here's the truth about me

yes I have fangirls

yes one is a stalker

I'm 13 and live alone with just my mom who sometimes scares me and makes me want to leave but i can't because she's all i really have 

I never knew my dad for all i know he could be dead

my friends they been through things and they understand me

sure we pick on each other from time to time but that's how we roll

in middle school, I was bullied a bit but i made them stop and soon they moved on to one of my friends and he killed himself

I am constantly afraid i will die 

i hear noises from outside gun shots every night and i pray that i'll live to see the next day

I'm constantly on edge always jumpy

but I don't show it

i fall and i get back up with i head up proud

i don't let others put me down

these's this quote

i take that to heart 

i fall down i get back up

i help others because i hope it can make up for me not helping before

there are things i've seen that i don't want to talk about

thinking about them scares me

I go to bed worried about everyone but also worried about me

I don't want to die

i just don't

i want to stay here

but i know we all are going to die one day

so i live life to the fullest

i have a very active imagination 

heck you could see a pencil and i'd see a sword

all that's happened in my past made me who i am today

that's why i've never been depressed

because i know that people care 

but that's all really

idek why i wrote this