I Miss You, Sister

That night Jessica had arrived to Ann's apartment. Luckily, there were two bedrooms so Jessica had some space to herself. She was full of emotions. She was devastated, heart broken, angry, and sad. Her own parents didn't want her. She knew Ann was in the same boat, but Ann didn't have a relationship with her parents like Jessica did.

Jessica just sat there, reflecting on the good times she had with her mother and father, and how close she used to be to Albert. He was always strict, but a good man and father at the time. Jessica felt like it was her fault that their relationship came crashing after she met Sam and now that she's pregnant.

Ann handheld the situation better than Jessica. It was more freeing for her to come out and be her own person. For Jessica, that wasn't the case.

When they got to the apartment, Madison was there with open arms for Jessica.

"Come sit down, I made some tea for you." Madison says

"Thanks, honey. She needs it." Ann says sitting down with Jessica and comforting her in her arms.

"I made the spare room all nice for you and cleared the drawers. Just make yourself at home... because, our home is your home, okay?" Madison says handing her the tea

Jessica was able to take a break from crying and have some tea. "Thank you." She mumbles

"How do you feel? You had a rough night?" Ann asks

"I feel so sick. And Sam! I have to tell Sam... he's probably so worried." Jessica says

"Don't worry, I texted him and told you that you were okay. Call him in the morning and have him come over. Just relax right now." Ann smiles

"I can't believe mom and dad..." Jessica shakes her head

"Me neither." Ann says with sadness

"Why did you come out to them? You didn't have to do that."

"I did it for myself. It was time." Ann nods

"You guys are really brave..." Madison smiles

"I feel like I'm intruding. I'm sorry." Jessica starts to cry again

"Jessie, stop! You're not!" Ann says

"We promise you!" Madison adds

"I hate my life! I hate all of this! I don't want to be pregnant." Jessica sobs

"But you are and we will handle it. We will help you every step of the Sam and I'm sure Sam will too. Listen, we have it all planned out. You'll go to school, I'll drive you everyday and pick you up. Maybe, you can get a job for some spare money? Ann and I will help you. You're not alone. You don't need your parents. They are toxic for you." Madison takes Jessica's hand and comforts her as well.

"I didn't plan for any of this to happen."

//-//

When it was time for bed Jessica laid in her new room all by herself. Usually she would have Jane over and they'd talk until they passed out on the floor or in each other's rooms.

So many things went through Jessica's head. She felt so lost and lonely now. She missed her room, her bed, her posters, everything.

All she could think about now is Sam... how was she going to tell him? Will he be happy? Mad? Angry? Will he break up with her? Jessica was oblivious to the future and what it had in store for her. All she really wanted right now was her mothers reassurance.

It was around midnight when Jessica had gotten a call. It was from the spare phone so she knew it was Jane.

"Hello?" Jessica says

"I can't sleep." Jane whispers

"I can't either. I miss you." Jessica cries

"I miss you too. But, I'll see you Monday, right? At school?" Jane says

"Yeah. You will."

"I know you're sad, but don't do anything stupid. I love you." Jane cries

"I love you too. What's going on over there?"

"Well, I'm grounded. But I still have my car to drive. Text me what else you want from the room and I'll bring it to school." Jane says

"Thanks. How's mom and dad?"

"There was no dinner tonight. So George and I made Mac and cheese. Mom and dad have been fighting, but mostly mom has been crying. How are you?"

"I'm scared to death, Jane. I'm pregnant."

"I know. But eventually you have to find peace with it and be happy... you're making me an aunt!" Jane says, trying to lighten the mood.

"Yeah..."

"Have you talked to Sam?"

"He knows I was kicked out and he thinks it was because of the party. But he's coming to Ann's tomorrow while her and Madison are grocery shopping. So I will tell him then. But how do I tell him? How will he react?"

"God. I don't know. I'm sorry." Jane sighs

"Was your phone taken away?" Jessica asks

"No, but dad blocked you and Ann. He said I can't talk to you, but I don't care. They did the same on George's phone and he wants to talk to you soon."

Jessica cries a little more. Her family was broken and she couldn't help but blame herself.

//-//

The next day Jessica had woken up and took a shower before Sam came. She barely got any sleep that night, but she had enough energy to go through the day.

"We will be back around three. Is there anything else you need?" Ann says giving her sister a hug and kiss goodbye.

"No, I'm okay."

"Will you be fine here with Sam alone? I can stay and help you tell him." Ann says

"I got it. Thanks, I love you."

//-//

For another hour Jessica waited for Sam to get to the  apartment. Her hands were shaking and her head was moving a thousand miles a minute.

Finally, he knocked on the door and Jessica ran to him.

"Hey, baby. I'm so glad you're okay." He says giving her a big hug

When she saw Sam, she couldn't help by cry.

"Aww, baby... it's okay..." he says

"No, it's not. I was kicked out and..." she starts to sob

"Let's sit down and talk..." he says

He walks her to the couch and they sit. He hand one armed wrapped around her and the other was holding hers. She was crying uncontrollably and couldn't stop. She didn't know how to calm herself down. All Sam could do was comfort her as she cried.

"Things will get better. This will blow over and you can go back home. But being at Ann's can't be that bad. I mean look at this place. Your sister is awesome and so is Madison from what you've told me. And I'm here for you."

"But you don't understand. Things won't get better." She says

"Why do you say that? Things are hard now but they will get better baby. I'm here for you. Remember, when you graduate we can go off somewhere and live our lives. Fuck college for right now. I want to see the world baby and I want to see it with you. I'll wait for you."

"Sam... I'm pregnant." She cries

Sam's smiles go away and his heart sinks to the bottom of his chest. His mouth suddenly went dry and his dreams seemed to be crushed in a matter of seconds. Furthermore, he felt numb and scared all at once.

"Sam?" She says after a moment of silence.

He breaks away from her and hunches over, running his fingers through her hair. He didn't believe what he was hearing.

"Sam! Say something god damn it!" She yells

Sam breaks away from his stare and looks at Jessica.

"But we used..."

"Protection I know... but I'm pregnant. I found out at the hospital. They said that it could have been one of the reasons why I passed out. I don't know, but I'm pregnant. Next week I go to the doctor and I want you to be there. I want you to tell me how you feel!" She cries

Sam stands up and clenches his fist with anger. "I feel scared!" He says loudly

"I know... and I do too. But we can do this, can't we?"

"Do what? Have a baby?" He says

"Yes... I mean I know it isn't ideal especially at our age but I'm pregnant and we have to face it. I can't Terminate this pregnancy because... well I wouldn't  be able to live with myself and I know you wouldn't either. And adoption, I can't go on in this world knowing that my child is out there and I'm not it's mother and in it's life." She cries

Sam stands there and looks around. He then looks at Jessica who was crying harder and harder by the moment.

"Okay..." he says

"Okay?" She asks

"Then we do this. We have this baby." He says

"Really? You mean that?"

"I mean yeah... at least now I do."

"At least now you do? What does that mean? A week from now you'll change your mind?" She says with anger

"I don't know, Jessica! This is a lot! I don't know how to feel." He says

"Remember when told me that you'd love me no matter what? And be there for me no matter what?" She asks

He nods his head.

"I've sacrificed everything for you. My relationship with my parents and now look at me! Pregnant and basically homeless!" She yells

"Jess-" he says

"No Sam. I'm not going to sit here and let you go back and forth. You're either in or you're out!" She says standing up

Sam was at a loss for words. He didn't know what he wanted. He didn't know if he wanted in or out. In his head he wanted out, but he knew that he had to be in.

"Are you going to say anything to me? Right now I'm talking to you as the mother of your child. Not your girlfriend." She hisses

Sam shakes his head and grabs his coat.

"I don't know what I want. I need space. I need to think."

"If you leave me right now, then this is over and I know you're out." She yells

Sam stands by the door and looks at Jessica who was in distress. At this moment in time, Sam didn't even know who he was.

"I have to go." He quickly opens the door and leaves before Jessica could say another word.

She stood there in disbelief. That is when her world finally stopped turning.

//-//

3:

"Jessica? Are you home?" Ann says as she looks through the apartment

"Where could she be? She didn't leave a note?" Madison says

"Jessica!" Ann says running to her room

When she reaches her room she hears Jessica crying and hyper ventilating through the bathroom door.

"Jessica, let me in!" Ann bangs on the door

Jessica didn't respond.

"Madison, go grab the key above our door!" Ann yells

"Jessica, open the door, please!" Ann cries

"It's all my fault... my world is over." She cries

"It's not over. Please... open the door." Ann says putting her hand on the door.

"Here, that's the key." Madison says

Ann quickly unlocks the door and sees Jessica on the floor sobbing. She had a razor in one hand and her other arm was out straight.

"Jessica! No!" Ann jumps onto her and grabs the razor, throwing it out of the bathroom.

"Ann, please, let me." She cries

"No, I'm not going to let you kill your self, Jessica. Don't do this..." she cries squeezing Jessica as tight as possible.

Jessica leans back on her sister who was behind her cradling her and cries.

"Nobody wants me..." she cries

"That's not true... I want you. I want you so bad. Jane and George they do too. Even thought it may not feel like it so do mom and dad." Ann cries along with her

"Sam doesn't want me..."

"Oh Jessica...." Ann says

"I have nothing to live for."

"That's not true! You have your life to live for and this baby. This little baby inside you that is yours. The baby is worth living for. And you are too. Besides, what about me? I don't know if I could live with you not here. Jessica you have to listen to me. Just breathe and listen." Ann says sternly

Jessica takes a deep breath and looks at Ann was desperation in her eyes looking for a good explication as to why she could stay.

"It's going to be fucking hard. I mean 16 or not it will be hard, Jessie. But you have so much support. You have me, Madison, Jane, George, I bet grandma and grandpa. Mom and dad will come around. You are their daughter. For Sam, I don't know about him... but this is his kid too and one day it will click in his head. But until then you don't need anyone but us. We are here and your life is just and precious as everyone else's. Do you hear me?" Ann says

Jessica nods her head and gives Ann the biggest hug.

"And tonight you and I are having a sleep over. Okay?"

"Okay."

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