Taehyung nods, looking back down at the cup of tea.

    "No cream or sugar." Jungkook points out with a smile.

A smile tugs at Taehyung's lips but he doesn't let it break through. "Th-Thank you."

Jungkook chuckles, he rarely ever heard Taehyung stutter. "Can I sit with you?"

Taehyung nods softly, looking back out the window.

Jungkook sits across from him and pulls his knees to his chest. "What's on your mind?"

Taehyung shakes his head. "Nothing."

    "You can tell me." Jungkook says. "I'll listen."

Taehyung bit his lip again, sure he'd listen but he wouldn't understand.

How could Jungkook understand that Taehyung was falling for him but was afraid because his heart was still longing for his toxic ex boyfriend?

How could Jungkook understand that he was so close to giving into Hoseok after years of verbal abuse and after he got him fired from his label.

How could Jungkook understand what it felt like to literally have to act emotionless in order not to let his feelings get the best of him?

Jungkook couldn't understand that, could he?

So instead of letting himself be vulnerable with Jungkook, he does the opposite. "I'm alright."

Jungkook sighs and nods. "Well, whenever you decide that you aren't alright I'll be here. Okay?"

Taehyung nods, swallowing his tears and standing up. "We should go to bed."

Jungkook nods and stands as well. "Are you sure you're okay? You're worrying me."

    "I'm fine." The model says sitting the tea on the nightstand.

Jungkook nods. "Well, c-can I stay with you tonight?"

Taehyung doesn't fight the small smile that forms on his face. "Of course."

Jungkook smiles. "I'm going to change and I'll be right back."

Taehyung nods as the other leaves the room in a hurry.

He sighs and sinks into his bed, his chest was hurt and he couldn't tell if it was because of all those cigarettes or because his heart didn't know what was going on with him.

It's like his mind and his heart haven't been on one accord.

Jungkook returns wearing some of the pajamas Taehyung had lended him, he smiles and climbs into his side of the bed.

    "I think I deserve to be the big spoon, just for one night." He says holding his arms open.

    "You'll just end up being the little spoon." Taehyung says, rolling his eyes even though he wasn't upset.

    "Come, come." Jungkook says waving him over.

Taehyung sighs and scoots over into Jungkook's arms, letting the other hold him.

    "Good night, Taehyung." Jungkook says in a hushed voice.

    "Good night, Kook."

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