Someone made me pissed
You know what that means

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Everyone's talking about how they are the best
Like they did everything when I don't even rest
I laugh and smile
To make your time worth fucking while
While all you do is dial down my hope
My happiness
The things I cherish have skyrocketed
The littlest things are worth it
The people I trust
Who is that

One mean comment after another
The things that, you, my own mother
Have said and done
And don't think, you, my father, have won
I try and I try but I don't see what I should reap
Things are crumbling down as I speak
Yet I prayed for a happy marriage for you two
I prayed that even if I became blue
That happiness should come through for you
I prayed that people would get help
Leaving a prayer or two for myself

"God please let me remember" I said
"The promises I have made,
I don't care about what happens to me
I don't care if I die
So long as others are happy
I don't care if I cry
Or if I'm depressed
Just please help the rest of the household out of this mess"

I prayed and followed along for the same thing over again
I kept the words flowing out of my pen
Something for me to be remembered by, then
Someone read it
Someone I gave trust
That's when I realized my life was a bust
And the prayer started working while my life turned into dust

"God I don't care if I go to hell
Because a person like me, I know well
Hell I deserve to go to hell for the people I've hurt
I just want myself to disappear
I think the answer is clear"

Just like the situation I was taught
One person's life
Or many
I was sick of the people who made lives unsteady
Sick of the people who didn't use logic
Sick of people, which was ironic

I was a part of the people
Secretly hoping to be saved
But that didn't work so it was engraved
Into my heart
My SOUL
The very thought of happiness was closed

So long as others are happy
And the things I do are just
I'll close up, I must
Let people use me
Trust the idea of me that has been created
The part of me that lives inside them
And let me live it

If you can't beat 'em
Join 'em