"Deception (An outrage!)

Disgrace (For shame!)

He asked for trouble the moment he came

Deception (An outrage!)

Disgrace (For shame!)

Evil as plain as the scar on his face

Deception (An outrage!)

Disgrace (For shame!)

He asked for trouble the moment he came"

The song blared out of the TV, i always played Lion King when i'm sad. But right now i am beyond sad...i am miserable!

My date with Nick yesterday was beyond amaizaing, but then towards the end it all went to heck...

**FLASHBACK**

It started as if it was a dream, he drove to my place. Picked me up, and we drove to a local restaurant (name of which I couldn’t remember) and got cozy seats in a dark corner. By some miracle no one recognized us…or they didn’t want to, I couldn’t tell. Something kept nagging at the back of my mind, though I couldn’t remember what. As we ate our meal in comfortable silence we made small talk, nothing that’ll make things awkward, like my broken engagement, his bands breakup…world hunger…

“So what’s new in Miley town?” Nick asked as he stuffed his face with a bowl of spaghetti.

“Miley town?” I let out a scoff, “Not much”

“Really? Because last I heard, you were giving Robin Thicke a boner” his face broke out in a grin.

“OH MY GOD! Nick I can’t believe you said that!” My face burned crimson red. Nick howled with laugher,

“What are you blushing for? You didn’t blush when you were grinding his brains out”

“Shut up!”

“Or what?” he demanded.

“Or that plate of spaghetti will join the various other goop in your hair” I leaned forward and whispered menacingly.

“My my, lil Miss Cyrus has a back bone”

“lil Miss Cyrus? Nicholas please stop” I say in a British accent.

We both laugh and I begin to wonder, why did we break up? What was so wrong that we didn’t stay together? Then what he said finally hit me. “Backbone? What does that mean?” I peek out my lips.

“Errr…”

“You saying I’m weak? That I’ve always been pushed around?” Tears brim my eyes.

“Jesus! Miley! No!” Nick began to panic, sweat nearly breaking out.

I stuck my tongue out at him, “gotcha!”

“Oh Jesus-fucking-christ” Nick held his chest and let out a breathe. “You nearly gave me a heart attack.”

“Sometimes I wonder if I should’ve just stuck to acting” I smiled.

“Well, if you did you’d make a butt load of money…not that you don’t already!” he quickly interjected.

“haha” I giggled. It felt SO GOOD to do that again…so relieving! “I’m really having a wonderful time here Nick”

“Me too” he looks deep into my eyes. “The best” Suddenly his whole form changed to tense and uncertain, I’m brow crease with worry. “I-I need to ask…say something”

And at that moment he literally DID break out in sweat. “Nick, What’s wrong?”

“A lot of things.”

“First of all, I want you back…back in my life I mean” he looked at me with complete an utter sincerity.

“Oh…” my eyes widen in shock, back in his life? As a girlfriend? A buddy? A lover? What, WHAT!?? I took quick sips of breath so Nick wouldn’t notice. Once the blood flowing into my head had reduced I looked at Nick with passion and a great smile, “I am in your life Nick…now and always”

He broke out into a goofy smile, and I laughed, the nagging feeling came back but I ignored it. Things were looking up. Greatly.

And ohhhhh, I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive,

And ohhhhhhhhh, I can fly, I can fly, I can flyyyyy.

And I’m loving every second, minute, hour.

Bigger, better, stronger, power…

Nick’s phone came to life with the beat of the song, he fumbled in his jacket to get it out.

I looked at him with a crooked smile, “really?”

“I’m a fan” he replied simply. “Of Will! Not Justin” he burst out.

I laughed so hard I almost threw up.

Nick was grinning when he looked at his phone. His whole face dropped after.

His face became a mask of stone, void of emotion, so scary I stopped mid-laugh. He didn’t notice.

“Are you done?” he asked, looking at my plate. I actually wasn’t but there was no way on earth that I would say so.

“Yeap”

“Good, cause we’re leaving” he threw 3 hundred dollar notes on the table, way way WAY too much money for the meal.

“Already?” I looked up in shocked but still grabbed my coat from the back of the chair as I got up after him.

“I got some…disturbing news” he says darkly. Wow, what’s up with him? What news could possibly make his mood shift from happy and jubilant to dark and menacing in two seconds flat? That kinda mood shift is worthy of Christen Grey from Fifty Shades…and yea, I’m a fan, who isn’t?

“Hope it’s not bad” I say stupidly.

“Ha, and when is disturbing news ever good?” Nick tightly laughs at me.

We are out the door in a flash, but then…

“NIIIIICKY!!” someone squealed from down the street.

“Oh no, too late” Nick murmured, I’m sure he didn’t want anyone to hear that. Suddenly he looks at me with so much apology in his eyes…and leaves my side.

Out of the blues, a really tall, really skinny, really beautiful, brunette ran out of the crowd. Nick runs forward and scoops her off her feet, they twirl around and next they kiss. A kiss that was so heart melting I almost broke into tears.

Why am I crying? It makes no sense! I look away for the scene is too painful to watch, memories of me and Liam sharing moments like this resurface, and my cool façade at their PDA begins to crack.

“Hello” I hear a soft nice voice say. I look up into the most pretty face I’ve ever seen.

“Hi” I reply back in my meek gruff voice.

“I’m Olivia Culpo” she flashes perfectly white teeth. And in that moment I felt sick, ugly, pale, dirty, short, and unattractive.

 “I know who you are” recognition hits me. “Your last year’s Miss Universe.” Then the nagging feeling that had been bugging me aaaaaall night came crashing down, suddenly bile rises up in my throat. I knew who she was.

Nick steps forward, puts his arms around the walking Angel and begins to say the words that will haunt me for the rest of my life.

“Olivia…this” he points at me “this is Miley Ray Cyrus” as she squeals with delight Nick looks at me, pain and shame in his eyes. DON’T! “Miley…”Do not say it!  “…this is Olivia Culpo…” DON’T YOU DARE FUCKING SAY IT!!

“My Girlfriend…”

**PRESENT DAY**

I scoop up a huge spoonful of ice cream into my mouth, remembering how Nick scooped and kissed Olivia. Why did i almost cry? It wasn't like he proposed or anything...

But you wanted it to be you...

"Deception!! (An outrage!)

Disgrace! (For shame!)..."

The song rang out as I let out a heart breaking wail.

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Words can't begin to describe how sorry I am. School, finals, boys...what can I say?

Deepest apologies.

-YaGalVicky!