CRUEL SUMMER

- Matthew's POV from A Summer To Remember - 12/04/2020

Genre: Teen Fiction

Short Sequel of A Summer To Remember

Matthew Andrada's Point of View

I was just staring at her all night. The only source of light is the light coming from the window.

She's like a fallen angel. She makes my heart beat go crazy whenever she is near. She can be the death of me, but whenever she's around I feel so alive.

She was doubting herself because of my parents. I didn't like that.

My parents wanted the best for me. They want the best woman for me.

They didn't know that Vanessa is the perfect woman for me.

I removed my gaze from her and stare at my bags on his bedroom floor.

Aalis ako. Lumayas ako kasi hindi ko na kaya ang pang-kokontrol ng mga magulang ko sa akin.

I want to bring Vanessa with me. But I understand her reaction and decision, I also respect it. Family always comes first.
But for me, she will always come first.
It's hard to fell inlove when you're too young. I'm matured enough to learn about what I feel, but when you're young, people will assume that you know nothing. They will assume that this is all because of curiosity, that I don't know what love really is.

What I feel for Vanessa is not just love. It's beyond everything they think and what I think. I feel more for her.

I sighed. My plan was to ran away. Hindi lang iyon ang gagawin ko.

My parents decided to force me into a marriage. Of course I denied it. But there's always a price to pay. Kapag hindi ako pumayag, my parents would make their lives miserable.

I know my parents, they are capable of doing anything to satisfy them. Hindi ko kayang makitang lumalangoy na sa putik ang pamilya ni Vanessa, most of all, not because of me and my selfishness.
I'm letting her go.

I'm letting the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I'm setting free the woman who can only make me feel the way I'm feeling today and forevermore.

I was lying when I told her that we would still meet at the same spot that we always spent our time with. Alam kong pupunta siya doon bukas, but I can't show myself to her anymore.

Because I know if I do, I won't be able to control myself. Isasama ko siya sa akin. Wala siyang kawala sa akin. And that idea is good but I was thinking about all the consequences after we leave everything behind.

Everyone would hate us. Maraming maa-apektuhan.

I kissed her forehead and brought my hand into her hair.

I think, her best asset is her hair. It's straight, black and smooth. I love it, like how I love her so much.

Tumayo ako pagkatapos tapunan ng mga halik ang noo niya. I looked at her lips. Looks like I wouldn't taste it anytime soon.
Iniwan ko muna ang mga bagahe ko sa paanan ng kama niya at lumabas sa kwarto niya, gamit ang pintuan.

I think her parents are still awake. The television down stairs is still open.
Pagkababa ko ng hagdan ay na-alarma ang mga tao dito at agad na naghanap ng pang-depensa.

Van's mom went for the lights, while his dad was looking for his... Gun!

"Shit," I groaned when it hit at my side.
Not the side of my body, but in the wall. Just inches from me.

The gun has a freaking silencer!
As soon as the lights went on, I saw her parents giving me a terrified and angry look.

"Wait- Matthew?" her mom called out as she went near me.

"Tita..."

"Where did you came from?" she asked me as she guided me to the sofa.

"Upstairs-"

"Oh no, you didn't!" her father shouted and pointed me his gun.

"Put the gun down, Valencio!" Tita warned her husband.

"But, Imelda! That boy came from upstairs! Of course he came from my daughter's room!"

"Tito-"

"Don't call me that, boy! Tell me, what the hell did you do with my daughter?" he asked with rage.

"I didn't do anything with your daughter, tito-"

"Don't call me tito! I gave you my trust and-"

"Tito, please... Just listen to me," I kept my cool in this.

Damn their family. Bakit hindi sila nagpapatapos ng sentence ko.

"You better have a good escape on this, or your 'stick' would be hanging on the dog's house," he warned.

That gave me chills, from back to front.
"That's not a good sight to see, so you must start talking now, every second counts," he glared at me.

I inhaled and explained everything.

"I will be gone po, I just want to say... If Van tries searching for me, stop her."

They looked at me in disbelief.

"Where are you going?" tita asked me.

"Anywhere. Kailangan ko po ito. If I don't, my parents would do something... Something that I will be the one to blame," sabi ko habang naalala ang mga sinabi ng magulang ko.

"You don't have to-"

"I have to, tita," I cut her off.

Buo na ang desisyon ko. I'm doing this for Vanessa and I. Papakawalan ko siya.
I know someday she'll move on. She will meet someone, even better than me. Who can be that selfish just for her. And if that day comes, I will be happy for her.

"If that's what you want. Don't worry, she is our daughter, we will do anything for her," sabi ni tito at tumango sa akin.

"Matthew... My daughter will be sad," iyak ni tita sa akin.

I know, tita. I would kill myself if I'm the reason why, but I have no choice. I can't risk being happy while your family suffers.
Bumalik ako sa taas para kunin ang gamit ko. And maybe say my last goodbye to the beautiful woman I have ever met.
I don't think that I'm capable of looking at another woman after her. She's everything to me.

She was still sleeping heavily at her bed. Yakap niya ang isang mahabang unan habang nakatagilid.

She was smiling at her sleep like she was dreaming about nice things. I hope I am that nice thing.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at umupo sa tabi niya.

I bend down and gave her a kiss on her forehead... and lips.

It lasted for a minute, a minute that I would miss. The best minute of my life, also the worse minute of it, too.

This is not really goodbye, Van. This is just temporary. Once you're over me, I'll be back, and probably I'm still freaking crazy inlove with you.

Inayos ko muna ang inupuan ko at huling binigyan siya ng tingin.

"I love you so much," I whispered and took my bags from her bedroom floor.

I left their house almost teary-eyed.
Pinagana ko agad ang makina ng kotse ko at nag-maneho palayo sa lugar nila.

I wasn't really paying attention at the road. I know this might lead to an accident but I can't help but overthink.

I turned the radio on and didn't really even payed any attention to what it was playing.
Hindi ko alam bakit pero napatingin ako sa passenger seat. Her smiles and laughs screams it all. Bawat parte ng kotse ko siya ang laman, pati na ang isip ko ay sakop niya.

Accidentally, I saw her hairband in the passenger seat.

Dinampot ko ito at tinitigan.
I didn't know what happened next, biglang nagkaroon ng malaking crash, na-apektuhan ako doon.

Pakiramdam ko ako ang naipit. Hindi ko talaga alam ang nangyari. Basta ang alam ko naka-ipit ako at ang kotse ko ay sira na.

"I don't know anything but I know I miss you..." the radio last played before it exploded with fire.

I was almost burning with it.

Napangiti nalang ako sa kawalan at ang mukha ni Vanessa ang huling pumasok sa isip ko. I think I need to sleep.

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