I cried when he left. I understand the fact that she still has a place in his heart because she was his first love, but this? This is unforgivable. Maybe my senses were right when I was thinking that we should've been doing what we almost did. Come to think of it.. Each time that we've tried to get a little more intimate with each other, there'd always be an interruption.. The phone ringing, me saying no, him saying no, and now this? That has to be God try'na save me from another disaster.. So this could either mean one of two things.. Actually three..

1.) We're moving too fast.

2.) He still loves Courtney but won't admit to it.

3.) We're just not meant to be together..

Worst case scenario is that I find out that we're not even supposed to be together or he actually goes out and starts to cheat on me with Courtney. Then I would have a few months of my life wasted on another boy whom I thought was a man.

~Trevor~

Yep.. I fucked up.. Real bad.. I tried to calm her down, but that only made things worst. I could tell that she was gonna cry but she was holding back the tears so that I wouldn't see her cry. I shook my head as my Grandma's words echoed in my head. "Are you sure about that?" And here I am, doing just as she said I would..

The start of it all is mental. Allowing another person to enter your ever thought is where things begin to happen. But I know what I'm gonna do. I pulled out my phone and looked at my lock screen. It was me and Autumn. I was holding her while kissing her forehead and she was smiling while looking directly into the camera. I'm not giving this relationship up for the world. Even if that means giving up everything I have..

"I can't do this. I can write the play and work on the music for it, but I refuse to be the leading man." ~Trevor

I sighed as I looked at the message that I was about to send. Why give it a second thought? Just do it. I thought to myself. So I did and started the car to head back to my Uncle's house. When I got there, I went straight to the studio and turned my music up. The sound of my own voice was making me delusional cause all I could see were images of Autumn and I dancing in here.

Our first dance, kiss and her first time meeting Diggy. This all played a role in my mind. Especially when I found out that she had a thing going for me when she was on the phone with Nicole.. I couldn't focus enough to dance to my own music, so I let the radio play any random song on my uncle's playlist and the first song was Trade It All by PJ Morton. That song spoke what was in my head and I sat in anger with myself.

And that's when it hit me. I knew why I had called Courtney's name instead of Autumn's. It was God punishing me for not waiting until Autumn and I to get married in order to go through with having sex. My Grandma had even warned me about God's mysterious works and taking things too fast in my relationships. I'm gonna have to pray and then pray even harder that Autumn doesn't shut me out completely.

~Nicole~

I woke up with the feeling that everything was secure but something was slightly off. I looked over at my hand to make sure that what I think happened last night was real and it was. I put my head back down and that's when I felt hands rubbing my back. I looked up and there he was, smiling with his tired eyes.

Diggy: Good morning, beautiful.

I smiled before looking over at the clock. 12:32PM I laughed lightly as I stretched.

Nicole: It's afternoon.

He shrugged.

Diggy: I say that it's morning when my beauty wakes up. Cause you're the start of my day.

He said as he lightly pinched my cheek, causing me to blush. I pushed his hand away from my face and he held my hand.

Diggy: I Love You..

Nicole: I Love You Too.

He bit his bottom lip and I could tell that he was very tired.

Diggy: You wanna start the day off with a kiss?

I nodded as I sat up.

Nicole: I think I can do that.

His hands held the sides of my face and then he went in for the kiss. His smile warmed my heart and then all of sudden, he gained an amazing amount of energy to jump out of bed.

Diggy: Okay, let's go.

Nicole: Go? Go where?

Diggy: The gym.

I groaned as I sprawled out on the bed.

Nicole: I don't wanna go..

Diggy: Then don't. Nobody's stopping you.

Nicole: Fine. You gotta take me back home anyway.

I shot back at him. He looked at me and sighed.

Diggy: Come on babe..

Nicole: Nope.

He bent down to my level and began to plead.

Diggy: Babe, pleeeease?

Nicole: Mmm.. No.

Diggy: Please?

Nicole: No.

Diggy: How bout now?

Nicole: Let me check.. Mm, no. No and no.

He sighed and sat on the bed.

Diggy: Fine. I guess we won't go today.

Nicole: I mean, you can go. But I'm not. My muscles are sore.

Diggy: Then let me work my magic.

Nicole: Diggy, what are you talkin' abo-?

I was interrupted with the pleasure of my back being rubbed. My eyes rolled back and I put my head down.

Diggy: You like it, baby?

Nicole: Why are you so good to me?

I moaned as he chuckled.

Diggy: Because I Love You.

He leaned down and kissed my cheek before continuing to rub my back. My eyes shot open and I sat up.

Diggy: Damn, Nicole!

Nicole: I'm sorry Digg. I just remembered that I have to call Autumn to check on her.

Diggy: Okay. Well, make the call and see what she says.

I grabbed my phone and dialed the number. No answer.. So I called again.. Still no answer..

Nicole: If this chick don't answer the damn phone..

I sighed.

Diggy: Calm down, baby.

She didn't answer and then I knew.. I knew I had to go see what was wrong. I stood up and put my shoes on.

Nicole: Diggy, take me home. Now.

Diggy: What's wrong babe?

Nicole: Nevermind that. Just take me, right now.

He didn't hesitate to grab his keys, but his emotions were now going south. I was silent the whole ride and when I finally got home, Diggy locked the doors before I could jump out.

Nicole: What?

Diggy: I Love You.

I managed to give him a small grin before nodding and getting out the car.

Nicole: I Love You Too.

Diggy: Can I kiss my Queen?

Nicole: Quickly.

He nodded as he leaned in and kissed my lips. Afterwards, I jumped into my car and got on the road to Autumn's house.