Straight after school, I went to Autumn's place. When I knocked, Nicole answered and I didn't know what to expect. After reading her text, I was slightly terrified.

"The fuck did u do 2 my sister?" ~Nicole

"I'll tell you when I get outta class." ~Trevor

Nicole: Nigga, I'm about two seconds away from bustin' a cap in yo ass. So you betta have a damn good reason as to why my sister is upstairs crying her eyes out.

Crying? Aw hell.. I sighed and shook my head.

Trevor: We were about to have sex and then I.. I called her by a different name..

Nicole: Who's name?

Trevor: Courtney..

I mumbled. Nicole cupped her ear.

Nicole: Who's?

Trevor: I called her Courtney. It was an accident, Nicole! I swear! I Love Autumn! You know I do! And I know I messed up, but please..

I couldn't find the right words to say after that and she let me in afterwards.

Nicole: Sit yo ass down and I'll be back in a little bit.

I nodded and she left.

~Autumn~

I can't believe I believed his bullshit about how much he loves me! And the fact that I almost gave it to him is even worst! Why can't I just have what Nicole has? Someone who loves me and doesn't want me for sex.. What is so wrong with that? Is that too much to ask for? My door opened and in walked Nicole.

Nicole: Hey Lizy..

She smiled at me, but I was in no mood to smile.

Autumn: Nicy, I don't know what to do.. I loved him so much..

Then I paused, realizing something.

Autumn: But maybe that's my problem..

Nicole: What?

Autumn: I put him first for everything and didn't even take care of myself fully because of how much I valued him.

I nodded and sat up.

Autumn: Yeah, that's it. All I have to do is put myself first! Is that what you do Nicy? You put yourself first?

Nicole: I mean I do, but I still focus on his needs too.

I looked down at my hands before falling back into my bed.

Autumn: Can you go make me some chicken noodle soup?

Nicole: Not this time, Lizy.

Autumn: Why not?

I crossed my arms.

Nicole: Because you're coming with me.

Autumn: Hey! Nicole!

She picked me up out of bed and dragged me downstairs. She put me down in the kitchen. The floor made my body shiver, so I stood on my toes. But the cold quickly became my last concern as she placed her hands on my shoulders and looked into my eyes with nothing but seriousness.

Nicole: Autumn Elizabeth Summers.. You are going to hate me for this, but then you'll thank me later for it..

Autumn: What did you do?

My eyes narrowed and she sighed as she shook her head.

Nicole: Listen.. All I have to say to you is that the best thing for you right now is to eat soup, but to also talk things out with Trevor.

Autumn: Nicole, you better not be saying that he's here.

Nicole: I don't have to. All you have to do is look.

My eyes traveled to the living room and my blood began to boil.

Autumn: I will not speak with him.

Nicole: Sure you won't.

I said as I began to open the can of soup.

Autumn: Nicole, I'm telling you that I won't do it!

Nicole: Uh huh. Keep lying. Trevor!

Autumn: Bitch, shut up!

I whined.

Nicole: Hush up and sit yo ass down.

She said as he came into the kitchen. I glared at her with my arms crossed.

Autumn: No.

I tried to leave but for some odd reason, I couldn't move past the opening to the kitchen. So I just stood there and then I got so frustrated that I started to cry silently again. But I didn't want to cry. I saw no point in crying over something that doesn't care about how many tears I cry. But then I felt his hands. They stayed on my shoulders and for a while, all I could do was focus on his breathing. Our breath became one and pretty soon, I was able to stop my tears.

Autumn: Why?

I began.

Autumn: Why do you insist on being here?

Trevor: I don't want to give you the bullshit that you expect about me still loving you, which is true, by the way.. But I just want to know that my love still loves me, still wants me and forgives me.

I stayed quiet before shaking my head.

Autumn: You know what Trevor, no. Don't touch me. Ain't no telling where yo hands been.

He took his hands off of my shoulders as he took in a deep breath.

Trevor: I'm not gonna say anything, because you're right. But I want you to know that if we are officially over with, then I want you to know that I truly do love you and that I'm nothing like who you think I am. Okay?

I nodded and looked to the side before turning towards him. But I kept my head down.

Autumn: Trevor..

I sighed.

Autumn: Trevor, I Love You. I really do.. I just can't risk my heart getting hurt again..

Trevor: Whatever you decide is fine by me.. Well.. Not entirely, but I respect your decision.

I nodded before I finally looked up at him.

Autumn: I just want us to have so much together.. I wanna feel alive, I wanna feel morning, I wanna feel the rush that I get of waking up to your face in the morning..

I could've had him any way I wanted to at that moment, but I crushed it.

Autumn: But that moment could never be if I wake up to a man who cheats.

He let it sink in before responding.

Trevor: Do you trust me?

I shrugged.

Autumn: I don't know anymore..

Trevor: Just know that our love will thrive because it was built on trust. Not lust.. We'll just take this one day at a time and see where we go. Okay?

I nodded, but my mind was somewhere else between him and me. I wanted to just have the simple "Kiss & Make Up" but I can't just do that. Too easy..

Autumn: Okay..

I felt his hand on the side of my face and I didn't know if I should just stand there or turn away.

Trevor: I Love You.

I hesitated.

Autumn: I can't say what I don't feel.

He nodded

Trevor: I understand that, but how can you say that you don't feel something when you've already said that you do.

I couldn't speak. I was caught up in my own words that I, myself, had twisted. I Love this man, and yet, I don't.. Or don't I? His hands soon were interlaced with mine and our lips were locked solid like white on rice. He wasn't going anywhere. Maybe I do Love him.. I just don't like him all that much.. But that can't be since we're kissing. When we stopped kissing, I looked down. I was about to speak, but Nicole beat me to it.

Nicole: Nigga, don't you get my sister pregnant!

Trevor smiled down at me and I couldn't hide the pleasantness of that thought either.

Nicole: And if you do, yo ass betta marry her!

Trevor: Don't worry, Nicole. I will.. Believe me.

His eyes traveled back down to me as his smile carried us into another part of the world.. This man was my everything..

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Honestly, I don't think I'm gonna end it on chapter 50.. I think I'll stick it out until the 60th chapter.. But I might can he my mind too.. Depending on what happens with Jacob and Autumn next chapter.. (Hint, hint)

So, just comment and I'll see if I feel like making a new book cover..

Much Love,

~LadyPerez