You know, at this point, I'm probably just going to update at random... but let's say this...I am extraemos mad. My mom is now finding any excuse to yell at me, even when I didn't do anything! I won't go into detail, but at this point this book became a thing where I can express feelings and most have been angry ones. I'm sorry for those who have been here the whole time having to read about my problems when there may be others who have it worse.

But I decided to write a bit of a journal today, maybe in song form...I don't know yet
But here goes nothing...hope you enjoy....

You ever get the feeling you're being underestimated?
Do you ever just...feel like getting in a while so no one would find you?
At times like these..I feel like it would be no different if I wasn't around
But I'm not stupid enough to just die...no way
I just want people to understand what I feel, what I see in my eyes
No one around me seems to understand what I feel, let alone even try to see what I feel.
Many just find other excuses to make it seem like they are the ones having it worse...when maybe they aren't
You know...I can't keep up these smiles anymore...
Am I that much of a disappointment?
Why do people act...as if I'm not...I know this world probably knows I am but fails to say...
Why...why did they give me hope?
Everything seems to go wrong...nothing goes right. I feel alone at this point...
When will you come? At times like these I feel those demons surrounding me...but I won't let them in. God...why can't this madness stop!? I can't take it anymore! I don't understand...there's no point in this! What are you making me learn...what is the purpose of these. God...what now....

Sorry for all that depressing stuff, seems to me my mom still thinks I'm such a disappointment for the smallest thing...and now for everything I guess according to my mom. I hope you guys just won't hang up on me, but pleas do share anything you want...have a great day...and maybe wish me luck for the rest of mine...