!!! TRIGGER WARNING FOR BODY SHAMING !!!

Remember, you're beautiful no matter what anybody says. They're the ones with bad eyesight :)

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She was in her best clothes today. She was nervous but she was ready. She was going to confess to the guy she had been harbouring a crush on for a year now. Today was the day.

Konan looked into the mirror once more and gave herself an encouraging pat on the shoulder. She knew she wasn't the prettiest out there but she still had to do something about her pent up feelings. Months of self encouragement led her to this final moment; the big day her crush was going to know that she loved him.

She wasn't ready for how harsh her rejection would come.

Konan went by the classic slipping of a note stating that they should meet after school inside the beau's locker and anxiously waited for the moment. She made cookies she hoped he liked.

Closing hours arrived too soon and yet too slow to the violet haired girl. At long last she was the only one in the classroom with her crush. She outstretched the cookies and did a deep bow.

"I-I've loved you for the longest of time. Please accept my–" She was interrupted by the guy.

"Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa! Hold it!" He looked behind him to make sure she was actually talking to him and not anybody else. When he didn't see anybody he pointed to himself. "Are you talking to me?!"

Konan flushed in embarrassment as she slowly raised her head. "Y-yes." She stuttered. "I like y-!"

"Stop!" The guy yelled, repulsed. He even made a show of putting his hands over his ears. "Just stop okay?! Are you sure you don't have the wrong person? I mean, look at you." He gestured to her with a deigning flick of his hands. "You aren't even in my league, who the fuck are you to develop feelings for me?!"

Konan looked down at herself and instantly got insecure. She had fat thighs and bow legs. Her stomach was pudgy and her hair was weird. Not to mention her face. It was so ugly and fat. Why did she think her crush would accept her feelings or at least reject her gently? She was such a fool.

"I-I..." An apology was at the tip of her tongue. He didn't let her say it.

"Look. Whatever you have for me isn't real. If nobody made this clear to you now, I would. You're ugly. U-G-L-Y. And last time I checked, ugly apes don't date humans. Take my word of advice and find your species."

Konan refused to look back up even after he had gone, even after her vision got distorted by her tears. The guy spread the word throughout school that she confessed to him and that was how she became a bully victim.

Their degrading words hurt so much. The eggs they wasted on her body bruised her skin. The pranks and public humiliation they pulled on her broke her spirit. Konan could not look herself in a mirror anymore. She felt vile, disgusting and horrible. She was grotesque. She was ugly.

When her parents decided to change her school when the bullying got too much Konan vowed never to be the same girl she was before. So she started working out and dieting.

It didn't take too long to realise that she was better off eating once or twice in a few days and vomiting the ones she had ingested. Her body had to be in top shape.

However, her efforts didn't pay off. She was still bullied in her new school for being weird so she intensified her efforts. She stopped eating altogether in favour of taking supplements and spent her money on body treatment and beauty products.

She didn't want to be ugly. She didn't want to be left alone because she was ugly. She didn't want to be abandoned again. She didn't want to be bullied again. She didn't want to be lonely.

One day, she passed out after a couple of girls thought it would be fun to use her as the basketball hoop during P.E class. Her body was so weak and damaged that she didn't open her eyes again until two weeks later which was when she was diagnosed of anorexia.

Konan's case had gone extreme so she was immediately admitted into the mental institution in which she was the only female and anorexic patient. She still dug her fingers down her throat after meals and puked till her stomach acid started to feel like it was running out despite the close monitoring they kept on her.

What could she do? She was just an insecure teenager that had no one she could look up to for help. She still had no one to lean on except herself. Even if nobody liked her because she reeked of vomit, she had no one else to run to except herself.

So after lunch she snuck into the bathroom and dug her hand into her throat once more.

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Pardon me if this story seems random at some point. I have no idea how this goes, the story is literally writing itself.

Thanks for reading! Once again I just want you to know that you are so beautiful. If you think you aren't, you're among the wrong crowd. Come to me, I can be your friend :)

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