The world turns a blind eye if you hide yourself well enough, so much so that even the very closest people won't be able to find you. 

It's silly to think how you feel as if you're so important and that you have a life but as soon as you take a few steps away from reality most forget you even exist and head off foolishly to keep up with the trend that never fades away, the present.

 Truly, it is a funny thing that now out of all times, when I'm killing myself painfully and slowly due to lack of motivation by dehydration and starvation that I see all the errors I've made, 

the answers I should have said and the chances I wish I took. I'm so lonely now, I wish.... I wish someone would burst in, see me and instantly react calling the ambulance,

 forcing me to eat food, drink water and overall just turn my life around and lead me into a better, much more positive path for myself.

 Buuuuuut, everyone I know is spread across the globe,  I haven't spoken to anyone in months and nobody knows where I am.

 I can't do all of it on my own, maybe in a few days I can pick myself up off this godforsaken bed and text someone. Take a shower and eat, maybe even call somebody... 

Yeah, wouldn't that be nice. Though, who would I call? Memories swirled around, and as I thought up my options a breath caught in my throat,

 glued to my tongue when his face struck into my mind. As terrifying as it seems to even try to think of calling him, I think I'll pass on choosing him.... 

Trying my best to shove the image of his face out of my mind, I ended up tumbling onto the person I wanted to see first in my mind. 

Within five days, I'll have eaten, drank water, taken a shower, brush my teeth, spice myself up and try to call somebody.

 It seems like so much, especially considering the fact that I've been doing nothing for the past couple of months. 

I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Who knows? Maybe I'll even fall asleep and have a nice little dream for once. 

It's nice to have a little hope, really nice actually. I'm looking forward to getting things done.