It's Thursday,and here something new for everyone.. The Thursday Thoughts,where there'll be thoughts,confessions and just other typical moonwalker things that we kinda do on a daily basis.

So in this first edition of Thursday Thoughts,tbh I'm gonna talk about that subject that we don't even like to be mentioned. Yeah,you're getting it right, it's only 3 days left now to 25 June... the day we don't really like to face... *sighs* I just don't know what to say,even mentioning about it make me kinda feel awful.. I feel something inside my chest,mu stomach,and that's not so good feeling... a strange kinda feeling,I can't even explain it..

I just don't know where he is or in what condition he is... there are tons of speculation about his death. I don't really  care whether he's alive or really dead.. the only thing I care for is to him be happy. Yes,every year I just pray for this one thing,wherever he is,let him be happy. He seeks for that pure happiness in his whole life.. yeah I just can't write anymore.. I'm gonna breaks down now... I'm feeling this weird lump in my throat.. *sighs*

Here's another little thing that I wanna tell too... basically I don't say or mention about this kinda things cause I feels like it's kinda silly and my dreams are my personal matter... but... yeah yeah,actually I dreamt of Michael last night.. I don't really remember the whole thing but one thing is still striking me.. I saw that he held my hand,that reach out to him.. and I dont know,I had this strange feeling that someone really held my hand... I don't know,I felt this strange feeling in my sleep... yeah this can be just my imagination or maybe stupidity,but tbh,sometimes this kinda imaginations or stupidity feels good.. when you just cant reach out for the thing you love or want in real,then this imaginations keep you hoping.. alive.. makes you feel good and happy inside..

Tbh,at this time of year,I can feel how much actually I missed him.. missed the man whom I never met or anything.. but I still miss him a lot...

L.O.V.E!!!❤❤❤
~SwastikaDutta