Waking up yawning I raise my hands above my head yawning, I slouch back looking around at my plain house. It would be nice to get a paint job and maybe new furniture... maybe. I should do my nails... a pretty dark blue with sparkles? Yeah, good idea, I'm hungry... french toast and coffee... no cocoa. I finally realize my surroundings. 

" Bedroom..?" I say, and I just sit there and think, I don't remember. " I'm so bad with remembering things..." say as I drag my feet across the room and grab the control to the living room, and I press play. Hold on by En Vouge starts playing at a nice volume for the morning. Yawning again I walk down to the kitchen and start making french toast, the music playing softly, this is going to be a good day. I take a bite of a piece of french toast and I lick my lips, and I remember Rin and I... Kissed. My cheeks grow red, how could I forget something like that?

" Morning." Ben comes downstairs with a smile on his face after yawning. " I slept really well last night, that bed was perfect!" he sounds as enthused as a child getting a stuffed animal. 

" I'm plad... haha I meant I'm glad... oh, want some?" I ask as I show him the french toast. He nods like an excited child, I making everyone breakfast. Like nothing happened last our day went on without any embarrassing moments. I guess my life isn't like a movie though, but it would be getting friends huge unexpected gifts and playing it off cool. But it's not and I'm happy who would want a perfect life, yeah one a bit better than it is but not totally perfect.

Weeks passed and people I know are starting to die, it's really out of the blue. First, it was my cousin Raisin then it was an uncle, Uncle Ragan, somehow related to me. Everyone in my family isn't too close because of so many personal reasons so knowing my uncle's aunts and cousins it's hard knowing how may people know who. People on the west coast only talk and hang out with the people of the west cost. On the east coast, they only do the same only a few people in the family want to reach out to get the family together but it won't ever happens. People I know are too self-centered to get along with everyone, the last time we had a family picture was when I was like four.  

Rin and I are starting to get along very well, sometimes after work ben cooks us a little something and other times we eat at my house. He took me out on a date the other day and it was very fun, he took me to the movies and then we went to the town fair, the yearly fair. He won me a big fluffy zebra at a toss ball game. and he bought be cotton candy, he was just so kind and it was a lot of fun but someone wanted to start a fight and Rin and to break the guys up, and he got hit now he has a big shiner on his cheek. 

I don't know for sure if Rin and I are dating but Ben still tries to make moves on me, next week he's supposed to take me on a date somewhere but I don't know yet. He did say back in high school that no matter what that he would always express his love for me until I got married. I was so sad that I had to say no to him back then but I only thought of his and a friend, then I was still thinking moving so my emotion wasn't all there. but I can't believe after all these years that his feeling didn't change, it's kinda cute.