Third Person's POV

"Hyung, please save Jimin-hyung!"

Sunoo shouted in horror as he watches his Hyung performs CPR on Jimin. Kibum has been compressing Jimin's chest for a minute now. Sunoo already had called the ambulance. Tumitingin ito sa paligid impatiently, he was desperate and wants the ambulance to get in there. He stared back at Jimin, clasping his hands, praying.

"Please," Mahina niyang sambit habang pinagmamasdan ang nag-aagaw buhay nitong kaibigan at nang hindi na niya makayanan na tumingin dito ay yumuko na lamang ito. When he heard the sound of coughing ay agad itong nag-angat ng ulo and sees Jimin coughing out the water. Saglit itong napatigil at nananiti sa pwesto niya. Sunoo let out a sob, he was relieved. Jimin was saved, he is alive.

"Jimin, oh god, what have you done?" Natauhan siya nang marinig ni Sunoo ang boses ng Kuya niya and instantly went to assist Jimin but the older shove him away. Tumayo si Jimin at tinignan ang dalawang magkapatid- he was looking at them with despise look on his face.

"You should've let me kill myself." Mahina niyang sambit ngunit punong-puno ng galit. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin makapaniwala si Kibum sa nangyayari, lalo na kay Jimin. Jimin tried to commit suicide, the one who actually saved him from killing himself. He can't swallow it in, he was in shock.

"Hyung, don't go, let's wait for the ambulance-" Napatigil si Sunoo sa pagsasalita nang makita si Jimin na naglalakad pabalik sa dagat, agad niyang hinabol ito at pilit na hinihila pabalik. Nakahawak ito sa bewang ni Jimin, he wasn't planning on letting him go.

"Bitawan mo ako." He was in tears while saying that at pilit na inaalis ang pagkakahawak sakanya ni Sunoo. "Tangina, Sunoo. Hayaan niyo na 'ko." He says tiredly, he was pleading with him to let him do whatever he wanted.

"Hyung, please stop!" Tumingin ito sa kapatid niya. "Kibum-hyung, what are you doing?! Tulungan mo ako dito!" That snaps him out of his trance and rushes towards where they are. Nakita niya kung paano itulak ni Jimin ang kapatid niya causing him to fall on the water.

"Hyung, dalian mo, ano ba!" Sermon ng kanyang kapatid.

Nasa may bewang na nila ang tubig nang hilain niya si Jimin sa may braso niya.

"Don't do it, Jimin-ah." Jimin tried to escape from his grasp, but Kibum only tightened it.

"Stop this, Jimin!" Sigaw niya. He was trying to put sense to Jimin. The younger stops in his trance.

"You know exactly how it feels, you've been there." Kibum felt his chest tightened, the very person who he owes his life, the person who made him want to live, was now trying to kill himself. Kibum stood his ground.

"Pathetic," Kibum spat out, "How could a person kills themselves for such thing? That's what your face says when you look at me after trying to kill myself." He continues, Jimin's lips were trembling but swallowed everything.

"Let go." He warned Kibum.

"You were looking at me with disgust, Jimin! What the fuck are you doing right now?!"

"Do you know why you disgust me? You wanted to kill yourself but then you held onto me tightly- you wanted to be saved! you wanted to live!" Kibum's hold loosened, Jimin pulls his arm back harshly.

"We're different, Kibum. I don't need saving." Tumalikod na ito't nag lakad palayo. Kibum circled his arm around Jimin's body and forcefully drag him back, Jimin tries to escape from his hold, but Kibum didn't budge- determined to bring Jimin back, ignoring his cries.

"You could've just let me die that night but you didn't, I'm just returning you the favor."

Kibum withdrew his hold from Jimin as they step on the ground. Agad namang naglakad palayo sakanila si Jimin. Hinabol naman siya agad ni Sunoo at sumunod sakanila ang Kuya nito.

Sunoo felt his heart twist in pain while watching Jimin walking absentmindedly with no shoes on. Bigla itong bumagsak kaya naman agad silang lumapit sa tabi nito.

"Hyung,"

Tinawag ito ni Sunoo ulit ngunit hikbi lamang ang sinagot nito. Kibum ended up giving him a piggyback ride and the younger eventually fall asleep in his back.

***

"Gising kana."

Napatingin si Jimin sa kanyang kanan at nakita nito si Kibum at napagtanto nitong nasa pamamahay siya ng magkapatid. Bumukas ang pintuan at bumungad sakanya si Sunoo. Nagmadali itong tumabi kay Jimin.

"Hyung," Naluluha nitong sambit at hinawakan ang kamay ni Jimin. Both of them were looking at Jimin worriedly and it brought him into tears.

"Hyung, bakit?" Sunoo asks in panic. "What's the matter? Please tell us." Tanong niya ngunit agad naman siyang hinawakan ng Kuya niya sa kanyang braso, he shook his head, silently asking him to stop.

Tumalikod sakanila si Jimin at niyakap lamang ang kumot na nakabalot sakanya. Wala namang nagawa ang dalawa kundi ang tignan lamang ito. Kibum yank his brother away and step outside the room.

Nang marinig ni Jimin ang pagsara ng pintuan ay hinayaan niya ang sarili niyang humikbi nang malakas.

Jimin eventually fell asleep from crying.

Umaga na nang magising siya ulit. Nagising ito mula sa sinag ng araw. Bumangon ito at nagpasyang lumabas ng kwarto ni Sunoo, magpapaalam rin sana ito na aalis na.

"An unidentified man who was in his 20's who allegedly committed suicide by jumping off the river and was rushed to the hospital last night was pronounced dead this morning."

Hindi niya sinasadyang marinig 'yon mula sa living area.

"Oh god, what a coincidence. Isn't that the place where we almost lost Jimin-hyung? So, another person did the same thing too last night. If we only had stay a little, we might have saved him too."

"Lower down your voice, Sunoo."

"Sorry."

At mukhang napansin nila ang presence ni Jimin at biglang tumahimik ang paligid. Humarap siya sa magkapatid, napatayo si Sunoo, bahid sa pagmumukha niya ang pag-aalala sa binata. Jimin politely bow at them.

"I'm leaving now."

Napatingin sa isa't-isa ang magkakapatid, halatang hindi sila sang-ayon roon. Hinawakan ni Sunoo ang braso ni Jimin.

"I prepared a breakfast, kumain muna tayo." Bumitaw si Jimin mula sa pagkakahawak ng binata sakanya.

"You've done enough, I'm going now." Aniya na para bang walang nangyari kagabi. Sunoo looked at his older brother troubled. Kibum was only staring at mukhang wala itong balak na pigilan ang binata.

Jimin needed a space, and they should give it to him. He's worried for him, but it appears Jimin wouldn't want to do it again, not when he knew it would hurt Sunoo. Nakita ni Kibum kung papaano niya tignan si Sunoo kagabi- he was hurt and regretful. He cherishes Sunoo, and it might have hurt him to see his younger brother like that.

"Hindi, hindi ka aalis, Hyung." Sunoo retorts back. Napatigil si Jimin sa paglalakad.

"Hyung, I'm sorry but you are not in the right state of mind. Ni hindi nga namin alam kung anong nangyayari sayo, eh. Paano kung gawin mo ulit 'yung ginawa mo kagabi? You are not stepping out of this house!"

Jimin is grateful. Really grateful that there are people who genuinely cared for him but he already made up his mind. None of that would change. He doesn't want to live miserably. It's just right to put an end to it.

Nagpatuloy ito sa paglalakad hanggang nasa harapan na ito ng main door. He twisted the doorknob and pulled it open.

"Kibum-hyung, pigilan mo naman siya, please!"

Ngunit lumapit lamang si Kibum para iabot ang perang hawak-hawak niya kay Jimin. Napatingin naman sa baba si Jimin.

"Be sure to pay me back." He doesn't mean it that way. Napangiti naman duon si Jimin at tinanggap ang perang ibinigay sakanya ni Kibum. He nods his head and looked at Sunoo.

It wasn't Jimin's intention to let Sunoo witness it and if Jimin would attempt to do it again, mabubuhay si Sunoo dala-dala 'yung guilt nang hindi pagsagip kay Jimin sa pangalawang pagkakataon. Jimin doesn't want to burden this young man. He may not consider it now but he'll a find a way where he could do it peacefully without worrying about this child.

"I won't, you have my word." He assure the young man. Sunoo ends up agreeing half-heartedly.

"Come back to us if it gets hard, alright?" Napailing naman si Sunoo sa sinabi niya. "I'll pay you a visit, so I don't get to worry." He cleared out, nginitian lamang siya ni Jimin.

Jimin headed to his place as soon as he got out from Kibum's house. At hindi niya inaasahan ang nakita niya. His older brother was there. He had his car parked outside and he's probably inside the house.

Seeing his older brother here means he's worrying over Jimin. He'd rather want Seokjin to think he's dead and make him live miserably than face him now. Jimin's breathing gets heavier and felt himself burns in anger. It's stuffy inside and he needs to leave.

And seeing Jimin at their doorstep once again, means, he's going to stay for a little while and that made Sunoo's worries washes away.

Though he didn't expect that Jimin would often lock himself inside his room.

***

Jimin had been secretly visiting his place, and there hadn't been a day when his older brother had left the place, or so he thought. When Jimin finds out they've been looking for him, mas lalo itong nag-ingat upang di malaman kung saan siya naroroon.

And he had no idea how serious it was until he walked to his own funeral. He was shocked and could not move when he saw it with his own eyes, but the sound of their cries and the look of regret on his family's faces, especially that of his own brother and parents, pleased him. He knew his death would be the biggest punishment he could give them and he was happy he witness it before his eyes.

When everyone left, he steps inside the columbarium. He stood in front of his own portrait with the urn where they had kept his ashes.

"An unidentified man who was in his 20's who allegedly committed suicide by jumping off the river and was rushed to the hospital last night was pronounced dead this morning."

"I guess this is better than not having your proper funeral. Even when I don't know who you are, I hope you have found your peace in the afterlife."

Cause I'm going to get there too.

Jimin paid his respect and leaves the columbarium at dumeretso sa bahay niya. It's been a while since he set his foot in there. Jimin wishes to get his phone, and other stuffs that he needs because he can't stay at his house now that they had claimed he was dead.

When Jimin entered his house, he immediately felt a weight in his heart. He took a deep breath and proceeded to search for his phone; he was sure he left it in this house. He searches for his bag, and, finally sees it there but the battery had drained. Jimin put it inside his pocket and went inside his room. Nakita niya ang laptop niya na nakapatong parin sa study table niya.

Kumuha ito ng travel bag at kumuha rin siya ng mga damit niya. He lastly placed his laptop and other valuable things like his card and money. But a sudden noise caught his attention. Jimin hide his travel bag under his bed and walked across the room and locked his room.

Nanatili itong nakatayo duon.

"Kim Seokjin, come to your senses! Patay na ang kapatid mo!"

"I know that! Why do you have to say that to my face every fucking time!"

"Because you're acting as if babalik pa siya! You just had his funeral rite today. He'll never come back home what's the point of still coming here?!"

"Bitawan mo ako!"

The sound of slap could be heard followed by silence.

"You're coming with me and you'll never be coming back in here because it's ruining you!"

Jimin walked outside his room to make sure they are gone. Agad naman siyang pumunta sa main door at ni-lock 'yon. Babalik na sana siya upang ipagpatuloy ang pagliligpit ng gamit niya when he accidentally step over a piece of paper. Jimin frowned and set his eyes down, the frown in his forehead disappears.

"We invite you, together with family and friends to witness the wedding of Jeon Jungkook and & Kang Dabi."

His heart was struck by a familiar, piercing pain. Jimin's heart was breaking once more, and tears had all been streaming down his face. He pressed his hand against his chest since the pain was torturous. Jimin was at a loss and struggling to breathe as it was too painful.

Jimin crouches on the floor, trying to breathe properly as if his system has shut down and he has no idea how to do it- he was hyperventilating.

And it was the first time he had experienced not being able to control his own breathing.

Fortunately, Sunoo just got right in time.

***

"The doctor said it was due to emotional distress." Sunoo cuts in. "You just had an anxiety attack, can you tell us what really happened before we got in there?" They were trying to know what exactly happened but Jimin only gave them a cold shoulder.

And Jimin hasn't talked to them since.

***

"Pwede mo ba akong samahan? I'd like to get my belongings."

Sunoo wanted to cry with joy when he heard that voice of his Jimin-hyung. He finally talks to him.

"Of course, but, Hyung, are you okay with going back there? Because the last you had been there..."

"That's... not gonna happen again." He assures.

***

"Aalis ka." Sunoo cuts in. It wasn't a question but a statement. Jimin bowed his head at the both of them.

"Maraming salamat sa walang sawang pag-unawa at pag-aalaga saakin. It helps me a lot." He genuinely said.

"Bakit kailangan mong umalis, Hyung?"

"Stop asking, Sunoo." Saway ng Kuya niya. "Jimin and I talked about this already, he's going to Daegu." Dagdag niya.

"Nang hindi man lang sinasabi saakin? That hurts." Nilapitan siya ni Jimin at hinawakan ang magkabilang kamay nito. Sunoo felt his eyes starts to water, nginitian siya ni Jimin.

"Kailangan kong umalis para maging masaya." Sunoo's tears dropped but nodded in understanding. Jimin pat the younger's cheek and mouthed 'thank you,' before turning to look at Kibum. Tumango lamang ito sakanya kaya naman umatras na ito at tuluyan nang tinalikuran ang dalawa.

"Let us to drive him to the terminal at least." Dinig nitong sambit ni Sunoo sa Kuya niya. Kibum shook his head as if he and Jimin had already discuss about it. Sunoo turned to look at Jimin at sinundan itong lumabas ng bahay.

Huminto si Sunoo sa doorway.

"Aalis ka para maging masaya, be sure to do that!"

Jimin clenched his fist and smiled before turning to look at Sunoo.

"Of course, I doubt I'll remember being in despair once I find the happiness I've been seeking, and that's a promise!"

Sunoo finally smiles believing Jimin's words.

***

Daegu, South Korea.

Malayo ang tingin nito habang nakatayo sa isang bridge. He travelled far away only for him to do this, Jimin chuckles dryly, but his facial expression begins to fall nang maramdaman niya ang pagpatak ng luha niya, bumagsak ang balikat niya at humagulgol ng iyak.

Jimin frowned when he felt someone tug his shirt. He looked down and saw a child and by the look of it, he's about, 7 or 8 years old. Jimin sobs subsided and looked around, the child was all alone.

Inalok siya nito ng panyo at tinignan ni Jimin ang panyo na hawak-hawak nito at kinuha 'yon- the kid's act of kindness only made him even more sad.

"Young student, fighting!"

Jimin's lips twitches upward. This little kid was talking as if he was an old man living inside a small body.

"Then, I'll be going now." Aniya sabay bow kay Jimin.

Nagtaka naman si Jimin habang tinitignan ang bata. It bothers him that there wasn't any adults with him kaya naman sinundan niya ang bata.

Hanggang sa huminto ito.

"Excuse me, sinusundan mo ba ako?"

"I was wondering why you are all alone." Ngumiti ito at tinignan ang backpack niya tsaka binalik ang tingin kay Jimin.

"It was because I run away, don't worry," Aniya, assuring Jimin, as if he senses Jimin's worries. "I can manage on my own." The kid's expression shifted into mischievousness.

"If you are that worried, would you like to join me?"

"Join you?"

"To have fun." And Jimin was stunned. "Kung ayaw mo, madali naman akong kausap." He added and smile cheekily before turning his back on Jimin. Before Jimin could think again, his feet already made their way to the child's direction. Obviously, he can't let this kid wanders around without a guardian.

He was already standing in his side when the child looked up at him.

"I assumed you changed your mind."

And It had Jimin thinking for awhile because that sentence sounded vaguely familiar.