Taehyung's POV

I stared at the purple marks on my wrist from last night. Jungkook tied my wrist together so tight that I couldn't feel my hands.

I sighed and plopped myself on the sofa. Jungkook left to somewhere I don't even know, probably the club.

The events from last night keeps coming into my mind. I'm getting tired of all of this. I always ask myself 'Why do I keep on letting him do this to me?', but the answer to that is that I love him.

I love him so much that I'm willing to comfort him as much as possible..and if it's with my body, then I'll just let it be.

I am upset that he's just using me though. I actually want to make love with him, but that's not going to happen..because he doesn't love me.

His love for Mina is strong. He's been having a crush on her for awhile. I sometimes wish she didn't exist..but that's too cruel to think.

Its just that, ever since she came into Jungkook's life, him and I don't have any of those fun times anymore. He's mostly talking about her, which hurts me a lot.

But now that she's taken, everything got worse. I've been force to have sex with him almost everyday. People may call it rape, but for me, I think about it as me comforting him.

"I'm back", Jungkook said while putting the groceries on the ground.

"You didn't go to the club?", I asked while helping him with the groceries.

He shook his head no.

"I didn't feel like it, but I bought a lot of snacks for us", he said with a soft smile.

Even though Jungkook and I have those bad moments in life together, we're still the good old friends. We still laugh and smile together, but it's just that, it's getting more less and less. It's like we're starting to lose each other.

"Finally, the fridge and cabinets were starting to get empty", I said.

He chuckled and started putting the groceries away. I helped him with them. Once we were finished, we both sat on the sofa while watching a random show playing on the TV.

"I'm sorry about last night", he said without looking at me.

I didn't respond. He sighed and grabbed my wrist. He started rubbing the purple mark.

"I tied your wrist too tight..."

I took my wrist out of his hand and looked down at the mark.

"..It's okay", I said.

He sighed once again and turned to face me.

"You know I don't like it when you always say you're fine or 'it's okay', it makes me feel like a bad guy"

I sat there silently.

"What am I saying, I am a bad guy, doing all this shit to you that you don't deserve because of this dumb crush I have over someone", he said.

"You're not a bad guy, you just don't know how to get over your feelings that's why, you love her a lot, don't you? That's why you're doing this to me and I'm fine with that, so don't call yourself a bad guy when I'm letting you do this to me"

"You've been letting me do this to you? Why don't you ever stop me?", he asked.

"...I-I have reasons, but I can't tell you them now"

He stared at me for awhile and let out a deep sigh. He turned back to face the TV.

"You better tell me next time then..and trust me, I want to stop all of this shit, but you know how hard it is to try and stop thinking about the one you love, Mina makes me like this and I hate it"

Yeah I know Jungkook..it is hard to try and stop thinking about the one you love, because you're always in my mind...I love you.