school is out for christmas break.

i haven't seen you since before thanksgiving.

i don't feel good all the time.

like this permanent nauseous feeling in my gut.

i texted you a merry christmas.

you texted back a simple "merry christmas" in return.

you've never done that before,

but at least you replied,

which is something you haven't done in a while.

usually we spend the holidays at each other's family's,

and we exchange gifts.

i got you something,

but i don't think you got me anything.

i'll mail it to you, i guess.

christmas doesn't feel like christmas for me without you.

sasha invited me to her christmas party, though.

i guess i'll go.

if only to stop thinking about you.