My P.O.V

Mavis was still holding a traumatized Lucy. The lunch bell rings. The boys are ready to rush out when Mavis stops them. " Wait " She said. They all turn around with confused looks. " All of you stay here until I come back " Mavis said. " Why? " Jellal asked. " I can't leave her alone, so you guys stay here " She said. " Why can't just one person stay? " Gajeel asked. " Because then the others will get jealous, and then there will be another fight and I want to avoid that " Mavis explain.
" How do you know we won't fight here? " Natsu asked. " Cause you won't want to hear it from me if you break something " She said. " Not a good enough reason " Jellal said about to walk past her. " Fine, if you fight you might hurt Lucy and you don't want to know how many bones I'll break if you do " She said with a dark expression. The boys rushed to her seats and sweat dropped. Mavis went to Lucy locker to get her lunch. Gajeel glared at her making her flinch.
" S-sorry for ruining your lunch " She whispered. " Nah it's alright, we'll just get loke get it " Gray said. Lucy hid behind the couch. The boys all thought that she was being weird. Gray texted loke to get their lunches. A couple minutes loke comes with their lunch and hands it to them.
" Thanks bro " Jellal said. Loke was about to leave when he saw Lucy foot. " Who's hiding over there? " He asked. Lucy stayed quiet as a mouse. Loke moves his head more to the side and sees Lucy. " Oh it's the Blonde bombshell " He said. He walked closer to her. Lucy panicked. She hugged her knees close to her chest. Where was Mavis with her lunch. Then she realized that her locker is far away from the office and Mavis has to be careful because she is bare foot. Lucy was about to have another panic attack. She looked around. She looked at Mavis desk and saw her pills and her water. She pointed to them. Loke was confused. " What is it? " He asked as she still pointed to the bottles. Jellal finished and threw his food away. He saw Lucy pointing and loke trying to figure what she wanted. Lucy was getting more anxious every second.
" I don't know what you want " He said but Lucy barely heard from her own thoughts. Jellal noticed that she's pointing at the pills. He puts his hands on top of the bottle and she nodded. He tossed her the pills and the water which she caught. She took her pills and then drank the water. Loke was still confused about what happened so he just sat down on the couch next to her. Mavis walked in soon. She handed Lucy her food. Lucy finished and kept her trash in her lunch bag. She gets up to put her lunch bag away. She gets back to the room and sits next to loke but as far away from loke as she could. The bell rings and loke went back class. Lucy had to be strong, but she just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry her eyes. Today is the day that her mother died. I miss you mommy she thought. Mavis could see the sadness in her eyes. " Blondie! " Gajeel yelled out of nowhere. Lucy looked up surprised. " Why did you do that to shrimp? " He asked. Lucy looked at him confused then realized he was talking about Levy. She stayed silent staring down, playing with her thumbs. " Why? " He asked getting annoyed. " Because she got to close " She said. " And? You don't want to be close to your friends? " He asked raising his voice a little. " I-if they get t-to close they w...will get hurt and I didn't want that to h-happen " She said nervously. " Bullshit! " He said.
" Language Reddfox! " Mavis scolded. Lucy went to Mavis and whispers.
" Can they leave for a second so I can cry? " The boys were trying to figure out what she was saying. Mavis nodded. " Let's go boys " She said. Walking out from behind her desk. They were confused. " Go where? " Gray asked. " With me, now let's go " She said. They got up and follow her. Lucy dropped to her knees and just let the tears flow. She was holding this back for a long time. Every once in a while she comes in here to cry. " I'm so stupid, I ruined the only friendship I had, I get sent here every day, I can't even die, almost everyone hates me, or wants to date me for my body. This life sucks. " She said. She keeps crying for a while more. Then she fixes herself in the mirror and makes sure that no one  can tell that she just cried. She looks outside and sees that Mavis is waiting. She opens the door.
" You can come back now " She said softly. They come back. " Can I go to the roof top? " Lucy asked. Mavis said yes knowing that she would go up there to sing alone so no one heard her.

On the rooftop

I'm sorry mom and dad I know I messed up bad I should've should've done should've done better. I'm sorry mom and dad for all the times I've had, to get my life, to get my life, together, but I didn't

1993, you have birth to me, sweet little baby girl, had the world in my feet before I could even stand, cradle me in your right and left hand precious bundle of unmade plans. Hopes and dreams of bigger things

When I was 13 I was so damn mean running away had nothing more to say than I hate you. That's not true , I just don't I just don't know how to say

I'm sorry mom and dad I know I messed up bad I should've should've done should've done better. I'm sorry mom and dad for all the times I've had, to get my life, to get my life, together, but I didn't

You never talk about me to your friends, because you must be so embarrassed. I dropped out of college without any plans. Moved back home I couldn't even pay rent, I was living on your couch trying to figure it out. Putting myself up then tearing myself down.

I'm sorry mom and dad I know I messed up bad I should've should've done should've done better. I'm sorry mom and dad for all the times I've had, to get my life, to get my life, together, but I didn't

Im sorry that I couldn't buy you, that house upon the hill, or take care of all your medical bills, I know I didn't make you proud I should've been someone by now but I never figured out how

Im sorry that I couldn't buy you, that house upon the hill, or take care of all your medical bills, I know I didn't make you proud I should've been someone by now but I never figured out how

I'm sorry mom and dad I know I messed up bad I should've should've done should've done better. I'm sorry mom and dad for all the times I've had, to get my life, to get my life, together, but I didn't

Lucy looks around and saw no one. She was relieved. She went back to the office. " You finished? " Mavis asked with a smile. " Yup " Lucy said cheerfully. The boys were confused. She was just terrified before lunch and now she's better after she came from the rooftop she's all peppy and happy. Miss Mavis went to get something. " Blondie " Gajeel said. Lucy reluctantly looked over to him.
" Why aren't you friends with my shrimp? " He asked. " I already said it's so she doesn't get hurt " Lucy said. " She was hurt when you said that you didn't want to be friends with her any more " He said. " She only was emotionally hurt, that's way better than any other pain " She said. " What does that mean? " Jellal said. " She would be hurt worse if we were still friends " She said. " Yeah right, you just probably wanted to hurt her " Gajeel said. " No that's not it, it's definitely not it " Lucy said. " Where's the proof? " Gajeel asked. The boys look at Lucy. " I still have every picture, every gift, everything to remind me of her, she was my best friend, you think I didn't care about her? " Lucy said. " I remember everything about our friendship " She added. " I don't believe you " Gajeel said. She pulled out her phone

" This was 4 years ago, we went for coffee, and after this picture I spilled coffee all over my shirt and she let me borrow one of her shirts " She said.

" That was the carnival last year " She said.

" That was on my first sleepover "

" That was Easter 3 years ago " She said then out her phone away. " I remember everything " She added.
" Those were only pictures they prove nothing " Gajeel said still unconvinced " Her favorite color is orange, her birthday is August 1st, she likes to go on crazy roller coasters with lots of twists and turns and ones that goes upside down her favorite food is pizza, and her worst fear is someone close to her dying " She said. Gajeel had nothing more to say cause even he didn't know Levy's worst fear.

After school

Lucy got her things from her locker. She closed her locker and lisanna was there popping her gum. She backed up a little cause she was startled. " So bimbo, what's up? " Lisanna asked. Lucy looked down not saying anything. Lisanna grabbed her by her hair making Lucy wince in pain. " Hey dummy! I asked you a question! " She said. Lucy lowly whimpered in pain. Lisanna punched her in the stomach. It hurt like hell. She walked away when she saw her friends. Lucy got up, and gets her things then closes her locker. She headed home.

At home

Lucy was grabbed by her father. She dropped her bag at the door. He chocked her until she almost passed. She gasped for air and then coughed. He kicked her over and over. She crawls to her room and locks the door. She grabbed her blade. She cried and cut her wrist over and over again. She kept cutting for a while then went to the bathroom and took a shower. When she was sure that her father was sleeping. She went outside and lit some candles and put then around a picture of her mom with some flowers. " I miss you mom " She said lowly. Then she blew out the candles one by one. She put them away and the picture too. Then she threw away the flowers.