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Ellie

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The service ended a few minutes ago and everyone was in line to speak to Jon. I had seen the little scene between Andy and Jon and I smiled at the blush that overpowered her face when he had tugged her into him. They looked amazing together and I couldn't help but feel a sudden pang at knowing I had something like that - but not anymore.

During the whole service, I was watching Nate. Knowing that he was perfectly fine after the fire that destroyed his home set my erratic mind on ease. I haven't heard or seen him in two days. And those two days were like hell.

Every night of those two days I was at our spot, one minute past midnight, hoping Nate would come and see. Come and try to fix us. But it was all wishful thinking as I spent hours outside in the cold, freezing away.

"I'm just going to say something to Jon." Shar said from next to me, his eyes trailing over the line. I looked up at my best friend, wondering why he would exactly do that. I knew everything that was going on with him and Andy and why he'd put himself through all of it was something I could not grasp yet.

"And why would you say hello to the boy that has the girl that you love?" I asked him, not looking away from his face.

Shar glanced down at me, looking at me with his shades still on. "Did Andy tell you?" He asked slowly.

I shook my head at him. "I know you Shar. And may hide from the world with your shades on but they don't help you hide from me."

Shar kept looking at me, a rueful expression stuck on his face. "She wants him, Ellie. I'm not going to take that away from her."

I nodded slowly and waited for him to carry on. Because I knew there was a 'but'. There always was.

"But I'll be waiting for her. For months. For years. I'll be waiting." And with that, my determined best friend walked away.

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They were both arguing. I had spotted them a few minutes ago after I had lost them in the crowed over twenty minutes ago. Ghost was saying something to Nate and Nate's face clouded. Ghost turned on his heel and before I could even think to run, he was walking towards me.

I shrunk back on my heels and I couldn't move from my spot. I wanted to get away, as far away from Nate. For two days we hadn't seen each other and it killed me knowing he hated me. Knowing my father was to blame for the fire but all of Nate's fingers were pointed towards me.

He hated me and I deserved every single thing that was aimed towards me.

Ghost was standing before me, an unreadable expression on his face. He was quiet, watching me carefully. I struggled to find the right words to say but then I decided to fall on the easiest thing to say.

"Ghost, I am so sorry. I didn't mean for all of that to happen and I had this massive falling out with my Father. I haven't spoken to him and I will go to the police. So please forgive me. I can't deal with knowing you hate me as well." I dropped my head, biting the insides of my cheeks to stop the tears from falling.

I half expected Ghost to scoff and turn around but when he spoke the following words, I was taken aback. "You're an incredible person Ellie and I'm sorry for being rude." I snapped my head up at him, my vision blurring slightly.

"I'm really sorry." He said, a sincere look on his face. I tried my best to contain my squeal and shot him a relieved smile. That meant a lot to me.

I put my hands on his shoulder and planted a soft kiss on his cheek. "Thank you." I whispered and pulled back.

Ghost smiled down at me and opened his mouth to say something when he was harshly interrupted. Nate was suddenly in between and he turned his head and possible shot Ghost a furious look. Both of Ghost's eyebrows raised up but before I could protest, Nate grabbed my arm and dragged me away.

I had to try everything in me to not stumble with my heels on as Nate dragged me away from the crowd. I kept quiet as he pulled me all the way out of the cemetery, across the road and then behind a building.

"You know, if you wanted to talk in private you could have just said-" I said but was cut short when Nate flickered around and pushed me against the brick wall. Hard.

Oh my Flowers.

"Oh my -" I gasped out loud but Nate interjected me quickly, pressing himself against me. I tried to ignore it all but how could I when I could feel every part of his body?

"Flowers?" He said unkindly, glaring down at me.

What the hell gotten into him?

"You know, you shouldn't push me against the wall. It actually hurt." It really didn't hurt but I just wanted to say something. Nate kept his bright blue eyes locked on mine but he didn't say anything. I expected him to apologize like Ghost did but anyone could tell that wasn't coming. At all.

I swallowed down audibly and stuck my chin out, showing Nate that I was not afraid of him. I might have been afraid of him when I first met him but now I wasn't.

"If you don't have anything to say, let me go." I told him sternly.

He still didn't reply and I growled softly under my breathe. "Nate, I said. Let. Me. Go."

When he didn't move I decided to take matters in my own hand. I put both my hands on his chest and pushed. Hard.

But he didn't budge.

Don't provoke him... Good Ellie whispered in my ear.

I say you pinch his balls... Trouble Ellie said in my other ear.

"Nate..." I drew out angrily. 

"I'm not letting go of you. I said I wouldn't and I'm not."

I reared back at his words, feeling a blast of newfound anger. How could he say that when just two days ago he looked at me with pure hatred and never gave me the chance to explain. Even though I had nothing to explain.

"You let me go that night of the fire." I reminded him, not aware of the tears that were pouring down my face. Oh get a grip Ellie!

Nate tightened his lips in a line and I knew I caught him there. He did let me go. I felt his hands on my cheek, his thumb caressing me across my jaw line. I slightly leaned into his touch, missing everything we once had.

"I was angry."

I closed my eyes.

"And I was blind."

My throat closed up.

"And I was hurt."

My whole body shook.

"And things get ugly before they get beautiful."

Indeed they do.

"And I love you."

A fresh round of tears took over me and I dropped my head on his shoulder, grabbing the front of his shirt and pulling him closer. Nate put his hands around my waist and clutched me tightly into him, his head in between my neck and shoulder. I felt his lips press a kiss at the naked spot and I quivered.

"Two days I hated myself for what you thought of me," I told him, not picking up my head. "I haven't spoken to my Father and he did it, he even admitted it last night and Nate, I am going to help sue his ass." I was babbling over my tears, sniffing over the words. 

Nate leaned back only to plant a kiss on my lips. He pulled back almost instantly and I felt annoyed at the sudden loss of his touch. "I don't even care anymore as long as Ghost and I are safe. And that I got you back."

I looked up in his eyes and saw the utter devotion in them. Who knew that we would make it? And maybe we haven't. Maybe there's something right around the corner, waiting to tear us apart but I was going to fight. I was prepared to fight for anything because I deserved it. I deserved happiness for once and I sure as flowers deserved Nathaniel Lewis.

"I love you too."

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Trust me, I wanted to write more but I'm really tired. Updating all four of the Garments Series, considering I was writing them all today,  all after each other with a matter of hours between them is kind of draining. My butt is hurting from sitting down for so long aha. 

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