So this is my first time writing a story and letting others read. This is a story of who I am and who I want to be. This is about my past and my future. It's all about me!!

There is a song I hope you enjoy it. You can hear it while reading of after, but im warning you, the song is Christian if you are not comfortable with Christians or dont like hearing thier songs then I'd suggest you dont read my story and not listen to the song.

Here we go!!!

What's it like to have such a wonderful yet harrible life? What's it like to be loved or not to be loved?

It all started when I was a little girl. I wasn't sure what life ment, but when I turned 4, thats when I started to understand. I had a friend, who wasn't really my friend. By that, I mean that she wasn't my friend at all. She was kind to me at first, but a few days later she would tell me she was not my friend. And after that she said she was, then she wasn't, then she was, well you get the piont. My life was not as pretty as any other. Well, that was at the beginning of it all.

When I was 4, my dad would mistreat my mom. Of course I cant give you much details, but ill tell you what I've heard from my brother and mother. My brother would always tell me that he would protect us, and that he would get hurt. My brother has 3 dads. His first dad left, and his second dad was my real dad. He left as well, but here is what I've heard about him. So my dad left because he was with someone else and never really loved us. My mom would always lock me and my older siblings in our room so nothing bad would happen. I don't remember anything else, but I will say eventually my dad left and never came back. After a couple of days, my step dad (witch I think as a real dad) came and admired what my mom did (ya know when she lock us up for our safety). Eventually he married my mom and here we are now. There the good and the bad times. There some hings that me and my sis did that was soooooo bad, that we had no phone for about 3 months. And we have to turn them in at 7pm or there will punishment. You're all probably curious about what we did, but thats top secret. And it will ALWAYS stay a secret.

Now, I wouldn't want to bore you and all but ill tell you about myself. Ok so starting with my age, I just turned 14 on may 15. Um, I love music and god, and when they are both combined together, it makes my world explode. Im an anime freak, I love anime especially fairy tail!!! I sing and would love to lear how to play the guitar. I also play the clarinet. I use to play the violen, but that was 2 years ago when I was in the 6th grade. I still love the violen, but I forgot how to play it. What can I say, I forget stuff easily. Im shy when I first talk to someone, but after you get to know me, I tend to gat alittle weird. Ok im not being honest, I get a lot wierd. I'll be funny at pionts and some of my jokes are so lame that they sre laught at how lame they are. Sometimes there may be awkward moments between me and my friends, but in the end, we end up laughing it all off. My friends are the best friends in the world. To me, they are like family. If it weren't for them, then I don't know what might be of me now. When it comes to my friends, I'll do anything for them, and I tend to get pissed off if people bully them. I might want to protect them, but when it comes to me, im just weak and can't do anything for myself at all.If they weren't here for me I'd probably loose all of my confidence by now. They are the ones who helped k ow who I really am. They are the reason why I'm still standing here. And why im not afraid anymore. Oh. Ut highschools coming so I'll probably be likely to get bullied. Im too nice, and way too soft on people. Besides, no , atter what they say I almost can't say no. The reason why I was bullied for so manny years was because imlet them, amd because I was too kind. I have been bullied non-stop until it all stopped in 8th grade. I can say 8th grade was the best year of my life. When I was young I would be too shy to speak, and I was weak too. Not to mention I was a goodie to shoes and I still am. When there is work I have to do, ill do it. When I see someone alone I try to build up my confidence and speak to them hoping we can become friends. See, im too nice, and I would always wonder, what would happen if I wasn't this nice, and if I was completely the opposite of who I am now?

~End of chapter 1~

Hi guys!!! How was the story? Its my first time writting so I wouldn't know much. Tell me what you think about my story so far. Aks me questions, or tell me some advice so I can inprove my story, or maybe you want to get to know me better. Its up to you. And I would love to hear some oppions of yours!!! And thx for reading see you next chapter! !!!! Can't wait